Chapter 21
John and Natalie sprang apart and he said, Shit!
Mason knocked again and said, Hey, you in there?
Coming! John said as they searched for their robes and tried to gather up their empty mini-liquor bottles and toss them away.
Natalie stood by the end of the bed trying to smooth down her hair. She had no idea what she looked like and she wished shed bolted to the bathroom but now shed have to blow right past Mason to do so.
John came walking back towards her, Mason following behind and he stopped to look at them both. He had a look of exasperation on his face and it was in his voice when he said, OK, look, Chase is at most 20 minutes behind me so I dont have time to be sensitive and mince words. Please understand that Im not asking Im not judging Im just saying but this room smells like booze and sex and mostly sex at that. And you guys smell of each other.
John and Natalie both looked embarrassed and chastened and he started to say something but Mason held up his hand. No time. Look you two go take a shower. And yes I mean together theres no time for two and no need to pretend you havent already been close enough to be able to survive sharing one. I will try to make this room somewhat presentable now go GO!
Now dying to simply get away from him for a moment they headed into the bathroom. When the door closed Natalie said quietly, OK, that was excruciatingly embarrassing
Yeah, but better him than Chase. John said this as he was reaching in and turning on both shower heads and it struck him exactly how much had changed how much had happened in the few hours since hed last done that. One welcome difference was the water temperature which he made invitingly warm.
After you he said to Natalie and she took off her robe and stepped in, suddenly feeling a touch of shyness. Even after everything the idea of taking a normal shower with John struck her as an incredibly intimate thing to do. He could sense a little bit of discomfort in her and as soon as he stepped into the shower he pulled her around and into his arms to hold her close for a second. He felt her relax against him and as she put her arms around his middle he reached up and grabbed the small bottle of shampoo off the shelf and poured some in his hands, and then he moved them to her hair and began to wash it, his deft fingers massaging her scalp. She sighed against him and said, That feels like heaven
He moved her further under one of the showerheads to rinse the shampoo out, and then he poured conditioner in and repeated the process. By the time he was done there wasnt an ounce of tension in her. Next he took the shower gel and poured some on a wash cloth and began to wash her entire body, taking care to be especially gentle wherever he saw acid burns, which were thankfully few and minor. He was becoming totally aroused as he learned yet more about, and cared for, her body in this way, and he tried to keep his lower half at a safe distance so as not to change the entire nature of the exercise they didnt have time and Mason was just outside. With just a seconds hesitation he finally moved the cloth between her legs to wash her gently there and she gasped, her head coming off his chest and their eyes locking. Hed known it to be a bad idea, but hed done it anyway, and now he didnt want to stop and from the look on her face she didnt want him to.
John moved his right thumb to Natalies lower lip and traced its lush, now-swollen contour. She parted her lips and his thumb was suddenly pressed against her tongue and he drew a sharp breath as his erection jumped. She then closed her lips around his thumb and sucked on it and in a heartbeat he had replaced it with his own tongue as his mouth took aggressive possession of hers. They clung to each other as they kissed but finally Natalie broke away though her arms remained locked around his neck.
John she said shakily as if in admonishment.
I know, we cant but even as he said that he was backing her against the wall and raising her right thigh so he could glide into her in one fluid stroke and he almost lost it when he felt her walls begin to clutch at him immediately. He had retaken her mouth so they could swallow each others noises and Natalies legs banded around his waist, her arms around his neck. In five quick, deep thrusts they were cumming together, their arms like vices around each other to steady themselves. John finally surrendered her mouth and whispered against her neck, Jesus Natalie what are you doing to me?
She couldnt have answered him if shed wanted to since she was still totally impaired from her third mind-altering climax of the day. She was never going to be able to be alone with him again and not want him. Correction, shed probably never be able to see him, hear him, THINK of him without wanting him.
John eased out of her and said, Weve got to hurry up and while she stayed leaning against the wall to regain herself he quickly washed himself. Finally she finished her own shower, knowing neither could be trusted if John put his hands on her again.
As soon as they had headed into the shower Mason had gone to the door and kept it ajar while he went to the housekeeping cart sitting outside the room two doors down and he grabbed some of the freshening spray from it. When he got back inside he thought of how best to proceed and avoided thinking about anything else. They were supposed to have made the room look used for their cover story and boy had they done a bang up job of it. Pun intended he supposed. Hed leave most of it as is, but realized hed better get rid of the comforter which was the most impacted from their activities. He yanked it off the bed and they tossed it in the closet, closing the door. Now the sheets simply looked mussed appropriately, as did the pillows. He scooped up the trash can by the desk, which had all the empties from the mini-bar, and carried out to the housekeeping cart again so he could dump them in the attached garbage bag. Then he liberally sprayed the freshener around the room and onto the bed linens, sighing deeply.
As Mason was passing by the bathroom yet again to return the spray to the cart he could have sworn he briefly heard a soft moan and he stopped dead in surprise, not knowing if he should laugh or go in there and wring both their bloody necks. Clearly they had lost their damn minds and were about to drive him around the bend with them. He had never known John to be so reckless in this way and it concerned him, yet part of him understood. He had seen what was developing between John and Natalie even as hed try to turn a semi-blind eye and hope for the best because the complications could be significant. There was something about the way they looked at each other and it wasnt just about physical attraction thats what made it so dangerous. He knew if it had only been about sex John would have had no problem drawing a line and finding another outlet. No, this was about Natalie.
He could almost see how it had gone down this afternoon frantically having to strip off and shower, of course together because acid would not have waited on propriety. Then they had likely succumbed while still in the shower he knew he probably would have. So, if they had left things there well, they might have been able to pull out of the possible death spiral. But clearly, if his clean up duty had shown him anything, they had not stopped there. And even if they hadnt first had each other in the shower, moving their party to the bed showed intent. It proved they had not just been in the heat of the moment. But the most troubling of all was what he was now certain they had gotten up to when all they were supposed to have been doing was quickly showering so they could begin to fix things so they could prepare for Chase who would miss nothing he hadnt gotten to where he was by missing a thing. He walked over and sat on the chair by the desk, figuring hed done all he could. And he tried very hard to stop thinking about the highly personal things that had happened in this room. He hated to be involved in it at all, but there hadnt been any choice, really.
A moment later John and Natalie walked out in their robes and towards him. They sat next to each other but with at least 2 feet of space between them on the side of the bed so they could face Mason.
Good shower? he asked with an arched eyebrow and Natalie flushed because she knew HE knew she just nodded.
Uh huh
John spoke up to address what he and Natalie had spoken about before leaving the confines of the bathroom. Mason, if you need to tell Chase to report us
Mason looked at him like hed grown two heads and said, Why would I do that?
Because if it comes out and if it seems you knew
Look, today is today. I have no problem writing it off as a heat of the moment sort of thing. He said this knowing it had expanded well beyond that. Going forward well, I wont know anything for sure. The only thing I could possibly KNOW is that you two are sneaking off together but that is your actual assignment. So, no problem there either.
They both looked at him and John said, Well, if the need ever arises
Well, lets hope for your sakes more than mine that it doesnt. I know I dont need to tell you to be careful. So, anyway any idea what the hell happened? Who it was?
They both shook their heads, and John said, We can have the clothes analyzed but I do know it wasnt sulfuric acid, otherwise we would have been in a lot more trouble maybe hydrochloric I just dont know
At that moment there was a knock on the door and Mason went to get it while John and Natalie stood to face the entrance. It was Chase. He walked in and looked carefully at John and Natalie who, thank goodness, seemed quite normal. Are you two OK?
John answered, Yes. Very minor burns on our hands and necksthats mostly it our clothes bore the brunt of it, and thank God I saw them coming and turned us away so our faces werent exposed
Yeah, McBain, we dont want your gorgeous mug ruined, do we Chase laughed. He was relieved that his agents were OK, and he got right down to business.
These are some still photos from the one of the security tapes. They arent great since the hoods and sunglasses were pretty effective in shielding their identities but there is one that isnt bad if you know the guy you might have a shot at recognizing him from this. Chase placed the photo on the desk as the other three gathered around it and Natalie gasped while John and Mason felt a bolt of fury go through them it was Rocco. That bastard! John said before he could stop himself.
Chase turned to him and asked, You know him?
John replied, We all do hes a jerk from Georgetown whos been bothering Natalie there and at The Brazen Head. Mason and I tried to steer him away but apparently hes a thickheaded moron. He went on to explain what Rocco had done and now Chase was mad - at Rocco and his agents.
And why didnt I hear about this stuff?
Natalie broke in, That was my fault. It just didnt seem like anything more than college BS and we couldnt let it get in the way
Chase was slightly mollified and he said, Well, unfortunately at this moment we cant take normal legal action because too many questions would be raised and it might leak out and become some tawdry tale of the type the inside-the-beltway crowd love. They would be all over a Secret Service Agent trysting with a college co-ed. But I promise you this, the moment this whole case is over I will hand everything over to the authorities. In the meantime, I am going to dispatch two of our more hotheaded agents to have a bit of a chat with this guy let him know we dont take kindly to him harming one of our agents you John, given Natalies cover and that next time well take action that will have nothing to do with due process. To be on the safe side Im going to run a background check just to make sure he isnt tied to any groups that would suggest this is more than meets the eye. Do you know his last name?
Bernisky answered Natalie.
OK. Oh that bag has some clothes. I could only do the basics sweats but theyll get you home. Im going to head out now and get this stuff in motion. I guess the one good thing is you guys must be selling your inappropriate relationship if its inspiring wackos to throw acid great job at making it seem real
John, Natalie and Mason stood still with small smiles plastered on their faces, and then mercifully Chase was gone. Three sighs of relief came pouring out as soon as the door slammed shut.
OK, you guys dodged a real bullet there
Thanks, Mason John began.
I know youd do it for me youve covered for me enough in the past, too
They looked at Natalie and realized she looked downright upset.
John took a step towards her and asked, Are you OK?
She looked at him and he could see some tears shimmering in her eyes. Its my fault, John. You could have been really hurt and its my fault because of Rocco
John stepped to her and rubbed her face softly. Natalie, its ROCCOs fault you didnt ask for his attention and its the job and what weve had to do that further stoked him She looked at him and didnt seem convinced, but she did shake her head as if she saw his point.
Mason had watched this interplay and sighed inwardly. They had an obviously intimate connection that on one level could serve their cover, but on another could begin to raise questions in some peoples minds namely Chases as to whether lines had been crossed.
John said, Why dont you go into the bathroom and get changed, then maybe we three can go grab a quick bite to eat somewhere steady our nerves
Natalie grabbed the smaller sweat suit basic gray government-issue and headed into the bathroom.
John turned to his friend, Go ahead, say whatever you need
Mason shook his head, You dont need me to you know it all already. And Im not going to lie and say I dont understand I do. The more Ive spent time with Natalie the more unique Ive realized she is especially because she herself has no clue. You just both need to be careful. This sort of thing it sometimes blows up badly, both professionally and personally yet sometimes, well, sometimes it works out problem is you dont know until you know
John just nodded and figured it best to just change the subject. Its not like he was going to have a guy talk with Mason now and give him chapter and verse on everything that had happened with Natalie. And that gave him pause because normally they were just scoundrels enough to share the gories as they called them. They had de-briefed about their romantic and sexual escapades for years, but John wouldnt dream of doing that with regard to Natalie. What they had shared, especially as she had opened herself up for him to show her about herself, it was incredibly intimate and private. Perhaps the most intimate experience hed ever had with a woman. So, he could still learn about himself, too, he realized.
He said quietly, Its really my fault, you know about Rocco
OK, McBain, how do you figure that?
Because I didnt just warn him again to stay away no, I had to shove it up his ass for him that Natalies mine
Mason took note of Johns words and said, Interesting choice of words, John is she?
Is she what?
Yours?
John inhaled sharply and didnt want to tackle that, so he replied in a slightly dismissive tone, You know what I meant
No, John, Im not sure I do thats why Im asking. More importantly, Im not sure you do and maybe you need to figure that out especially in light of today
While theyd been talking John had gotten dressed and it felt better to have clothes on he felt less exposed. He said nothing, just looked at Mason and then turned towards Natalie who had come back into the room.
Natalie thought she had walked in on a significant conversation between the two men friends and colleagues for a very long time and she hoped that somehow she wasnt coming between them, making their lives harder.
The three grabbed a quick bite at a nearby Italian restaurant, trying to keep things light and on neutral subjects. Mason regaled them about a recent date with Angela and they were sharing some genuine laughs. But every now and again John and Natalie would lock eyes and theyd remember, and then theyd have to remind themselves they werent alone. Mason, of course, saw this and he wondered if they even had the first clue yet that theyd fallen in love because thats what he saw passing between them. He wanted to be happy for them part of him was. But he was old enough to know that love often wasnt enough to overcome the sorts of obstacles that a complicated life could put in the way. He had never seen John like this. He knew that just before hed met him hed lost someone very close to him, and that that had essentially closed him off, even though periodically hed talked about a desire to have someone to share his life with some day. How would he deal with this all blowing up? Mason didnt know Natalie nearly as well hardly at all, in fact. But his observations told him that this might be her first serious love he wondered when or even if theyd admit it to themselves, let alone to each other. Would it be better if they didnt? At least not until this operation was over? All he could do was just try to be there for them. It was all he could do.
Mason dropped Natalie off at the White House thank goodness Zo wouldnt be home from visiting her older sister until later and then dropped John off at his car since hed taken a taxi to his clandestine meeting with Natalie. They said a simple See you tomorrow and tried to pretend everything was normal.
Chapter 22
The next couple of days felt strange because Natalie and John had no alone time just quick moments of contact at the White House while he was on duty and she was coming in or out. They needed some time to really talk, and that would not be coming for a frustratingly long period of time. The best chance to really delve into things not just each other would be during one of their hotel meetings, but the next one was almost a week away. The Mexico trip was too tightly scheduled to give them any time to meet so Chase had already informed them that theyd do their Mexico debrief back in DC. Theyd agreed it would be too dangerous to attempt a non-sanctioned private meeting. On some level it was a bit of a relief maybe a bit of space might help them see things more clearly again, whatever that meant. Natalie wasnt sure what made sense. She had to make an adult decision that didnt just take into account the way John could master her body as if it had been made for him and had just been on loan to her all these years, waiting for him to finally claim it. She had to make a well-reasoned decision that encompassed all critical factors her brain had to be engaged, not just the parts of her hed brought to life.
Two nights after the cataclysmic afternoon at the Renaissance, John and Mason came into The Brazen Head of course Natalie was on duty. Her heart rate accelerated when she saw him and he gave her a small smile that put an equivalent one on her own face. Masons own smile was warm, but wry as he noted their interaction. It hadnt been so long ago that shed stood nervously behind the bar in her plaid skirt, launching her assignment to flirt with him. She thought of the games theyd played in Canada and how her blood had stirred when hed said Consider me caught and then kissed her in a way that had melted her bones. And still shed believed they could keep things on the right side of the line. Times change, thats for sure.
She brought them over their pints of Harp and John took her hand and held it, rubbing his thumb over the back of it, when he thanked her. She realized at that moment she had no idea whether he was doing that for the job or for her and it threw her off a little. How could she should she respond and would he know where she was coming from? Would she? Still, she couldnt help the genuine smile, even if her eyes remained a bit troubled, and that smile would suit both scenarios. She brought them their food and a refill, and the three had eased back into their typical fun banter, which in turn eased the tension. Natalie realized that Mason was a God-send because he had a way of steering things without seeming to, and he was both sensitive to and detached from their situation at the same time and she marveled at his ability to find that precarious balance.
Later in the evening she went into the back room to get some coasters and she sensed Johns presence before he said anything before she turned around. She did as he was shutting the door and he stepped towards her, an intense look on his face. He took both her hands in his and said, The door is closed, so this is just you and me, Natalie its about us, not our jobs The relief must have shown on her face and he took it in both of his warm hands and caressed her cheeks with his thumbs. Then he gave her a tender kiss which she returned.
He pulled her into a hug and said against her hair, I know we have a lot to talk about a lot to figure out. And we really wont have the time and privacy to do that until we meet in DC after we get back from Mexico. But just know that when I touch you how ever I am with you its about you for you it might help our cover, but it isnt about that, OK?
Natalie let out a sigh and was so grateful for his sensitivity in realizing she needed to hear that. She pulled her head back and said softly, Thank you for saying that for knowing I needed to hear it its the same for me
He kissed her thoroughly then, and they felt the heat spring up between them, but they both knew it was going to have to wait.
John stepped away and opened the door, turning to look at her for a long moment before heading back to his table. Natalie felt better and worse at the same time. Her heart was lighter, but her body felt denied, yet maybe that was better than the opposite
John and Mason stayed a little while longer and then had to leave they had an early start in the morning. Natalie brought them their check and when they were getting ready to head out the three of them stood looking at each other for a moment. Mason could see the need and indecision on the others faces they needed to touch each other, but were clearly unsure if that would be appropriate in this setting. With an inward sigh Mason stepped forward and pulled Natalie into a hug sayin Thanks as always, darlin and he then stepped back with a wink. That, of course, made it perfectly fine for John to give her one as well, and no one would think it more than two special customers giving their favorite regular waitress a quick hug.
John gathered Natalie close to him and gave her a tight hug which she returned, but they forced themselves to break apart relatively quickly. It would have to do for now.
Natalie got back to the White House a little after 11 that night and she greeted the nighttime security guards familiarly, and then the Secret Service team on duty. Murphy and Stinson were still in the picture and she also greeted them in a friendly manner. She thought they might have looked at her somewhat strangely and wondered if rumors were starting to circulate about her flirtation with John. She should be happy about that, but given the dramatic change in their situation she just felt exposed. Her entire job right now was about lies, and she had just added yet another layer of deceit one that was dangerous, complex, powerful, and deeply personal, too.
Zo was still awake when Natalie walked in shed kept her door ajar to watch for her and she called her in. Natalie had grown to genuinely like her and felt regular pangs about lying to her, but told herself that it was to protect her. That was actually the truth, but she wasnt sure Zo would feel any less betrayed. Natalie hoped that when the time came she could help Zo see that her regard for her had been real and that shed never divulged any confidences. What was so ironic was that Zo was one of the few people really the only one besides John with whom she could actually be honest about what she and John had become. Oh what a tangled web
Hey, Natalie how was work?
It was good the usual
Zo smiled at her with a somewhat evil look and asked, Anybody I know pop in to say hello?
Natalie smiled back and said, Yes, Zo John and Mason came in
Do you know you have a moony look on your face when you say his name?
Natalie flushed, I do not!
Oh, yeah you do you really like him, dont you
Natalie responded softly, Yeah, I do unaware of the sadness that flitted across her features.
Why does that make you sad?
What?
You looked sad when you said that
Oh, nothing its just that it, well it seems kind of pointless I mean what can come of it, really? As Natalie said that, she knew she wasnt just playing the role shed been assigned.
But didnt you think a fling would be fun? It wasnt really supposed to be about anything beyond that, right?
Yeah, but Im not sure if Im the type who can handle something like that after all
Zo was very astute for her age probably from hanging around politicians all her life. Natalie, something happened, didnt it? What? You can tell me your secrets safe with me
To Natalies great surprise tears sprang to her eyes and she rolled them in consternation. Zo came over to her and put her arms loosely around Natalie and said, Tell me
Natalie was trying to figure out the right thing to do she knew Zo would keep her secret, and she knew that if it ever got out she could claim it was all to bolster her cover. But mostly right now she needed to talk to someone and she felt close to Zo, notwithstanding the lies that divided them. She swallowed hard and said quietly, I slept with him.
Zo sat back with shock on her face and said, Oh my GOD! Wow. When? Where?
Natalie was loath to share all the particulars since it sounded so cheap to say that shed met him at a hotel with the expressed purpose of having sex. Does it really matter? It just sort of happened we ran into each other
Zo accepted that. Well, how was it? I mean you dont have to give me too much detail unless you want to! she giggled.
Natalie was speaking honestly and from the heart now. Zo it was amazing. More than I ever knew it could be. He was so good with me hes really a good guy and all that makes it hard to think of it as just a fling, a quick physical situation that has no meaning going forward
Did he say thats all it was?
No.
What did he say? Did you guys talk about it?
We really didnt get a chance he had to go for some work thing. And there really hasnt been any time or place for us to talk. We cant do anything to raise any flags no one can know
Well hopefully you can soon, and maybe hell feel the same why cant something more come of it? How do you know it didnt mean more to him?
Natalie morphed partially back into her role, though her words had truth for her authentic self as well. Zo, this isnt a fairytale no Hollywood endings are likely. Im a college student, hes a significantly older professional who happens to guard the President of the United States he could have his choice of a lot of women those words stuck a bit in her throat as she said, themWhy would it be me really me beyond something short term?
Because age is just a number, Natalie, and maybe he sees something in you and not just the fact that youre a hot, sweet young thing!
It has long-shot written all over it
What are you going to do?
Play it by ear. Maybe when we get back from Mexico well find some time to talk and, I dont know, see where were both coming from. But given everything that has happened what I know now I dont believe I have the sophistication or whatever it takes to be able to have an only-physical relationship that is already scheduled to end.
Im really sorry, Natalie I feel like this is my fault
Your fault?! Why would you think that?
I pushed you in that direction so I could live vicariously and the truth is Im not sure I could handle something like that either. Im a big talker especially when it comes to telling other people what to do
Zo, I promise you, this is all on me. I guess well just see. For now I have to act as normal around him as I can
Wow, thats gotta suck. I mean, if it were me, I think Id be playing it over in my head all the time, and then to bump into him, with other people around I mean what a secret to share with him
Natalie just sighed deeply and Zo said, Sorry not trying to make you feel worse.
You havent talking to you really helped. And on that note, Im going to go to bed
Zo hugged her good night and Natalie headed to her own room. She got ready for bed and couldnt quite help the pervasive sadness that had settled over her. She tried to hold on to the relief shed felt over what John had said to her in the back room at The Brazen Head, but, really, what was going to end up happening? How could they know? She slid between the cool sheets and her body remembered the warmth the burning heat of Johns touch and presence. She wondered if shed ever have that again. And feeling very much like a lovesick school girl someone who didnt have what it took to play adult games she couldnt help the tears that slid down her cheeks and into her pillow case. She had sworn up and down she had what it took to handle this case. And shed probably have no problem facing down an assailant and protecting Zo. What shed been wholly unprepared for was the body blow her heart would take at the adept touch of her boss magic hands and mouth she knew it wasnt just physical for her. But God help her, she wanted more and that was what was causing her the most angst. She doubted shed do what was necessary to protect herself. She feared shed be weak and take whatever she could get, courting her own very personal disaster willfully.
Meanwhile in Virginia, about 15 miles from Quantico, John was sliding into his own bed. His house his home had always been his peaceful oasis. One of its best features had been the solitude. But tonight, he couldnt stop thinking of Natalie. The way she felt smelled tasted He liked the way she seemed so small in his arms, the top of her head barely reaching his chin when they stood together but then she had that mighty, feisty spirit. He blew out a frustrated breath, and willed himself to sleep.
Chapter 23
Then next day Natalie felt a bit better she was generally a positive person and it didnt make much sense to mope. John had made a point of reaching out to her last night at The Brazen Head and she would make that enough until their meeting next week. In the meantime she had a job to do and she would play her role, though in a scaled-back fashion befitting her White House surroundings. Maybe theyd even get one more night at The Brazen Head where she could flirt more overtly. If she kept the right attitude, that could be a fun diversion for the time being. She could make this work and not worry about what the upshot of their conversation would be until they had it.
She quickly had a chance to put her new attitude to work she ran smack dab into John and Mason as she walked into the kitchen of the private residence where shed headed for coffee.
Hey guys!
Hi, Natalie they said in unison.
She and John just stared and smiled at each other for a long moment and Mason just shook his head, but he couldnt fight his own smile. You guysyoure killing me!
What? This time it was John and Natalie in unison.
John stepped closer to Natalie and asked, So, where are you off to this early?
Well, Im mostly going to hang here this morning to help Zo pick out her wardrobe for her trip. Ive already got mine set since its not as important, really. I told her Id head to her moms office I mean the First Ladys office to get an updated copy of the Mexico agenda so we can map her clothes against it. Shes studying up on Mexico, believe it or not
Well I guess she wants to do her parents proud Mason said.
Yes shes really trying to take this whole tour seriously
At that moment the President entered and they all stood virtually at attention. He greeted them warmly and said, John, can you go ahead to the Oval Office and tell them Ill be right there? I forgot something in my study Mason can walk me over in a moment.
Certainly, Mr. President.
The President headed to his study and John turned to Natalie Want to walk over together?
Sure.
Again they couldnt help the small smiles that played around their mouths as they walked side-by-side along the outside portico from the residence to the other wing. Before they headed in doors John put a hand on Natalies forearm to stop her and he moved close to her. You doing OK, Natalie?
She shook her head and asked, You?
He nodded but said, I wish we had time to really talk
Me too but we will. And I really well Im glad you told me what you did last nightit helped.
He ran his hand down her arm and when he got to her hand he grabbed it and gave it a squeeze. Then he headed to the Oval Office to announce The Presidents imminent arrival.
Natalie saw movement from the corner of her eye and turned to see Agent Stinson standing in a nearby doorway with a smirk on her face shed obviously been watching them for a little while and Natalie felt her stomach drop a little. Then again, she and John had not done anything overboard really their actions were totally within the limits of her official assignment. She glanced back at Stinson and then turned to head to the First Ladys office.
Fifteen minutes later Natalie was walking down the hall towards the office of the Press Secretary shed been told that they had the most up-to-date schedule since it was going to be shared with the media a bit later that morning and she bumped right into Stinson. Natalie smiled and was going to pass her when Stinson said, Natalie, Id like a word, please
Natalie looked at her in surprise and then said, OK
Stinson moved her to a quiet corner where two hallways met and then looked at her with a somewhat snide expression. OK, Im just going to say this straight out and maybe I can save you a little bit of trouble or at least embarrassment. You are making a fool out of yourself the way you are throwing yourself at Agent McBain. And when you arent throwing yourself at him you seem to be mooning over him. Hes too nice of a guy to shut you down harshly especially because youre the First Daughters friend. But Im sure youre making him very uncomfortable.
Natalie was surprised, pissed and a little bit embarrassed but she bit her tongue as best she could and said, I think youre imagining things.
No, youve made your attraction to him your interest in him so obvious theres no need for imagination Im actually embarrassed for you.
Natalie tilted her head in defiance and said, You dont need to worry about me
Look, its not like hes going to give you the time of day.
Natalie retorted, You sure about that? Or is that whats bothering you? Do I detect a little bitterness what, were you shot down so you cant stand to think anyone else might get where you couldnt? As she said that she gave the agent the once-over, taking in her trim but unremarkable figure, angular face, amber-brown eyes and brown bob with bangs. She was about 33 and decently attractive, but almost non-descript. Natalie knew she couldnt push the agent any farther, but she thought shed remained decently in bounds. As a real college student she wouldnt have just stood there and taken it.
Stinson sucked in a breath and said, I was trying to do you a favor but if you want to continue to make yourself a pathetic laughing stock then go ahead the rest of us will actually enjoy it. You are so far off base if you think someone like John McBain would truly have an interest in someone like you. You are young and totally lacking in depth. And even if you managed to snare him with your overt charms you keep literally shoving in his face the way you approached him in Canada in your bikini was disgraceful! it will be for one reason only, and thats because at the end of the day hes a red-blooded man. So even if he succumbs to the lure of your nubile body that is all it will be a physical dalliance until he tires of you. I doubt hell even go there, but if he does it will be no doubt because of your relentless pursuit and youre the one whos going to get hurt. Stick with the college boys youre not enough to hold a real mans interest outside the bedroom, if he even bothers to take you there or just in some dark corner since youre making yourself so available
Natalie was truly taken aback and she couldnt help it Stinsons words found a vulnerable spot and she felt tears prick at the back of her eyes, but she fought against them. Before she could respond Mason came around the corner with a thunderous look on his face.
Thats enough, Roberta. You are WAY out of line. Im surprised at your indiscretion your voice was carrying quite nicely down the hall. Why dont you run along now dont make me rethink my decision not to write you up.
Stinson didnt even glance again in Natalies direction before heading down the hall.
Mason turned to Natalie and she was ashen her pallor pronounced next to her vibrant hair. He could see her eyes were suspiciously bright and she looked stricken. He stepped towards her and said softly, Natalie and when she looked at him tears had pooled in her eyes and one big fat one rolled down her cheek. Damn he thought, and he quickly took her arm and ushered her into an empty office behind them, closing the door.
Natalie, I heard every bit of BS she said, and thats what it is please tell me you arent taking a thing she said to heart. Come on, girl, dont do this to yourself dont do this to me!
Natalie just looked at him and was swallowing hard, trying so hard not to break down. She was trying to discount what Stinson had said, but her words had hit her in the most raw and exposed parts she had at the moment. Another tear coursed down her face, though she said nothing she couldnt trust her voice, and what could she possibly say anyway.
Natalie, darlin, youre breaking my heart, Mason said, and then he drew her into a hug. He could feel her tremble when he closed his arms around her and he knew she was fighting for control. Figuring some humor might help he said, Dont you know the only difference between Stinson and a pit bull is lipstick and thats just on her good days..
Natalie giggled into the front of Masons shirt she couldnt help it with that image now in her head and Mason said, Thats better laugh at the bitch
Natalie pulled back and looked at him in surprise, and then she had to laugh in earnest. You are terrible
Am I lying though?
No, she is a pit-bull bitch.
Mason gripped Natalies upper arms and said, I need you to look at me and listen to me there is zero truth in what she said. She is jealous. Thats it. She made it very clear a number of years back that she was interested in John and he made it equally clear that he did not share that interest. She still apparently has some residual bitterness that she just poured all over you but dont you dare give her words any power over you. They just simply arent true, Natalie
Natalie looked at him and shook her head, but he could see she had lingering doubts. Stinson had done a number on her and he could understand why she was so vulnerable. He sighed and said, Natalie, it isnt my place to speak for John, and I know it wont be soon enough that he has the chance to do so but I can speak for myself and to what I know about him. Ive known him for 10 years and well enough to know that you mean something to him. He wouldnt have gone where he did with you if he had nothing but a physical interest he never would have run the risk and mixed his professional and personal lives. Now beyond that, I cant say. Thats a conversation for you two to have but Stinson couldnt have been more wrong I promise you.
Natalie took a shaky breath and said, It was just a lot to take
I know and Im sorry you had to. Chases instructions have really made you a bit of a sitting duck, and now that things have gotten more complicatedbut one thing you dont need to do is listen to bitter shrews like her
Natalie laughed and said, She really isnt that bad or hadnt been last semester she was always pretty nice to me, and thats what was such as shock
Well, you made headway where she got shot down and darlin you are a nubile creature and her bloom is fading and never was as spectacular as yours
Natalie smiled at him and said, Wow, you really are pouring on the flattery to make me feel better, arent you?
Is it working?
Yeah pretty much.
Good. Im sorry you had to deal with that but put it aside. Consider the source.
Thanks, Mason.
No worries now, lets head back out and face the world with a smile, shall we?
She rolled her eyes but she was smiling when she walked out the door and they ran right into John. He looked between them and asked, Everything all right?
Mason answered for them, Natalie just had to deal with the wrath of Stinson, but I set her straight
What?!
Its OK, John really and now Ive really got to run since Im so late for connecting with Zoe She gave them a quick wave and dashed off. Truth was, she was still feeling the impact of Stinsons barbs, and being near John at the moment wouldnt help.
At the questioning look on Johns face Mason explained everything, and John was pissed, but glad Mason had been there to hear it and try to set Natalie straight. He knew he just had to let it go for nowthis was hard. It was all just hard.
Chapter 24
The day before they headed out to Mexico John finally had the opportunity to talk to Stinson alone theyd bumped into each other near the coffee station in the Secret Service offices at the White House.
Stinson was there first and she looked up to see John and he saw her face change a little bit. He just stared at her and he could tell she was growing incredibly uncomfortable and he was extremely happy about that.
Roberta I never would have thought you are a bully
John
What? Were you just looking out for me?
Yes thats
Well, Im a grown man and technically your superior, and let me assure you I dont need your help with that. You stepped over the line.
John, Im sorry but it is just so obvious that Natalie
And how is that your business? If Im not bothered by it why should you be? As far as Im concerned, Natalie has done nothing wrong, nothing that has made me uncomfortable Im fine with it all. Shes a wonderful young woman
Shes a girl.
Look, it isnt your business if Im friendly with Natalie. That is perfectly within bounds. If you have something to say about it or anything else for that matter then YOU need to act like an adult and come see me directly, and not corner her and verbally abuse her. Leave her alone.
Stinson shot him an angry look and said, Well maybe I need to go see Chase instead!
John raised an eyebrow at her and gave her a smile that held no humor it made her blood run cold. Feel free. But let me be very clear you tangle with me, you levy accusations against me, youd better have ironclad proof, not just lurid speculation. You read me?
Stinson looked at John for a second, nodded without quite meeting his eyes, and beat a hasty retreat.
John headed to his meeting with Mason and Chase they were going to go over final details for Mexico. It was going to be a quick trip, but would have its own challenges.
The three men sat around a small conference table but before getting into the meat of things John said, Chase, I want to give you a heads up on a situation that may be brewing, though hopefully between Mason and me weve taken care of it
OK
Stinson laid into Natalie for her flirtatious behavior with me. Mason heard it I didnt but she was pretty mean. Basically she told Natalie that she was making a complete fool of herself and making me very uncomfortable and that she should stop her behavior. I just told her to leave Natalie alone and come talk to me directly and she made some noise that maybe she should come see you instead, to which I warned her that if she did shed better have proof, not speculation. That appeared to shut her up, but I want you to be prepared.
Chase expelled a breath and said, Thanks for telling me how was Natalie?
Mason answered, She was initially rattled but she handled it well didnt break cover or anything
Good. OK, well, I doubt Stinson will approach me but Im glad you alerted me you guys are doing something right, it seems. Keep up the good work.
John just nodded, not looking at Mason as he did so.
OK, gentlemen, now to business. Current chatter suggests that whatever might be in the offing isnt planned until late summer suggesting as wed thought that the Middle East leg might be our biggest vulnerability. But that could also be to throw us off, and Mexico holds some dangers. Mexico City is crime-ridden and you know that kidnappings are a big problem. So even absent the terrorist angle we need to be on our toes. Moreover, we know that a lot of al Qaeda went to South America after 9-11 and Mexico is a real vulnerable point for us since the border is like a sieve. One person we should keep a subtle eye on during the party at the Mexican Presidents house is Javier Lezama his dossier is in your folders. He is one of South Americas wealthiest men and certainly one of Mexicos and is a major financier. But there are rumors hes involved in drugs, arms dealing and general money laundering and it is likely he could have some contacts and allegiances among our enemies. So we have to be on alert. He is reported to like young women very young women. Hes a couple of years older than you two. We should make sure he meets Natalie because he might give something away if hes flirting especially since hell just see her as a young college girl
John nodded and tried to ignore the twinge in his stomach at that idea it was her job, after all.
The next night found them at a gala event black tie at Los Pinos, residence of the Mexican President located in el Bosque de Chapultepec in central Mexico City. Presidente Getulio Cuervo was very welcoming of the Americans and appreciative of their visit. There would be much for the two Presidents to discuss the next day, especially the subject of illegal immigration, but tonight was to enjoy and the atmosphere was festive.
Natalie was dressed in a very simple cream silk gown that was like a sleeveless mock turtleneck that gently hugged her body until it flared out just below her hips and fell to the floor. It highlighted her long neck, delicate but defined shoulders and arms, and of course her curves, but it was a subtle look nonetheless. It also set her luminous skin off beautifully. She wore a Swarovski crystal broach in the shape of a leaf attached to the high neck of her dress, just to the right of center, and matching earrings. Her hair was done up in a French twist and a crystal comb held it in place. Silver sandals and a matching clutch purse completed her look. Zo was in an ice blue strapless chiffon that fell straight to the floor. She wore diamonds around her neck and wrist and at her ears, and had matching silk slippers on her feet.
Stinson and Murphy were assigned to Zo tonight and they each had simple black gowns on. Though Stinson gave Natalie a quick once-over, she declined any other comment or reaction. The four women made their way over towards the bar and were intercepted by Mason and John.
Mason spoke, Well, dont you all look lovely this evening.
They said Thank you as a group and Natalie could feel Johns eyes on her, appreciating what he was seeing. He looked amazing in his tux and she was unprepared for the bolt of desire that went through her when their eyes met especially since his eyes held a similar fire. He was standing near her and reached a hand out to finger the broach at her neck and he said, Pretty, bringing a flush to her cheeks. Then he looked up and caught Stinsons eyes and she looked away.
Mason, of course, had caught that whole interplay and held back a smirk, then he said, Well, it seems like you all were on a mission towards the bar I dont think theres a drinking age in Mexico, but go easy girls he said with a wink and Zo said, Dont worry, well pace ourselves Uncle Mason!
Uncle Mason?! Well that just made me feel like a geezer
You two are FAR from geezers she retorted, right, Natalie?
Uh, right exactly.
A while later Natalie headed to the rest room and almost immediately upon her return she was approached by Javier Lezama. She knew who he was and that she was supposed to talk to him, but her stomach churned a bit when she saw the way he was looking at her since he was leering as his eyes raked over her body.
Miss Maxwell, is it?
Yes Natalie, actually.
He took her hand in his and said, It is a pleasure to meet you, I am Javier Lezama, but please call me Javy all my close friends and loved ones call me that then he dipped his head to kiss her hand.
But Ive only just met you
Yet I have this feeling that we could become tremendous friends
She had to work hard to stifle the shudder that wanted to assert itself at his unctuous oiliness. He was actually quite good looking like a young Andy Garcia but he was just too over the top for her liking.
Have you been to Mexico before, Natalie?
Just on a quick dive trip to Cozumel and that was several years ago.
Well, its good of you to finally grace us with your presence.
Im fortunate to be on this trip with the President and his family.
Indeed. It sounds like a great set of trips has been set up for the balance of the summer
Yes, Im quite excited to see so many different parts of the world.
Ive been fortunate to travel to many of those places myself the Middle East is especially fascinating, notwithstanding all the trouble there or maybe because of it
Have you been there a lot? Recently?
Extensively over the years and, yes, even recently. Ive always felt an affinity for the place
Really? Well, I imagine it is, as you say, fascinating. Different.
Yes, but you might say its also in my blood my love
Natalie took note of that strange assertion and his use of the pet name for her. She figured she could perhaps use that to her advantage. She took a slight step closer and said, In your blood thats a rather, I dont know, romantic statement to make
He smiled his teeth very white against his tan skin Ah, but it is also true. I am going to share something with you that not too many people know but my mother was Saudi. She died when I was a little boy, but I am told I am quite like her so the pull of that part of the world runs deep for me theres an attraction, a deep desire to know it Hed stepped closer as he said that and she knew he wasnt just talking geography.
Natalie moved back a little, wanting to open some distance between them. He noted it with a wry smile.
Do I make you nervous, Natalie?
No, not nervous I guess that, well, we Americans are used to our personal space more so, I think, than in the rest of the world
I think you are correct. And Im sorry if I trod on those boundaries. I find myself tempted to invade your space
Ill forgive you
I hope so I also hope that at some point you wouldnt mind how close I got to you even if it was intimately so
Natalie was shocked by his boldness and it registered all over her face and in the stiffening of her body.
You are very young, my dear, and I am sure my forthrightness is unusual to you but I havent gotten where I am by, how is it you Americans say it beating around the bush And I want you. You are lovely your touch of innocence is intoxicating. Could I convince you to spend the day with me tomorrow no pressure to do anything but enjoy the day, see parts of the city only I can give you access to and then maybe tomorrow night, youll have gotten to know me well enough that youd invite me to your bed well, I guess it would be more appropriate for you to join me in mine under the circumstances
Hed said all this as he held her hand, his thumb caressing her wrist as their eyes had remained locked. She was rocked by his overt approach it was audacious to say the least. She swallowed hard and said, I, uh, appreciate the offer, but Im pretty booked with Zo during the day, and theres an event at the American Embassy
And after
Lord this man didnt quitWell, then Id hardly have gotten to know you, and it just isnt something that is like me
But isnt that part of what going abroad is about challenging your boundaries? The chance to be swept off your feet by a billionaire who can more than live up to the vaunted reputation of Latin lovers? Hed encroached again.
I appreciate... Im flattered but, well I have someone back home
A boy?
What?
Someone your age?
What does that
My dear, again, pardon my boldness, but someone like you needs a man to show you who you are a boy cannot handle all that you are he cannot help you become
Mr. Lezama
Javy. He said in a seductive purr.
Natalie took a large step back again and said, If I may now speak plainly Ill not be taking you up on your offer, however much you think I should.
Fair enough. Let me assure you that it is not my style to force unwanted attention on anyone. I may be very upfront but I also honor someones wishes. Please, I hope I have not offended you
No, not at all. Truly. Its just not well, I cant.
He smiled at her and said, If you change your mind, heres my card with my private cell on it, which only very few people have. You are enchanting, Miss Natalie but I will leave you now so as not to make you any more uncomfortable than I already have
He kissed her palm and left with a smile. She stood rooted to the spot, willing her heart to stop pounding. That was more than shed bargained for by a long shot. When she looked up she saw both John and Mason looking at her intently theyd obviously observed quite a lot of her encounter. She wanted to talk to them but not make it seem too obvious, so she first went to the bar and ordered a glass of red wine she needed something to steady her nerves. She made a show of watching the couples dancing on the floor and checking out some of the paintings on the walls, and finally reached the two men. They were far enough away from everyone else since they were guarding the perimeter, so they could talk in decent privacy if they kept their voices low. Natalie also saw that Javier was engaged in a lively conversation outside on the patio, with his back to them.
That looked intense John said.
You have no idea
He could tell she was rattled and he asked, What happened?
She laughed and said, He invited me to spend the day with him tomorrow and then share his bed tomorrow night
Mason and John were both stunned and she laughed at their expressions. I kid you not, he spelled it out point blank like that. Told me he didnt get where he was by beating around the bush. He told me hed more than live up to the Latin Lover reputation and that I needed a man not a boy she flushed as she said that.
Holy shit! said Mason.
Indeed.
I would love to go beat that bastard to a bloody pulp right now. John finally said.
That made Natalie feel inordinately happy and she smiled and said, Its fineplus, more importantly, I learned something interesting that I dont remember reading in his dossier
What? John asked.
Javiers mother was a Saudi and he said the Middle East region is in his blood
Both mens eyebrows rose at that and Mason said, Well have to have our folks look into that angle good job, Natalie
Thanks well Id better go mingle guess Ill go find Zo
When shed gone Mason turned to John and said, Down boy you cant lose it over that guy
I know its just such a shock that he was so bold about that I mean as far as he knows shes 19 19! And hes 40. Well, she handled it
Yes she did
At that moment Chase walked up and they filled him in on what Natalie had discovered about Javiers mother. Chase was impressed, I dont recall seeing that in any intel we have good for her. By the way, John this would be a good opportunity for you to flirt with her. Especially if Javier sees it hes sure to make a play
John snickered and said, He already did
What?
He literally invited Natalie to share his bed tomorrow night and when I say literally, I mean literally. Those words exactly.
Wow, that was bold.
Sure was.
I take it she turned him down?
Flat.
Good but even better, then, that he get a hint that there might be something between the two of you if he has any relevant connections, hell tell them
OK. Ill go flirt.
John found Natalie standing near an open door, getting some air as she watched the dancers which included Zo and the President. She smiled when she saw him approach and he came up very close to her and said, Chase doesnt think Im flirting enough with you
The way he was looking at her was stirring Natalies blood and she said huskily, I tend to agree
Really? Well then Ill have to fix that hmmm, what should I talk about? So many new memories to relive
As he said that it was clear he was thinking of their afternoon at the Renaissance and a flush moved up Natalies neck as she also thought back on it as her body remembered.
Maybe I should tell you that Ive never tasted anything as sweet as you ever and how the way you moan when I touch the deepest part of you makes me harder than Ive ever been
Natalie drew in a shuddering breath and could not tear her eyes away from his. She had to lock her knees to keep them from buckling. What was it with these men tonight saying such things to her but in this case, she welcomed it even as it challenged her control. He continued.
I cant get the image of you fucking my fingers out of my head, Natalie it was so erotic you couldnt help ityou were your desire
She felt the moisture pool where his fingers had been and she craved them there right now. Her eyes became a deeper blue.
John had started out feeling in control and trying to toy with her, impact her, and he knew he had by the look in her eye, her shallow breathing, and the flush of her skin, but it was also taking a toll on him. He whispered softly, Nothing to say? Nothing to add?
Natalie was almost mesmerized. She knew hed started out to tease her, but that he wasnt immune to the power of the images he was recalling. She shook off a little bit of the fog and decided that two could play this game. She took a half step closer and said in a deep, quiet voice, Do you know what I thought the first time? What it felt like?
He shook his head and held his breath.
Like I was butter, and you were a hot knife slicing into me through mechanging me
John couldnt help the sharp intake of breath at her words and the way she said them the way she looked at him a pulse of energy and desire was coursing between them now and when she involuntarily licked her lips he let out a small groan.
At that moment Mason had looked over and his first reaction was Oh, shit! He knew that Chase had wanted them to flirt but even across the room he could sense the heat between them they looked like they were about to spontaneously combust all over each other. Thankfully Chase was engaged elsewhere, but Mason had to intervene quickly.
He dashed over to them and they barely registered his presence until he said, Guys flirting is one thing but you look like two cats in heat who are about to need dousing with a vat of cold water to separate you. You need to step back, stand down before you forget yourselves and throw down on the nearest table and provide us all with decidedly adult entertainment.
John and Natalie both had the good graces to look chastened perhaps even a hair embarrassed but he could still feel the heat. Lord have mercy he could feel the heat. Natalie darlin you are allowed to drink so Id suggest you go get yourself one to cool off. A moment or two with me will be enough of a buzz kill for John now go on, off you go
Natalie gave them both a quick smile and bolted for the bar.
Shit, McBain what were you guys talking about so intently?
You dont want to know or even if you do, Im not telling a gentleman never does
Mason just raised and eyebrow and shook his head. He could imagine.
Natalie ordered a mojito, wanting something cool and refreshing. When she turned back around, drink in hand, she almost ran into Javier who had walked up behind her.
He inspected her closely and said softly, Why didnt you just tell me the agent was your lover instead of claiming a boyfriend back home
Natalie looked at him in surprise and then said, Why would I do that?
Are you saying it isnt true?
Im saying that none of this is any of your business.
Ah, but youre not denying it
Theres nothing to deny
Well if thats the story youre trying to sell then may I offer the friendly suggestion that you two stay away from each other in public it is obvious to anyone paying any degree of attention that you two have intimate knowledge of one another, and a heated attraction just standing near him. And whatever he said to you has drawn a reaction from you. Your skin is flushed and I bet if I were to touch it now it would be hot
Natalie realized she wasnt surprised by his temerity but she didnt appreciate it either still, she could use this to enhance their cover. She smirked at him and said, Well, Id appreciate it if you didnt touch me, that is
Oh, I wouldnt dream of it. Your agent is watching us and Im sure hes packing a big gun He said this in a way that underlined the double entendre and Natalie arched and eyebrow and said, Yes he is in the exact same vein.
Well, my dear, you are even more of a surprise than Id first thought. Im disappointed that he got there first, but it really isnt surprising, that something like this would have happened. A young girl like you, on an exciting trip with an experienced agent like him Im sure he seems quite dashing in his own way. I bet hes taught you a few things about yourself hes a very lucky man to have had that opportunity
Natalie was now decidedly uncomfortable and she said in as even a tone as she could, I know we dont know each other well enough to be having this conversation whether it be true or not I need to go find Zoenjoy the rest of your evening and she walked away knowing Javier was regarding her thoughtfully as she did.
Chapter 25
Just before midnight Natalie and Zo were back in the hotel room they were sharing. Two entire floors had been taken over by their party and it was heavily guarded. Stinson and Murphy were staying next door and John and Mason were across the hall. Chase and two of the other senior agents were stationed in the sitting room that was part of the suite shared by the President & First Lady, and several well-armed agents were in the stair wells and by the elevators.
As soon as they were in their room Zo turned to her and said, Were going on an adventure!
Natalies heart thudded as she said, What are you talking about?
You know Javier Lezama?
Now Natalies heart squeezed as she said with trepidation, Yes
Hes offered to take us out tonight to his own club.
Zo, Stinson and Murphy
Oh, we arent going to bother with them
What?! Zo
Natalie, Javy is a billionaire with security thats probably tighter than ours well be fine
Zo, we cant
Natalie, Im going I really want to get out and see this city at night Ive been so cooped up and hell keep us safe
Well, just how do you intend to get past all the agents who are stationed?
The dumb waiter.
What are you talking about?
Theres a dumb waiter. Well take it down and Javy will be waiting outside for us
Theyll hear
You know what, they might, but by the time they figure it out, well be gone. Look, if you dont want to go you dont have to but I am
Im not letting you go alone, Zo.
Well, great. Get changed into some club attire and lets get a move on, girl. Stop looking so worried, were going to have a blast
Natalie was reeling. She knew there was no way to stop Zo now. Somehow she had to get word to John and Mason. But if Zo caught her if she told them soon enough that they could stop them shed feel betrayed and never trust Natalie again. She didnt know what to doDamn she was so screwed. Would they be OK? She didnt trust Javier but he did have a phalanx of security
Natalie, get dressed!
She figured shed do some thinking while she got changed. She put on a black mock-turtleneck sleeveless t-shirt that hugged her body and a black silk skirt that flared around her mid-thighs. She grabbed her black-patent high-heeled pumps and left her hair and jewelry the same. And she still didnt know what to do. Zo had on a black mini-dress and small black ankle boots with spike heels, looking great as always.
Come on, Natalie, dont be such a worry wart. YOURE not the one wholl get into trouble anyway
Natalie knew that was completely untrue.
OK, let me just go to the bathroom real quick While in there she wrote out a note to John. Then she came out and said, Let me just steady my nerves by checking the hall and making sure no ones on guard right outside
OK, Natalie, but hurry UP!
She dashed into and across the hall and slid the note under Johns and Masons door, praying theyd find it soon.
She and Zo climbed into the dumb waiter it was a tight fit with the two of them in it and headed down to the basement. Natalies heart was hammering again but Zo was the picture of excitement.
Stinson, Murphy, John and Mason all heard a strange noise as they were settling in for the evening. Almost at the same time they realized it was coming from the direction of the girls room and they headed in that direction. As he reached the door to his room John saw Natalies note on the floor and he said FUCK! as he handed it to Mason who had a similar sentiment.
They all arrived at the girls door at the same time and John used his master key to open the door. They followed the noise and ran to the closet where they saw the dumbwaiter. Murphy and Stinson had been responsible for checking out all egress and access points to this room and John recalled seeing nothing about a dumb waiter.
How did we miss this? he asked with barely controlled fury.
Before anyone could answer he said, You know what never mind, we dont have time now.
John grabbed a walkie-talkie and told one of the agents to head to the basement, but he knew they were likely too late. Mason was already alerting Chase. John was trying to figure out how to divulge what he knew about their destination without revealing that Natalie had told him at minimum it would cause estrangement between Zo and Natalie, and it could compromise her cover. He had a bolt of inspiration.
OK, Natalie mentioned that Lezama was trying to convince them to go to his club tonight. Zo is not entirely reckless she may have figured that he could keep them safe with all his security he had quite a group with him tonight
Stinson spoke up, I bet this is Natalies doing shes probably a bad influence on Zo
Mason turned on her before John could, You dont know that, and youre much more to blame they shouldnt have had the option of escaping the way they did!
John chimed in, We can and we will hold a complete post-mortem once we get them back. In the meantime, lets head out to Lezamas club and hope its as easy as that
Chase and the President entered the room both looking highly concerned. John took them aside and quietly told them about Natalies note and they were felt a bit of relief. At least they had a decent idea where they were headed. Unless Lezama decided to take a detour.
As soon as the dumbwaiter reached the basement Zo and Natalie walked to the door that led to the alley and awaiting them was a stretch limo and several big SUVs full of armed security. Javier opened the limo door and ushered them in and soon they were on their way.
He opened a bottle of champagne and said, I am so pleased you accepted my invitation, Zo, and that you invited your friend. Please, have some champagne
The girls accepted it and Natalie took a bracing sip. She was trying to steady her nerves so she could keep her mind focused. Zo was sitting on one of the long side benches while Javier had placed himself on the back bench next to Natalie. He whispered conspiratorially as he placed his hand on her bare knee, Will your agent be very angry with you, Natalie?
He wont be pleased.
I imagine not Im sure you can bring him around. You may not have discovered this yet but angry sex can be the very best there is it can push you to places that you didnt even realize you wanted to go that border where pleasure meets pain he was caressing her thigh at this point and she put her hand over his and then removed it. He smirked good-naturedly and said, Sorry youre just a little hard for me to resist.
Well try, please.
Ten minutes later they pulled into the back alley behind his club Placer, or Pleasure in English. It was a very large, old three-story house that had been converted into a club. Javier and his security team led them inside and the crowd parted for them he was obviously very well known. They walked into what would have been the foyer, but walls had been knocked down to create an open space where a foyer and separate rooms had been. The entire back wall they faced was made up of glass doors that were wide open and led to the core of the club a massive inner courtyard that was bounded on four sides by the sprawling building. It was basically a huge dance floor with tables on the perimeter. When they went outside a VIP area had been reserved for them Natalie looked up and saw that the open courtyard had been covered by a glass ceiling. While the first floors of the four sides of the building were all open windows, the second and third floors looked like they were ringed by open air hallways that with wooden banisters for walls behind them Natalie could see a series of doors that led to other rooms, though she had no idea what they were used for. She noted there were a number of bars scattered throughout the first floor.
Javier noticed Natalie looking around and he said, Some of those rooms are for private parties some more private than others, if you get my meaning She simply nodded and managed not to roll her eyes. The entire third floor is my private office and apartment for when I dont feel like heading home its got everything I or anyone else could need. Great people watching from up there, too you can look down and see the entire dance floor and what people are getting up too
He stepped back from Natalie and said to his little entourage, Before we get settled here we can come back down, dont worry why dont we go upstairs to my private lounge for a bit. I have some special drink options that arent available down here, and we can enjoy the view a bit then well come back down and participate. Zo was clearly all over that idea, so Natalie didnt have much choice. He led them to a private elevator beautifully appointed, of course that took them to the third floor. It opened into a sumptuously decorated lounge done in whites and creams, and he went straight to the bar and poured them all shots of high-end tequila. Then he led them to the open-air hall which was more like a terrace so they could look down at the dance floor.
Natalie could feel him walk up behind her and he put his hand at her neck and whispered, Do you like to dance? Get lost in the music? Since I cant get you to sleep with me, perhaps I can convince you to dance? She turned her head and his mouth was just inches from hers yet she willed herself not to flinch. Im simply not in the mood, Javier.
He smiled genuinely, since he liked her directness. He nodded and backed away. And walked over to Zo. The good news he was incredibly respectful of her since even he knew not to fuck with the First Daughter. He encouraged her to lean over the railing and see everything going on below. Then he straightened up and said, I see someone I need to talk to immediately. You two, stay here. Please. Its best if you do until I get this person to leave. Then he took his security goons with him.
Natalie found it a bit odd, but was also glad to have Zo to herself.
Zo, we should really go or at least call and let your agents know where we are, so they can come to keep an eye
Oh, Natalie, you have to chill. Were perfectly safe! You just saw how Javy was having us stay here until he takes care of a problem. No ones going to get to us here just enjoy your drink
Zo leaned over and said, There he is now it doesnt look like some big confrontation
Zo was clearly feeling the effects of the alcohol shed had throughout the course of the evening. The champagne and tequila hadnt helped. She was leaning very far over the railing now, her whole weight albeit not that much resting against it.
Zo, youre making me nervous leaning over like that this is still an old house and that railing looks like it could be original
Geez, Natalie, you really need to lighten up its fine, see? As she said that she pushed hard against it and suddenly everything wasnt fine not at all. Before Natalie could react the railing gave way and Zo pitched over with it, screaming in terror.
Natalies heart dropped to her feet and they felt like lead as she moved as fast as she could to the edge, dreading what shed see when she looked over. She was flooded with initial relief because Zo had managed to grab onto a piece of wood molding about a foot or so down and she was clinging to it, whimpering.
Zo, can you hold on?!
For a moment, but I think this is starting to give, too! Natalie, please help me!
Natalie looked frantically around but saw nothing she could use to haul her back. No one else was near them to help. She looked below to see people looking up in shock theyd become aware of the drama when the railing had crashed to the ground. She noticed Javier looking up with a strange expression on his face but he wasnt rushing to their aid.
Natalie!!! Zo wailed. Its slipping away from the building
Natalie was trying to calm her mind as shed learned in her training but they hadnt exactly planned for this mercifully a memory from her playground days provided inspiration shed been quite the little gymnast and a devil on the monkey bars. She noticed a post that looked solidly rooted in cement, and it was near to where Zo was. Taking a deep breath and telling herself she was crazy, she carefully sat down next to it, her back to the perilous open air behind her. Trying to steady her shaking limbs she moved with infinite caution so she was essentially straddling the post, her behind and back now over the edge as her arms and legs wrapped tightly around it. Then saying a silent prayer, she tightened her legs into a death grip around the post and loosened her arms, bending backwards so she could hang upside down.
Zo, grab my arms come on then you hold onto my waist and Ill hold onto yours maybe you can climb up me and then you can pull me up or we can hold on until someone comes to help Surely someone would help wouldnt Javier finally have started up to help them? Zo was shaking but she reached up and wound her arms around Natalies middle, and Natalie grabbed onto her for dear life. They looked almost like an acrobatic act flying on the high trapeze with out a net and the crowd below gasped as they accomplished that maneuver. Natalie felt the strain in her legs as she tried to maintain a vice-like grip around the post. Unfortunately it was square and rough-hewn, so its corners were digging painfully into her soft inner thighs and she could feel it abrading her skin. She gritted her teeth against the pain.
Zo, can you pull yourself up, using my body
Im afraid, Natalie why isnt anyone coming?!
They were. John, Mason, Stinson and Murphy had arrived in the center courtyard just in time to hear the gasps from the crowd. When they followed everyones gazes they stopped dead in their tracks, their blood running cold. John instantly spotted Javier in the crowd, and when he saw John he made a show of running over to them.
I left them to take care of a security issue I cant believe the railing gave way!
We dont fucking have time for this right now whats the quickest way up there?!
The elevator!
Take us!
Javier led the way and the four agents piled into the elevator with him. They punched the third-floor button and it seemed to take forever for the elevator to begin to move.
Natalie had her eyes shut tightly as she tried to ignore the pain in her legs. Her muscles were straining under their combined weights and her skin now felt raw. Her legs loosened slightly and they dropped about an inch and Zo whimpered in fear, tightening her grip around Natalie. As shed slipped Natalie hit her head on the wall and saw stars, but again gritted her teeth and concentrated on keeping her legs wrapped around the post, her arms around Zo, though they were starting to shake from the exertion. Dear God, wouldnt anyone come?
Like an answer to her prayers she suddenly heard many shouting voices voices shouting their names, and they seemed blessedly near. Next the space around them was a hive of activity. She felt strong hands Johns hands grab her hips to help her hang on, and Mason scooted on his stomach to the edge and reached down to grab Zo off her. As per protocol, as soon as he had her in his arms he began to race with her out of the building, followed by Murphy and Stinson. Even if the threat didnt seem significant, standard protocol during any rescue was to get the subject in this case, Zo isolated in a completely secure environment controlled by the Secret Service. In moments shed be in a car or SUV on her way back to the hotel and surely to a very upset father and mother.
As soon as Zo had been plucked off Natalie, John and reached down and hauled her up. Hed practically had to pry her legs from around the post, so fused had her muscles become, intent on their need to cling to it. Then he had her in his arms as they sat on the floor and he was rocking her back and forth.
Oh my God, Natalie Oh my God
She was now shaking almost violently and she clung to him as shed just clung to that post. He worried that she might actually go into shock after such an adrenalin surge after what must have been a terrifying ordeal so while she still clung to him he quickly unwrapped his own arms so he could slide his jacket off and wrap it around her, and then he banded his arms around her again. They stayed that way for a good ten minutes, neither of them saying anything.
Chapter 26
John could sense that Natalie had calmed significantly, but still he held her close, not wanting to let go. Eventually John became aware that Javier had returned, a somber look on his face. He said softly, Why dont you bring her inside its a bit warmer
John nodded and stood, picking Natalie up and carrying her inside where he deposited her on the couch. He knelt in front of her to get a good look at her face and that is when he noticed the bruises, the raw, chewed flesh of her inner thighs, and the now-drying blood that had flowed first in one direction as shed hung upside down, and then the other after shed been rescued.
Natalieyour legs.
She looked at them and then him, and he saw tears pool in her eyesThe post was really rough and square of all the luck, it couldnt have been round
Javier walked over with two glasses of brandy and John nodded in thanks and handed one to Natalie. Drink this itll steady your nerves a bit warm you up Her hands were still shaking so he held her glass for her and helped her take two big gulps. Then he turned to Javier and asked, Do you have a first aid kit?
He gave John a long look and saw the deep concern on his face. Having seen him with Natalie he realized that what he felt for her was far more than simple physical attraction. He tucked that away for future reference at some point it could be useful to him. John, my private quarters are full of everything youd need. Why dont you two go in there stay there tonight this morning. Its after 3am just get some sleep. If its OK with you Ill go to my main home, but I can be back here or to your hotel at any time you need me to walk through what happened. I obviously feel personally responsible for all of this please be my guests here tonight and I am at your disposal tomorrow, well, actually today.
It was Johns turn to look at Javier carefully, and he figured the man was trying to curry a bit of favor hed need it. John also decided to take him up on his offer for a whole host of reasons, not all of them professional. If you can leave me the best number to contact you Ill call you later this morning to confirm a time and location we will want to talk to you for sure. In the meantime, Natalie and I will take you up on your offer shes dead on her feet and I want to get these wounds cleaned and dressed.
Then by all means make yourself at home. Heres the key to my apartment its just through those doors. There are extra pajamas, toiletries, and of course first aid materials. Ill leave you to it with my apologies.
When he was gone John said to Natalie, Just sit there a second I want to take a few pictures. Then well get you taken care of
John went outside and looked at where the railing had fallen away, checking for any sign that it had been rigged. He took out a small digital camera and snapped pictures of where it had broken away. His eyes rested on the post that Natalie had wrapped her legs around and his blood ran cold as he realized what a disaster had been averted. It had rocked him to his core when hed looked up and seen her hanging upside down, three stories up, clinging to Zo, keeping her from falling to almost certain death. And Natalie could have fallen he couldnt even think about that without feeling ill devastatingly so. When he looked down he saw that the club had cleared out and there was no sign of the broken railing that had crashed below. So much for examining that, he thought.
He went inside and saw that Natalie had leaned back on the couch and was asleep. He felt a surge of tenderness run through him and just wanted to take care of her. He walked over and picked her up off the couch and she stirred a little and then burrowed closer against him. He carried her into Javiers apartment and placed her on the bed so she could rest a bit until he was ready to tend to her wounds, then took out his phone to call Chase.
Chase, its McBain
Hows Natalie?
Shes actually asleep. I came in from taking some pictures of the railing and such and she was out for the count. Lezama offered us the use of his private apartment here hes gone to his main house, but he told me hes completely at our disposal today to go over what happened. Hes expressing remorse not sure how genuine it is
Hed better make his ass available he encouraged the First Daughter to ditch her security detail and she was subsequently almost killed in an accident, if thats what it was. If not for Natalie what she did look, you guys should stay there. No point dragging yourselves back here now and I think we should meet with Lezama there anyway. Plus, you get to reinforce your cover story.
Good point. Anyway, hows Zo?
She is extremely contrite and worried about Natalie. She is also in a lot of trouble with her parents who are incredibly grateful to Natalie. I dont think were going to have to worry about her misbehaving any time soon. Get some rest, John. Why dont we say that well meet there at 10am?
OK oh, and could you have Zo pick out some clothes for Natalie and bring them with you later? Hers got a bit bloody
Bloody?! Natalie was injured?
The post she wrapped her legs around was square and rough and did quite a number on her thighs superficial but painful.
Shit, OK. She did really well tonight
Yes, she did. And Ill admit right now and feel free to say I told you so I was wrong about everything. Adding her to the team was the right call
Well, since you were good enough to admit it, I wont gloat and rub your face in it.
They signed off and he walked over to the bed. He rubbed Natalies face and she woke up and tried to give him a smile. Hey, Im sorry to wake you, but I really want to take care of your legs I think the best thing is to get you into a quick bath
She nodded and before she could even move hed once again picked her up to carry her into what he presumed was the bathroom. It was an explosion of marble, mirrors and soft lighting with a huge stall shower and equally large tub, which appeared to be a Jacuzzi. He helped Natalie sit on the edge of the tub while he turned on the water and let the tub begin to fill. She was only half awake at this point and he asked softly, Can I help you get undressed, Natalie?
She nodded her head sleepily and he gently removed her clothing, noting that some blood had flowed from her legs onto her panties, and he marveled at her ability to hang on while shed obviously been in significant pain. The tub was full and he said, This is going to sting Im sorry but it cant be helped. Again she just shook her head. He lifted her into the tub and she winced badly, gasping when her tender flesh hit the hot water. Im sorry sorry
Its OK Its OK She reached up to stroke his face and he took her hand and kissed it, then held it while she soaked for several minutes. He pulled the plug on the tub and lifted her out, placing her again on the side of it and wrapping her in an extra large bath sheet. He held her against him and rubbed the towel to dry her, placing soft kisses on her head as he did so. Then he looked through the cabinets under the vanities and found an array of first aid items. He took a good look at her legs and he knew they must be terribly sore. They were raw and bruised. None of the cuts were of the sort to need stitches but her poor legs were gouged and abraded.
Im sorry Im hurting you Natalie I have to
She took his right hand in both of hers and said, It has to be done Im all right
He rubbed her face and then took out a tube of antiseptic ointment and ever so gently rubbed it onto all the cuts and abrasions. Then he took rolls of gauze and wrapped an entire roll around each of her thighs. Finally he wrapped first aid tape around the gauze to hold it in place. Not so bad, huh?
She shook her head and her eyes closed she was completely exhausted.
John said softly, Lets get you into bed. He picked her up and brought her into the bedroom and laid her on the bed. Then he said, Ill see what we can find you to sleep in He opened one of the closets and saw an array of womens nightwear all with the tags on it. He shook his head thinking this guy is quite the operator but right now it worked in their favor. Foregoing the endless array of skimpy negligees, he picked out a pale pink silk nightshirt that was styled like an extra-long mens shirt.
He made his way over to her and she barely stirred as he pulled the towel off and eased her into the night shirt. He left her on top of the covers while he quickly pulled out his bug/listening device sweeper, and then he did a careful inspection for hidden cameras. It all came up clean which didnt really surprise him since he didnt think Lezama would wire his own private quarters. Still, better to be sure. Exhaustion was finally hitting him, too. It had been a long, draining day and night, but such relief was coursing through him that Natalie was safe, and that they were alone, together that was an unexpected gift. He wearily stripped down to his tank and boxers, pulled back the covers and lifted Natalie further up on the bed. He joined her, pulled the covers over them and gathered her close to him. She stirred and said, Good night, John
Goodnight, sweetheart
Mmmm, I like when you call me that she said sleepily.
He kissed the top of her head and said, Well, thats good because it appears I like to call you that now go to sleep
They did sleep for a while, but at some point they slipped into a semi-wakeful state and became aware of each other and their mouths joined in a sleepy kiss that grew more passionate. Their eyes slid open and they shared a heated look and kissed more deeply as their arms wound around each other. Natalies nightshirt had drifted up over her waist and Johns hands found her naked bottom as he pulled her closer to him, grinding her against his aching erection that was beginning to protrude from the fly of his boxers.
John she whispered against his mouth.
I dont want to hurt you your legs
You wont Ill just have to open them wide for you
He felt his manhood throb at that image and he rasped, Thatll work He knew from a pure logistical standpoint he could take her from behind and not risk hurting her legs, but that was such an overtly sexual act and right now he wanted to make love to her. He wanted to feel her breasts against his chest, and her breath mingle with his just before and as they kissed. He pulled her nightshirt off and she helped him with his tank and boxers, and then they held each other for a moment, moving around a bit to savor the feel of their naked bodies in contact. Then, acting in concert as if in a well-choreographed dance theyd done a thousand times, she rolled onto her back, spreading her legs until the sides of her knees hit the mattress and he took his place between them. His mouth hovered over hers while he positioned himself and pushed inside her welcoming body, his eyes closing briefly at the sensation of the tight, wet heat that sheathed him.
When John had completely filled her Natalie let out a sigh as she expanded to accommodate him. Then he ground even further inside her, drawing a moan from her and he said against her mouth, Thats the sound , then claimed her mouth in a deep kiss, their tongues active against each other as their hips found the perfect rhythm. Their movements had a languid quality as if they had all the time in the world, and eventually they slid over the edge together in a freefall of pleasure that soothed something inside them they hadnt quite realized was there the need to be connected, not just physically, but emotionally.
John held Natalie as they cooled down and she let out a sleepy sigh. Sleep, sweetheart
I love when you call me that
He knew she fell asleep almost immediately after she said that, and he felt a feeling of warm well-being he never had before, and he didnt quite know how to name it how to describe it. But it carried him into his own dreamless sleep.
About 8am they stirred and shared another kiss, then John pulled back and sat up, leaning against the headboard. Natalie did the same, realizing he wanted to talk perhaps have the talk, and she felt her stomach clench. It made her feel a bit better when John reached out and stroked her face gently and then took her hand in his.
Natalie are you OK with what happened again between us?
Yes are you?
He smiled softly and said, Completely. But as far as it happening again
Her heart squeezed as she prepared for the worst.
Well, it has to be your decision what happens going forward is your call
That she wasnt prepared for, and she looked at him in surprise. Shed girded herself for him saying they had to stop doing this, but not for him putting the onus entirely on her regarding what would happen in the future. Why my decision? Why do I have to
Because Im your boss, Natalie. And that gives me a certain amount of power over you. And I dont want I would hope you know me better, now enough to know that I wouldnt use that to force you into doing anything you dont want to or if not to force you to exert any pressure at all, with any threat of repercussions but I am in a position of authority over you, so in this situation I want you to have all the power. And I will abide by whatever you want whatever is best for you and there will be no fall-out you have my word
So I have to make a decision without even knowing what you want? If you even want this to
Natalie, you already know what I want.
No How? You havent said
Natalie, if I didnt want this, then after that afternoon in DC I would have given you the speech about having to put personal feelings aside, that it was all just a heat-of-the-moment sort of thing and then Id have pledged to never cross that line again. The fact of the matter is, no matter what I WANT I should STILL have done that should do that, because there will be professional repercussions for both of us if this blows up. Yet I didnt, and Im not and that makes it pretty clear exactly what I want. But this is about you and what you want what will be OK for you and as you come to that conclusion, what I want cant matter
Natalie felt a bit at sea because sitting naked in bed with him, her body was definitely asserting what it wanted and it would be so easy to just go with that. But after an entire summer of this of being with him and connecting with him, what would it do to her to just move on as if it had been nothing but a fun summer tour fling. She knew that wasnt her, even if so much of her wanted it to be. She just wasnt sure how to express all that without seeming to push for things that she knew neither of them could exactly promise. But she needed to try.
Taking a deep breath Natalie said, John I know that neither of us can make promises about what will happen after this whole summer tour is over. If we decided to go forward with ... this whatever it is it would all be in a bubble of unreality, with no way of knowing what could be once were back in the real world. I get that. I do. And I could be OK with that uncertainty. Its just that she swallowed nervously and found her throat constricting with emotion.
He rubbed her hand and said gently, Just what, Natalie
Hesitantly she began, If you if you just see this as a summer affair if you know already that that is all it could ever be for you, then Im not sure if I can continue Im not sure thats all it would be for me She expelled a breath at her burst of honesty, but was mostly relieved to have it out there.
They looked at each other for a long moment and John said softly, Natalie Im not that guy. It goes back to what I said before, about what I wanted Im not the guy to risk my career on a brief affair no matter how great the sex. If thats all it was look, we havent known each other too long but Im the guy whos been all about his career. Right or wrong, it has defined me for a very long time. It isnt in me to blithely put all that at risk for something that would just be a summer diversion. Youre right that its impossible to know if this could work beyond this summer there are so many unknowns so it might end up something that was just meant to be a very special time. But I dont feel like this is something we should just pull the plug on when the summers over. Id like to see what happens after thatIf I didnt feel that way there would be no way I would put my entire career on the line
Natalie was quiet for a moment, running everything he said over in her head. It meant so much to her that he didnt just see this as some brief affair, but what hed said about his career weighed on her. She looked at him in concern and said, John, you really are putting a lot at risk much more so than me. Do you want me to say no? Do you need me to?
You mean to save me from myself?
She just nodded and he could see how worried she was for him and it touched him. But he was treading new ground, and even as it semi-unnerved him he didnt want to back away. He wanted to risk it he needed to. He said softy, I dont want to be saved, Natalie not from you Then he drew her to him and kissed her tenderly and he felt the relief loosen her body.
When he moved back from her he said, So, I guess this means well continue with whatever this is... whatever its becoming
She nodded, not trusting her voice.
We should handle this as carefully as possible limit our times together to those that are part of our official cover, which thankfully gives us quite a bit of leeway and opportunity
Oh, definitely. Since we are officially allowed to be together on a decently regular basis, it doesnt make sense to take the risk of sneaking off other times
Not that I wont be sorely tempted I guess well just have to make do with major flirting in between
She laughed and said, Yeah, but maybe we need to be a bit careful with that, too. I think we nearly gave poor Mason a heart attack last night!
John laughed, too. We sure did we need to go easy on him
We can try.
He got serious again and said, Im really glad you want to give this craziness more time but if it ever gets too much Ill understand. Its in your hands
In response she leaned up to kiss him and soon they had fallen back on the bed, their mouths heatedly connected while their hands roamed each others bodies. The sound of Johns cell phone brought them back to earth and he grabbed it.
McBain.
John, its Chase. I called Lezama and hell be there by 10. Mason and I are coming ahead well be there in about 20 minutes so we can talk about what happened and our best approach to dealing with Lezama.
OK, see you then. After he hung up he said, Shit. Theyre on their wayIve got to get showered.
They shared one more passionate kiss and John said, I cant wait until DC then headed to the bathroom.
Natalie lay back on the bed wondering what shed just gotten herself into but nothing could have stopped her once she knew John was on the same page. It might all blow up in their faces, but it was a risk she was taking.
Chapter 27
John came out of the shower and saw that Natalie had fallen asleep again, the sheet down around her waist exposing her breasts, and he felt twin bursts of tenderness and desire how did she do that to him? He covered her up and she didnt even stir, no doubt still exhausted from her ordeal and the fact they hadnt gotten all that much sleep. He headed outside to Lezamas private lounge and just moments later one of his aides showed Mason and Chase in and then retreated to leave them in private.
Hows Natalie? Mason asked immediately.
Last I checked she was still sleeping. I think shes pretty worn out and could use the rest.
I can only imagine. Im not sure Ive ever seen anything like it what she did. Im not sure how it even occurred to her to do it, but she absolutely saved Zos life, while putting her own in extreme jeopardy. When we first arrived and I looked up and saw her them
I know, Mason I know
Mason looked at his friend and saw the pinched look on his face and he realized that if it had been a shock to him it must have been excruciating for John to see that.
Chase broke in, Why dont we let her sleep for a bit. We will need to fully debrief her but we can do that later. Lets talk about Lezama while we have the chance. What does your gut say was this an accident or something more?
John answered, Its really hard to say. I looked outside last night and didnt see any obvious signs of tampering I did get some close-up pictures. Id like to have gotten a look at the railing that broke away, but when I looked down in the courtyard it had already been cleared away
Mason added, Plus, heres the thing. Even if there are no obvious signs of tampering, it doesnt mean anything. I think Lezama is too smart to do something that obvious. This building and the railings for all the renovations are old. It wouldnt have been hard to accelerate the normal weakening of the railing by putting constant pressure on it so it would give way on cue and it would look like a total accident. I dont think were going to get anything concrete based on this situation but we need to dig into his background and watch him very carefully especially now that we know of the Saudi connection that Natalie discovered
As Natalie eased into wakefulness she became aware of someone sitting on the end of the bed and smiled expecting to see John, but when her eyes opened she recoiled in shock, since it was Javier Lezama, watching her with heat in his eyes. She sat up on the bed, clutching the thin sheet to her, wishing she had something more substantial between her naked body and him. She felt completely vulnerable and exposed.
What are you doing here?
Its my apartment, no?
I know, but how did you wheres John?
I believe hes outside meeting with his colleagues. They arent expecting me for another 30 minutes and I decided to come in here to see you using a separate entrance, of course.
What do you want?
I told you to see you
Can I at least get dressed
But cara mia, that would defeat the whole purpose. He moved closer to her, sitting on the side of the bed, and she moved further away.
Dont be afraid Im not going to hurt you. Ive never forced myself on a woman have never had to and I dont intend to start. But Ill not lie to you, I have thought about what it would be like to have you naked in my bed, looking like youve just been made love to of course in my thoughts in my delicious fantasies, I was the one to bring you to a devastating climax that left your skin flushed your eyes a deeper shade the marks of my hands and mouth on your body the memory of me inside you
Natalie was trying not to shake visibly but for some reason she found his explicit words almost worse than if hed touched her. She couldnt help the tremulous note in her voice or the need to plead with him, Please
Please what?
Can you just leave me alone
Youve denied me the chance to be with youto make love to you will you now deny me the chance to savor this approximation of my fantasy? To simply look at you after another man has taken you in my bed, leaving you deliciously sated to drift back to sleep, your skin still rosy your hair a tumbled mass from his hands running through it Is he a good lover, Natalie? How many times did he bring you to orgasm? Did he use his hands? His mouth? Or did he go right for the feeling of your young tight body welcoming all of him inside? He must be a challenge to your body, as small as you areOr maybe he did all threeWas he rough? Did he take you so hard you saw stars but realized the shards of pain became intensely pleasurable just seconds later? Did you cry out? Did you scream maybe his name in a hoarse voice All the while he spoke, his eyes were intent on her face, except when theyd drift lower as if they could see her through the thin white sheet.
Natalie felt a tear trickle down her cheek as she asked, Why are you doing this?
Because I find you intoxicating captivating. And if I cant have you myself, then I must live vicariously Tonight Im going to sleep in this bed and Im not going to wash the sheets they smell of you and I will pretend that it is my fluids mixed with yours on them, not your agents that Im the one who got you so wet you poured onto my body and then my sheets
If you dont get away from her right now youre going to wish you only had the President of the United States to deal with. The voice behind them was all cold fury and they turned to see John standing there with his gun drawn neither of them had heard him come in.
Javier smiled and stood with his hands somewhat mockingly held in the air. Relax, Agent McBain I do not intend to touch your Natalie we were just having a chat about your enjoyable time together. Im so glad you accepted my invitation to stay here glad I could provide a chance for you to be together. I have a feeling your colleagues outside would not be so understanding, particularly your boss, no? But do not worry your secret is safe with me. If youll let me past, I will go out and join them, and give you a little more time with Natalie.
John stood to the side, lowering his gun, and Javier headed towards the lounge. In seconds John was sitting on the bed and had Natalie in his arms, and she couldnt help it she broke down and cried.
Shhh shhh its OK. Im here. Shhh, sweetheart shhh..
She clung to him, trying to steady herself and feeling ridiculous that she let Javier rattle her so badly especially since he didnt even touch her.
Natalie, did he?
She pulled back and looked at him, shaking her head. He didnt even touch me God I feel so stupid but he just he just kept talking, saying all these these things these really personal things and asking me such invasive questions about me about us like he was totally trying to fuck with my mindIm sorry
John pushed her hair out of her face and held it gently, You have nothing to be sorry about. Hes an oily bastard that makes my skin crawl, so I cant imagine Im sorry I left you alone like I did. I didnt think how did he even get in here? Past us?
He said theres a separate entrance. Plus, it isnt your fault. You had to meet with Chase and Mason and dont you have to go back out there?
Yes. I came here to give you fresh clothes Im so glad I did. Well likely meet with Lezama for about an hour. After that, well debrief you. Just relax and take a shower and I wont let him near you again, I promise.
She shook her head and then he kissed her softly, feeling her lips tremble a bit under his. Its OK, Natalie. I promise. Hell not get near you like that again.
Natalie was still a bit shaken as she went to take her shower, and she wasnt sure exactly why she was so upset, but shed just felt so violated by him. Thank God John had come in when he did. But she was even embarrassed that he had heard what he did. She was a mess and she needed to get it together. She unwrapped her legs and grimaced when she saw them. It was going to take a while for them to fully heal, though theyd surely feel better in a day or two. The hot water still stung but she welcomed the chance to get clean. She scrubbed every inch of her that she could and then got out, finding a new toothbrush which felt like heaven. Finally she pulled the clothes that Zo has selected out of the bag and could have kissed her if she was there shed packed Natalies favorite yoga outfit comfy pants, t-shirt and equally comfy hoodie plus bra, underwear, socks and her keds. Natalie re-dressed her leg wounds as quickly as she could and got dressed, feeling human again. She also gathered up the clothes shed discarded last night, making sure to grab her panties because her mind went there as she thought of what Javier might do with them if she left them behind. Creep. She only had lip gloss with her but that was fine, she wasnt in the mood for war paint. Finally she left her hair down loose so it could air dry.
She had just finished when John came back in and smiled at her she looked good. Adorable in fact but shockingly young. She really could pass for 19, yet she was a capable agent who just happened to have saved the First Daughters life last night. She returned his smile and he was glad to see she was over her confrontation with Javier. Her ability to bounce back was a truly notable quality the resilience of youth, plus an inner strength, he knew.
Hey, the bastards gone, and hes left his office to our disposal. We want to do the full de-brief here so it doesnt raise any flags although wed talk to you as a witness and highly involved party anyway, I suppose. Come on lets get this over with
They walked into the lounge and both Mason and Chase stood to greet her and to see how she was. It also struck them how young and tiny she looked, and they were again amazed by her derring feat last night.
She sat down and Chase immediately poured her some coffee which she accepted gratefully. Then he said, Natalie first, my congratulations to you because you have your first career save, and I mean that sincerely. Zo would likely not be here if not for you Now, I have to ask how did you even think to do what you did?
Natalie squirmed a bit since she wasnt used to, or particularly comfortable with, overt praise. Well, first, I have to say that Zo saved herself, too. Im not sure how she managed to grab onto that piece of molding as she was first falling. When I walked to that edge, I thought Id see her on the ground below she shuddered at the thought. But she was clinging to that piece of molding it was about to give out, though, so I had to do something. And, I dont know I just thought back to my playground days I was a total monkey in gym especially on the monkey bars, and then the uneven parallel bars I even did a quick class on trapeze work just for fun. It was all I could think to do, because I knew I couldnt reach her, or wouldnt be able to pull her up if I simply leaned over
The three men just shook their heads, and wanting to change the subject she asked, Did you get anything out of Javier?
Chase responded, Nothing really. He is falling all over himself apologizing for luring Zo awaybut of course he swears up and down that what happened was a total accident, and Im not sure we can prove differently what do you think?
I dont trust him and I think he was acting squirrelly leading up to the accident.
In what way?
Well, he seemed intent on getting us up here. There was a whole VIP area saved downstairs for us right near the dance floor, but he wanted us up here said it was to have some special drinks that werent available at the main bars, and also to be able to look at the whole dance floor from outside. But once we were up here well after encouraging Zo to lean over the railing and look, he suddenly had to go downstairs with all his security guys to take care of some problem someone who wasnt supposed to be in the club or something. He told us we should stay up here for our own safety. I saw him talking with someone once he got down there, but it didnt look particularly urgent or heated and then the railing gave way. And I swear, as he saw it happening, and me trying to rescue her, he made no move to rush up here to help or to send anyone else. I suppose it could have been shock, but his expression was so odd but I couldnt really take the time to focus on that then I was just trying to hang on to Zo and keep my legs around that bloody post, pun intended
How are your legs, Natalie? Mason asked.
Chewed up and bruised, but I will survive just dont expect to see me in any short skirts for a while.
Chase began to stand and said, Why dont we head back now. The President will soon be finished with his meetings with President Cuervo and will head back to the hotel to rest for tonight the party at the American Embassy. Be prepared that Lezama will likely still be there
John looked surprised, Even after everything?
John, hes a very powerful man and President Cuervo put him on his guest list. Besides luring Zo out and he can always claim that he thought shed bring her security detail we dont have anything definitive on him and at least this way we can observe him. Hes already revealed an interesting tidbit to Natalie, maybe well get lucky again. Natalie he seems to like you spend a bit of time with him
John saw the look that quickly transited across Natalies face, but it was gone when she said, OK. It was her job but that didnt mean John had to like it, and it certainly didnt mean he couldnt keep a close eye on her when he was buzzing around.
They piled into an SUV and headed back to the hotel. Zo was waiting to pounce on Natalie when she returned to her room, pulling her into a hug and bursting into tears.
Natalie Im SO sorry I should have listened to you! You saved my life! You TOTALLY did and you could have died do you HATE me? Please dont say you hate me!
I dont hate you Zo it was an accident, and Im just glad I could be there but lets just stick with your security detail from now on, huh?
I promise, I am reformed. Totally. And believe me, I am in the doghouse with my folks boy they were pissed but they are even more in love with YOU now
Natalie found out just how true that was a few minutes later when the President and First Lady came in and gave her big hugs and asked her a million questions about how she was how did she even think to do what she did, etc.
When it was just the two girls in their bedroom Zo steered the subject in an entirely new direction.
So, Natalie where did you end up spending the night?
Natalie blanched a bit and that was all the answer Zo needed. You slept with him again didnt you?! Oh my GOD that is just so hot was he, like, totally freaked about what happened aw, was he really gentle and stuff
Natalie was blushing furiously at her questions which just made Zo giggle. Is this going to be a regular thing, Natalie? Did you guys talk?
Natalie didnt feel she should reveal too much to Zo so she just said, We really didnt talk much, and I dont know what will happen but he seems to actually like me, so I dont know but lets not talk about this, since someone could overhear us
Mums the word I am so jealous though. I get stuck with a bunch of boys and even thats hard with agents in tow and itll be two more years of this and even after I might have Secret Service agents assigned to me Oh well, Ill just focus on the good things and have other experiences through you! If only you could do Mason, too, and then compare
Zo!
What oh, I know, that sounds so bad but hes no slouch either oooh could you imagine being with them in a threesome?
ZOE!!!
She giggled and said, Well, Ive needed an outlet and Ive been reading this great bunch of books by Mistress Toni really out there stuff, but the amazing thing is that in a couple of her stories the key characters names are John and Natalie can you believe it! And you have NO idea what they get up to but in one they end up with this other guy Steele and hes like as big as Mason only he has long dark hair and green eyes.. and they have the most amazing trio sex
Zo, have you lost your mind? I could never
She sighed, I know but hasnt the thought EVER occurred to you in your life?
Natalie flashed back on her fight session with John and Mason when theyd landed in a heap and she quickly purged that image from her mind. One at a time is more than complicated enough
I suppose. Im sure youre right. But I am going to bring a bunch of these books along for our endless flight to Australia and Asia, and youll be thanking me when youre bored out of your mind and need something to distract you. of course then you might end up having to fight the urge to jump Johns bones in a dark corner mile high club and all that
Lord, Zo, you have a one-track mind right now
Well, not all of us are as lucky as you to have someone to take care of those urges now, are we?
Natalie just shook her head, but she had to laugh at her she was a riot.
Lets take a quick nap, and then we can get ready for tonights party.
Chapter 28
For the party at the American Embassy again, black tie Natalie had chosen a cobalt blue, one-shouldered silk dress that was form fitting to the mid-thigh and then flared out gently to the floor, with a small train in the back. She opted to leave her hair down this time and wore her diamond stud earrings and two diamond tennis bracelets. Again she wore her silver sandals and matching clutch. Zo was a vision in white this time, wearing a dress that looked like that of a Grecian or Roman Goddess, and she left her hair flowing as well. The men all looked spit-shined in their tuxes and Stinson and Murphy were again in basic black dresses, maybe even the same ones, they were so non-descript.
Natalie was still in shock because earlier Stinson had taken her aside and given her genuine plaudits for what shed done to save Zo, and she apologized for having been so ugly to her. Natalie graciously accepted her praise and apology because she knew some day they would be official colleagues and it was just better to start burying the hatchet as soon as possible.
When they got to the Embassy there was already a huge crowd and the President, First Lady and Zo had to spend quite a while in the official reception line. Thankfully Natalie did not, and she decided to spend a little time with Mason and John since she was supposed to be flirting
Hello, gentlemen dont you look handsome.
Thanks, Natalie you look gorgeous as always. Mason said.
John gave her an appreciative once-over and said close to her ear, You look good enough to eat and she felt her heart leap into her throat.
Mason chimed in immediately, Oh no it is WAY too early for you two to start this bullshit! Do I need to send you to neutral corners already? You, young lady if you arent careful Ill send you to your room without supper
Natalie beamed at him but before she could say anything an elegant, lithe brunette approached and she could see a change come over Mason and apparently so did John.
Hello, Mason good to see you again.
Hi Angela great to see you too, and you look lovely, might I add.
John and Natalie exchanged a glance so this was Angela interesting.
Mason and Angela made small talk for a moment and then Mason introduced her to John and Natalie. Natalie braced herself for some sort of attitude flowing from her since she was a mature professional and Natalie was ostensibly a college girl who wasnt even 20 yet but Angela was genuinely nice and friendly. A few minutes later she said, Well, I should leave you to your work but its great seeing you again.
You too, Angela.
John and Natalie both turned to Mason and he said, Save it no teasing because we ALL know I have SO much more on you so much more that I could say.
He has a point, Natalie.
That he does. Well just have to wait until we get more dirt on him
Indeed.
Mason leaned in and said quietly, Well, until youve had to clean up a booze-and- sex-soaked room to save me from my boss, I think Im pretty safe
Ooh, you play dirty Mason Natalie said.
He simply smiled and winked.
Well, Id better leave you two alone to work keep us all safe. We dont people talking oh, wait, yes we do Then SHE winked and sashayed away.
Natalie headed to the bar and ordered a glass of sparkling water with lime and turned around to see Javier Lezama making his way towards her but he wasnt alone, and when she saw who he was with she was taken aback. He noticed her reaction and smiled first, then winked at her. Natalie was looking at a version of herself a young woman with red hair, pale skin and blue eyes and she was wearing an outfit that was almost an exact replica of what Natalie had worn the night before
Javier walked directly to Natalie and grabbed her hand, bringing it to his lips to kiss before she could avoid that maneuver. Natalie, cara mia may I introduce you to my new friend. This is Pilar Llosa. Pilar, this is Natalie Maxwell Pilar gave Natalie a once-over and virtually glared at her, then pouted and said to Javier, Javy Im thirsty.
Well, the bar is right there feel free. Id like to catch up with Natalie for a moment. Pilar gave her another dirty look and flounced off to get her own drink.
Really, Javier you should probably pay attention to your date.
Well why would I do that when at this moment I can have the real thing even if its just to talk to. Im sure you understand my inspiration in selecting her. She works in one of my banks and I just happened to go there today after our very special time together and the first thing I saw was her red hair. Oh, dont get me wrong, shes a pale imitation, but if I squint my eyes and if she doesnt talk
Natalie tried not to show any reaction she simply smiled. Then she asked, How am I supposed to react to this? What do you want me to say?
Well, I suppose it is a form of flattery I know I cant have you, but I can pretend
Natalie was getting sick and tired of him especially of feeling like he had the upper hand and she was always reeling in his presence. She decided to see if she could turn the tables or at least meet him head on.
Are you going to take her to your bed tonight, Javier? What are you going to do with her?
He looked at her with a bit of surprise and smiled. Well, it was my plan what do you think I should do with her, Natalie? Since shes your stand-in
She held back a shudder at that thought. Well, it will be your first time, right?
With her, yes.
Then that first time just take her. Claim her as yours in a single decisive move. Theres time later to back-track and be slower deliberate but that first time let there be no doubt whats happening that youre making her yours Then the next time, you can drive her crazy with your fingers then your mouth and tongue and then you your very essence as a man
Natalie could tell he was surprised, but also aroused intrigued. She had to fight against the way her stomach turned over as she thought about that, but it was important that she regain some ground if she was ever going to learn anything important from him.
He stood a little closer to her and asked softly, Is that what your agent did to you, Natalie. Is that how he got you under his thrall made you belong to him?
Natalie just gave him a classic feminine wiles type of smile and said, I dont kiss and tell, Javier
He smiled at her You do like sex though, dont you cara mia? I thought that about you from the moment we met, but seeing you as I did today left no doubt.
When its good when its done right
And your agent
Javier I will never confirm or deny anything.
Do you forget I have all the confirmation I need on my bed sheets?
Please tell me that if youre going to take Pilar there that youre going to use clean sheets
Oh, Im not going to defile what I now consider your bed, Natalie I have another apartment that I use for my more casual dating.
I see it must be nice to have so many, well, playgrounds
My dear girl, are you suggesting Im a player?
Well, are you?
He laughed at that I suppose I have some of those tendencies but I do try to be respectful and believe it or not I am very selective in terms of who I go after who strikes my fancy and invades my dreams
Are you trying to say you dont have women in every port? Everywhere you travel?
I have friends around the world he said with a grin.
Natalie returned his smile and then said, That actually brings up an entirely different topic do you mind if I switch gears?
Not at all
When we do our Middle East tour what do I absolutely need to see to know?
Hmmm, thats difficult. There is so much but I guess the best advice I can give you is to see it with as open a mind as you can. That can be very tough almost impossible for most Americans who see everything through the prism of their own reality and self-interest dont be so blinded, cara mia. You are obviously in an exploratory phase in your life trying out new people, discovering things about your body let your mind be as open. Dont become that ugly American, even if you are traveling with the Commander in Chief himself
Natalie kept her expression neutral That sounds like good advice. And I think Im most excited about that part of the tour I know it will be different than anything Ive ever seen or anything Ive been able to imagine
He looked at her intently and said, Ah, I so wish I could help you see it the way it can be, Natalie so primal and fiercely beautiful I could help you understand it feel it with all of you, not try to filter it through your mind
It sounds like it really is in your blood, as you said last night
It is and my familys blood is buried deep in the sand there so much of it has spilledI think you will understand, Natalie. I feel it in you an exploratory soul a questing spirit I wish I could show you everything there is for you to know about yourself and then show you that world its spirit has survived, even as so many have tried to destroy it and pervert it for their own purposes some of its very own people have betrayed it, selling themselves and the very soul of their countries to the highest bidders who claimed to be their friends but its a new day some of the younger people He finally realized he was rambling, perhaps revealing too much, and he stopped himself. Then he said softly, I have faith that there are people like you who havent become rigid at a criminally young age and you may help save the world.
He looked at her and smiled, then said, Enjoy your agent Im quite sure hes enjoying you. And on that note, Id better go spend some time with Pilar a gentleman does not leave his date unattended for too long, no matter the wonderful distractions elsewhere.
Natalie looked up and saw that John and Mason were watching her very closely she was sure John had been ready to pounce at the first sign of trouble. She felt a bit soiled from her interlude with Javier, but more energized than anything because he had shown a bit of his true feelings about Americans and Middle Eastern geopolitics they needed to find out more about his familial connections in the region and where their sympathies rested. Shed grab a fresh drink and wander the room a bit, but would eventually make her way over to them to flirt and share her newest tidbit.
John and Mason had watched Natalie like hawks, wondering what she and Javier could possibly be talking about especially when he became so animated. While they were waiting for Natalie to make her circuitous journey in their direction, Javier came waltzing by with Pilar on his arm and both Mason and John had to fight what would have been comical double-takes when they saw her. It was so obvious that Pilar was a Natalie stand-in that a storm of emotions swept through John when he made that connection anger, disgust, and concern, because he feared Javier was becoming obsessed with Natalie and that unnerved him. He could see similar emotions flit across Masons features as well hed grown both fond and protective of Natalie himself. Javier gave them a little salute and kept walking, and John knew hed do whatever it took to make sure he never had a chance to cross any lines with Natalie.
Mason said when Javier was out of earshot, I am totally creeped out by that guy now and thats saying something. He even has that girl dressed like Natalie was last night we cant let him near her, John not unless we are right there with her
Oh, Im already all over that when I brought Natalie her clothes, he had snuck into his place and was saying the most outrageous and out of line things to her I couldnt believe it.
Like what?
What hed want to do to her if he was her lover
God I need a shower thats just wrong. Id love to beat the shit out of him if it wouldnt cause an international incident.
I know. Ill be glad when we are out of Mexico and can leave him behind
Finally Natalie made her way to them and smiled, making sure to stand especially close to John which caused a slight acceleration in her pulse.
How are your legs? He asked softly.
Not too bad, all things considered.
So, what did that bastard have to say this time?
You mean after he made sure I knew Pilar was a direct stand-in for me?
Mason was appalled, You mean he told you outright?
Of course he told me I should be flatteredalthough he went on to say that she was just a pale imitation She couldnt help the shudder that ran through her as she said that, and thought about the whole scenario.
John reached out a hand to grip her shoulder for a second, Natalie, I told you he wont be able to bother you again I wont let him
Neither will I, added Mason.
Thanks, guys...the good news is I managed to get him talking dont want to go into it here, but he appears to have some definite views on Middle Eastern geopolitics, and lets just say he doesnt seem to have much alignment with the American view
Interesting I guess we can cover that in our de-brief session back in DC
I cant wait
OK, you guys are doing it again turn down the heat, will ya. We all dont want to get burned
Natalie smiled at Mason and stood on her tiptoe to kiss his cheek as John laughed. Then she said, By the way I really like your Angela
Whats this your Angela stuff you still trying to push me into the involved column?
I think you really like her is all but I wont push you as you were such a gentleman to remind me of before, you have a lot more dirt on me that I do on you
Ah, but darlin you wear your dirt well it seems to suit you
She glanced at John and smiled and said, No argument from me but I gotta go find Zo and find out what adventure shes planning for us tonight!
Natalie They both said together in warning voices.
Dont wait up She waggled her fingers and left them smiling.
Chapter 29
It was with sighs of relief across the board that the President and his entourage returned to Washington. Mercifully the very next day John and Natalie were to meet for one of their secret meetings. This time John selected the Omni Shoreham Hotel, a recently renovated DC institution that was a little off the beaten path, located in Rock Creek Park near the National Zoo.
They met in the lobby at 6pm, and this time there was no holding back no artifice in the way they greeted each other with a tight hug and a soft kiss that promised more. John took Natalies hand and led her into the Marquee Bar, which served an extensive array of martinis and beers. They walked to a quiet table in a back corner and sat beside each other on the banquette. When the waitress came Natalie ordered a cosmopolitan and John his standard Harp.
Natalie suddenly felt an attack of nerves which surprised her, but then she realized that this was the launch of their official affair, or whatever it was they were doing. The other times theyd made love, had sex, whatever the best description of their activities at any given time well, it had been something that had just happened. Events and opportunity had conspired to lead them there, and they had dived in but today, with clear-eyed, proactive intent they planned on going upstairs to a room in this hotel to be together. Of course theyd also do their job, but she knew for both of them that was almost of secondary importance welcome to their new world were up was down, down was up.
As if reading her mind, John asked her softly, Are you nervous, Natalie?
She looked at him with a bit of surprise, but she saw no point in lying to him. A little.
He looked at her carefully, Are you sure
She reached out to put her hand over his mouth as she said, I am its just the first time
Were planning on it he finished for her.
She smiled softly at him and nodded.
So, should I ply you with more alcohol?
I dont need alcohol to want you to feel good about this
John moved his hand to the back of her head, snaking it under her hair and he pulled her mouth to his in a passionate kiss held somewhat in check due to their location. When they broke apart Natalie said softly, Thats so much better than alcohol
Do you want to go upstairs with me, Natalie?
She felt her heart and stomach flutter as she whispered, Yes.
He kissed her again, and then tossed some money on the table. Come with me.
They walked with their hands intertwined to the elevator where they kissed with much more heat. By the time they got to their room there were no more nerves, just aching desire. John led Natalie into the room and sat down on the bed, positioning her to stand between his legs. They were essentially eye-to-eye as he sat there, their heights finally matching. He wrapped his hands behind her back and looked up at her, tenderness and want in his eyes such a potent concoction. She wrapped her arms around his neck and she fell into his kiss, which became deep, bone-melting as they began to ease each other where they needed to go. He moved his hands to her white cotton sleeveless blouse and began unbuttoning it as they continued to kiss without missing a beat. When the garment was open he moved his hands to her rib cage, spanning it caressing it torturing them both as he temporarily avoided her white-lace-clad breasts. He moved his open mouth to the hollow at the base of her throat and she moaned at the contact, her head falling back.
John pushed her shirt off her shoulders and it fell onto the floor as a tremor ran through her. Natalie reached for Johns tie, loosening it, pulling it over his head, after which she moved to the buttons of his shirt, making quick work of them before she dragged it off him and tossed it on the bed behind him. John moved his hands to her back where he unhooked her bra and then pulled it off her, dropping it to the floor with her blouse. His fingertips brushed over her breasts and nipples, then his mouth claimed first her right nipple, next her left while she gripped his shoulders and gasped his name.
John raised his head and they looked at each other with the desire flowing between them, and she was suddenly desperate for more. She reached down and quickly undid his belt, button and zipper and began to pull his pants down, opting to grab the waist band of his boxers along with them. He raised his hips so she could get them all the way down, then she briefly knelt to pull his shoes and socks off, finally removing his pants and boxers completely. She stood back up and Johns hands moved under her black silk skirt so he could push her panties down her body. She stepped out of them and when she looked down she saw his manhood springing impressively from his lap and she dropped to her knees again and first wrapped her hands around his shaft, then took all of him in her mouth, dragging a guttural groan from his throat.
John had not been expecting her to do that and it was the first time hed felt her hot, wet mouth on him he had to breathe deeply to stop himself from losing it immediately from the sensation. She began to move up and down on him, her head bobbing in his lap, her tongue and teeth teasing him before shed suck him hard, then deep throat him so hed hit the back of her throat. He was beginning to come undone, but he didnt want to lose it this way not this time. John pulled her off him and she understood what he wanted. She straddled him, her knees on the bed on either side of his hips, and as his hands gripped her ass she sank down until every bit of him had been swallowed by her body. When their eyes met they saw a blend of satisfaction and yet-unquenched desire playing across their faces, and they were incredibly aroused, unable to remain still as Natalie began to rock her hips, John bucking his from the bed.
Natalie wound her arms around Johns neck and their mouths collided and moved against each other, their tongues in constant motion and vibrating with their colliding moans and gasps. As heart-stopping as it was to have Natalie riding him, he felt too passive he wanted to take her, make her his. In a move that surprised and further aroused her he stood and she wrapped her legs around his waist, then her back hit the bed, her ass at its edge. He looked down at her and then hooked his arms under her knees and began to drive into her, the muscles in his ass and legs pulsing from exertion. She arched her back with each thrust so she could maximize his penetration while her head moved from side to side and the sounds of her increasing arousal poured from her. Natalie felt her orgasm stalking her, beginning to suffuse her body with its heated touch as her walls began to clench around John. She was losing her connection with reality, slipping into blissful sensation, so she clutched almost desperately at the comforter as if needing to believe she could find her way back, even as she wanted to be lost entirely in what John was doing to her body the ecstasy he was bringing her.
John was incredibly aroused watching her move. She was unable to help it, and the feel, the mere idea of her arching up to meet his every stroke the listless way her head was rolling on her almost-spineless neck as she grabbed onto the bedding to steady herself it heated his blood. Then there was the way her already tight passage was beginning to tug at him, drawing him deeper inside. He couldnt hold back the grunts that came with each of his thrusts, each squeeze from her body around him. His legs were on the verge of giving out, his tightening groin signaling his imminent end, so he plunged himself inside her to the hilt and remained buried there while he ground his hips. He felt Natalie snap, a broken cry torn from her as her back and neck arched so that only the back of her head and her arms remained on the bed. Her hot, wet muscle gripped him in spasmodic waves that matched the motion of her own grinding hips, and her relentless hold proved too much for him he felt a searing heat race through him as he erupted within her, the ensuing flood of pleasure threatening to take him down. As long as he could John continued to drive into her with powerful strokes to draw out their orgasms, but finally had withdrew so he could move them up onto the bed, since his legs were trembling badly.
Natalie was as boneless as a rag doll, bursts of pleasure still causing her body to tremble. She was barely cognizant of John removing her skirt the last piece of clothing she had on. He yanked his tank top over his head and then his warm naked weight was pressing her onto the mattress as they wrapped their arms around each other. He was still impressively hard and a spike of desire surged through her as she felt him against her thigh. Without conscious thought she flattened her spine along the mattress and opened her legs to him and with unerring aim, pulled by the inexorable seduction of her rekindled need, he reclaimed her body, springing back to full life as he felt her once again stretch to welcome him within.
Even as John was doing this he barely believed it possible, but he had an endless craving for her. Natalie, he rasped against her mouth, what you do to me
This time their movements were slower, more deliberate, tongues and hips mirroring each other. Natalies hands had settled onto Johns backside, but not to grab harshly at him but more to massage and encourage his deep and ache-assuaging motion. It didnt take long for their pleasure to peak again, and this time they held each other as their bodies calmed. Finally John turned Natalie so he could spoon her, then he pulled the covers up over them. She relaxed and melted back against him with a sigh of deep contentment while he wrapped his arms around her and kissed the back of her neck.
Sleep, sweetheart we have time
I love when you call me that
Chapter 30
Natalie awoke about an hour later, noting that she was safely tucked in the circle of Johns arms and loving how that felt it gave her a warm and cared-for feeling. She also became aware of his impressive hardness pressing into her bottom and her desire unfurled within her as she marveled at how quickly her body could flip from comforting warmth to lustful heat. He was turning her into something shed never fathomed a deeply sexual creature who couldnt stop herself from responding to him from showing him how much she wanted him. In keeping with that she was helpless against her need to press back against the hard length aligned against her backside and she was met with equal pressure in return.
Johns breath caught at Natalies wake up call of course part of him had already instinctively woken up as their bodies had been in contact in their sleep. He tightened his arms around her and felt hers close around his in response while they continued to gently grind against each other. He placed a hot open-mouthed kiss on her shoulder and then had to groan when the shudder that ran through her pressed her more tightly against him. He had to have her again.
They were lying on their right sides and John moved his left hand to her corresponding inner thigh so he could gently lift it. Natalie gasped when she felt him do that, knowing craving what was coming. He didnt make her wait long, but entered her in one fluid stroke, his own gasp coming when he felt her tight heat envelope him. He came to rest deep within her and stilled himself to give her time to adjust, but also to fully experience what it felt like to be so completely embraced by her body. His right hand moved to gently massage her breasts while his left moved to her taut belly to hold her close to him.
Natalie barely registered the combination sigh and moan that eased out of her as he so totally filled her. When she felt his hand splay across her tummy it did something indescribable to her insides such an amazing combination, with its gentle warmth on her skin there while his scorching hard heat was buried inside, mere inches away. He was still finding new ways to hold her to make her feel so totally his.
John could no longer be still and began to move in and out of her with deliberate slowness so they could take note of every sensation as their bodies worked together to heighten their arousal, stoke their desire, and create the tight, heavy ache that would profoundly intensify until it exploded and swept its blessed release through every part of them. Every stroke took them closer, their impact heightened by Natalies need to push back hard onto John to ensure he was as deep as he could possibly be.
Natalies climax began as a feeling that everything inside her was letting go giving way nothing held back it was as if every time John moved within her he was seducing her to total surrender, to the point where she was no longer sure where she ended and he began. Her capitulation wasnt ripped from her but gently coaxed, like strained muscles unclenching as the tension was kneaded away.
If thats what Johns body was doing to Natalies hers was returning the favor. Her walls had begun to contract around him, but rather than the sometimes desperate grip that demanded his body yield to hers, it was with a gently insistent rhythm that acted as an undeniable invitation to join her where motion converted into bone-melting release.
He could feel his own unstoppable slide over the edge approaching, and he moved his left hand to her jaw so he could tilt her head up and align his mouth over hers. Their mating tongues proved the final trigger as their joint climax went through them in a heated wave, melding them as if every barrier between them had given way.
John had never before felt as if every bone in his body had liquefied even his scalp tingled as if no longer solid. It was as if his very self wanted to pour into her she was taking everything he had everything he was and he wouldnt have held anything back, even if he could.
As Natalie regained some semblance of balance she could never remember feeling such bone-deep contentment and she was surprised to find her cheeks wet with tears indeed everything had given way; shed held nothing back either. At that moment she felt John slide from her body and his arms gently turn her so they could face each other. When he noticed her tears his face grew alarmed.
Hey.. he said as he wiped them away with his thumbs. Are you OK?
She tried to smile at him but was embarrassed when she felt her emotions spike and more tears blur her vision. Her voice was a little shaky when she said, YeahIm sorry. Its just it was so
Overwhelming? he asked gently.
She shook her head and he cupped her face in both his hands as he said, It can be that way sometimes, Natalie
For you, too? she asked softly.
He smiled and said equally softly, For me too. John gathered her into an all-encompassing hug, and in turn she wrapped her arms around his middle, resting her head on his chest. Against it she whispered, I just never knew it could be like this feel this way
John kissed her head and said, Its as good as it gets and it doesnt happen very often this well this is different feels different for me too
She pulled her head off his chest to look at him and asked shyly, Really?
He gave her the sweetest smile and said, Really, Natalie.
She put her head back down and felt Johns arms tighten around her. As he held her he reflected on the truth of that statement this did feel entirely different. With Natalie everything felt more heightened, intensified and that was a bit of a revelation because hed believed hed had plenty of intense and passionate sexual experiences. But now he realized that in the past his responses, his reactions had been limited to the physical realm. He felt a different sort of connection with Natalie a bond that transformed the entire experience and brought an emotional depth to it. Interestingly, rather than that unnerve him it brought a feeling of deep contentment and a bit of wonderment. His reaction to her was teaching him things, and bringing out thoughts, actions and feelings hed either felt incapable of, or had studiously shied away from. The fact that he was pulling her more closely to him, embracing her as if he didnt want to let her go, seemed to suggest he was now embracing those very things as well. He had no idea what that would all mean, but for once decided not worry about the future hed let himself have this time, however long it would last, and not shy away from it.
A few minutes later Johns body began to assert itself in another way his stomach grumbled and he could feel and hear Natalie giggle against his chest. He laughed, too, and said, I guess its time for room service.
They consulted the menu and decided to branch out and try a pasta dish, some wine and chocolate cake. They had 30 minutes until it would be delivered, so John gave Natalies arm a tug and said, Lets take a shower
They were proud of themselves that they managed to just take a shower though their efforts at washing each other had involved wonderfully lingering touches punctuated by frequent kisses. Still, they were in robes and refreshed by the time room service arrived.
They put the tray in the middle of the bed and once they began to eat John said, So, should we talk about Mexico?
Sure. Have we found out any more about Javiers mother her family?
John shook his head. Unfortunately, not yet. We are trying to be a bit careful how we dig so as not to raise any red flags. We dont want it getting back to him. We know his father spent some time in the Middle East back in the early 60s, so he would have had the chance to meet a Saudi woman. We just dont yet know who. We are looking into what happened to her when she supposedly died, to see if we can backtrack from there. But you found out an important piece of information, Natalie. Im just sorry you had to deal with him at all Im sorry he upset you so much that day
I really am over it now. It was just I guess it didnt help that I had just woken up and was stark naked in bed. Worse, it was HIS bed. It was such a shock and then his whole line of comments and questions but I really think his main goal was to rattle me frankly to fuck with me for sport. I think that was more of a driver for him as opposed to really wanting me
John shook his head, Im not so sure about that, Natalie. Why would he want to screw with you? His overt approach to you started before he had the first clue we were involved
True but he knew I was part of the Presidents entourage I think that factored into it
Perhaps. But I cant stand that he has any interest in you at all
Doesnt thrill me either, but Im not sure what can be done about it plus, I do think its unlikely that Ill see him again
I wouldnt be so sure
Well, youre right if he has anything to do with all this Zo-related chatterbut then again, Id think hed be even more likely to stay away if hes involved
It just depends on what really gets him off, Natalie. He might like the danger of getting as close to the action as possible and feeling like hes fooling everyone. He may have such strong convictions that he HAS to be at the scene of the proverbial crime but even if hes not involved even if it turns out theres nothing to be involved in I think hed show up because of you
She looked at him in surprise, You really think so? I guess I just dont see him traveling to the other end of the world so our paths can cross at some party
I think he was honestly taken with you, Natalie. Just my gut instinct. And the chance to see you in that part of the world which, as he told you, is in his blood what else did he say to you the other night?
He just went on about the need to be open-minded and open-hearted to that region essentially to see its real truth and not a warped version of it based on our narrow American perspective. Then he talked about how its own people had sold it out for purported friends as in, in my opinion, the US, perhaps the UK and it was clear it upset him greatly. He also made an interesting comment about younger people who were less rigid and who could see the truth that they could save the world.I took that to mean that the newer generation might settle the score
I tend to agree with that interpretation. What hes told you has given us a very interesting angle to pursue a possible thread to pull to unravel whats being planned. We can look for any way he ties into other things were uncovering. Oh, by the way and I hope youll think this is good news since I sure do the work-up for the European trip wasnt complete, so we have to meet one more time this week to go over that and cover any new information on Javier
Darn she said in a husky voice.
You know, Natalie, its only 10 oclock they think youre working at The Brazen Head tonightand you usually get home after midnight when you do sometimes even after 1am
Your point? she asked with a raised eyebrow, knowing exactly what he meant.
We have time
Time for what?
Dessert and Im not talking about chocolate cake
She felt her blood heat up and she smiled devilishly at him. We could combine the two and she scooped a glob of icing onto her finger and moved it to his mouth. She closed her eyes and her own lips parted when she felt him suck it off her finger. Then she smiled seductively at him and as he watched her in fascination she opened her robe and smeared chocolate icing over both nipples, earning a sharp intake of breath from him.
Shit, Natalie he gasped. Then he leapt from the bed to remove the tray, ripped his robe and hers off and in record time had her pinned to the mattress so he could lick every bit of icing from her breasts. By the time she was clean she was actually a writhing mess, and when he took her in a spearing thrust taking her breath away in the process she gasped, Youre going to kill me
He rasped, Im trying
Two hours later they were back in the shower, searching each other for any final nooks and crannies where their tongues had inadvertently left icing or cake. Not to mention strategically poured dribbles of cabernet. Housekeeping would certainly have a story to tell when they saw the stained comforter. They had, of course, tried to be careful but had been plagued with a fundamental lack of control in any area that would have required sanity or thought. Oh well, they could charge him for it it was so worth it.
They kissed their way down the hall, in the elevator, through the lobby and outside until John finally deposited Natalie into a cab claiming a final kiss good-bye for good measure as he did so. As he headed to his own car he mused that hed never before been much of a dessert eater not one for sweets. Yet another change. He was a sweet eating cuddler. Hed accept that.
Chapter 31
The next afternoon Natalie was walking from the private residence at the White House to head to her car she was covering a shift at The Brazen Head when she bumped into John and Mason. John and Natalie shared a meaningful look and a small smile, while Mason good-naturedly rolled his eyes. Before anyone could say a word a White House Aide approached them.
Miss Maxwell, this was just delivered for you, the Aide said as he handed her a letter with just her name and White House written on it and then retreated. She looked at it and saw it appeared to be written on hotel stationery from the Mandarin Oriental Hotel in town.
Whos it from, Natalie? John asked.
I have no idea its written on Mandarin Oriental stationery she began to tear open the envelope.
As she read it she felt a blend of emotions run through her, none of them particularly positive it was from Javier, and it read:
Cara mia. I find myself in town on unexpected business, and thinking of you. I am over-committed the next few days and evenings, but was hoping I might persuade you to have dinner with me on Friday evening. I feel I might owe you an apology for my boorish behavior in Mexico, plus I have some ideas of things you should make sure to see and do on your trip to the Middle East. Perhaps your agent can spare you for the evening even better if hes working, no? I promise not to cross any lines, unless you invite me over them a man can dream.
Please phone my private cell (my card is enclosed) and please say yes.
With affection,
Javy
Bastard John said under his breath. Of course you cant go
Both Mason and Natalie looked at him in surprise, with Mason speaking first, John, this could be a great chance
Yeah a great chance for him to paw all over her and say even more vile things than he already has!
Natalie broke in, No, John, a great chance for us to dig a bit deeper into things we NEED to know
John, of course, knew she was right he just saw red when he thought of that man anywhere near her. He kept thinking back on the words hed heard him saying to her while she was naked and vulnerable in his bed and the look on her face, how deeply shaken and upset she was.
He sighed and said, Mason and I will talk to Chase discuss the best way to handle this. Well come to The Brazen Head tonight and talk about it.
Natalie nodded and said, Speaking of, Ive got to go.
When she was gone Mason said quietly, Lets go talk to Chase.
John knew before they even reached his office that Natalie was going to meet Javier for dinner. Of course she would. The reasons she should far outweighed the reasons she shouldnt. But if he had anything to say about it and he did they were going to have to figure out some way to keep an eye on her and make sure she was safe.
Chase looked at the letter and then to Mason and John. This could be good. I will be honest I have a slight concern that he might be suspicious and wants to have this dinner with Natalie for much the same reasons we want her to: to find out what is really going on. Then again if he suspects shes some sort of undercover asset, hed also know that she would be under surveillance, so he couldnt do anything anyway. My gut especially given that Natalie-doppelganger he brought to the Embassy party is that this is about an attraction to Natalie, but well take precautions.
Like what? John asked.
Chase reached into his desk and brought out a velvet jewelry box. John, its time you give Natalie a token of affection youve been sleeping with her long enough, dont you think? He said this with ironic humor, thinking he was making a truly funny joke.
John had to use every bit of steel in him not to squirm at Chases words, and he and Mason were smart enough not to even glance in each others direction.
Chase opened the box and in it was a beautiful diamond tennis bracelet and in the clasp was a tiny, state-of-the-art microphone. Natalie would be wired and John, Mason and Chase would personally listen in on her date with Lezama, making sure they were close by in the event an intervention was necessary.
John felt marginally better but not great about the whole thing. He told himself over and over that this was Natalies job that she was a trained agent even if she lacked many years of experience. Shed already proven herself able to handle stressful and truly dangerous situations. She seemed to be doing better at that than HIM handling her having to do it.
Mason kept glancing at John as they drove over to The Brazen Head. He knew that his friend had feelings for Natalie, but it had still taken him by surprise to see that professional considerations were completely absent when John had first reacted to Javiers note. Attributes that had been so deeply ingrained within him to the point where they defined him had been nowhere to be seen. Even when John was off duty there had always been a part of his brain and instincts constantly tuned to the job, yet there he had been, standing in the White House itself, talking with two other agents, and he had been nothing so much as a deeply concerned and infuriated boyfriend. Mason now knew beyond a doubt that John was Natalies lover in every sense of that word. He wondered to what extent John had realized or admitted that to himself.
John, well keep her safe. And shes good at her job
John glanced at Mason and said, I know we have to. And she is good. I just am having a hard time forgetting how much he upset her when we were in Mexico, and to think of her dining with him Im not so worried about any physical harm, but do you really think this guy isnt going to try to fuck with her mentally emotionally he is a player across the board. And Natalie has some areas of vulnerability
Meaning you? Whats happening with you two?
John nodded. He is like a dog with a bone about that if he senses anything an opening a wedge of some sort
But in some ways its to her benefit that you guys really are well, involved. She wont be lying.
No, but he can try to warp things make them seem something theyre not plus Chase is going to be listening will any red flags go up with him?
I think hell just think shes doing a great job of selling her cover
I just hate that she has to spend time with him her last night before we head out to Europe
Ah
What does that mean?
If memory serves you two were supposed to have a hotel hook-up that night for a final prep for the upcoming trip now, you wont be able to
John didnt say anything he didnt need to. Yes, one of the things John was most wrestling with was that his planned evening with Natalie was suddenly scrubbed and worst of all, so that she could be wined and dined by Javier Lezama. Lord he hated that bastard.
They got to The Brazen Head and the normal dance of Natalie waiting on them took place. About an hour into their stay, Natalie made sure John noticed as she told her boss that she was going to head in the back to unpack some supplies that had been delivered. He gave her the go-ahead and said hed cover her tables while she was gone. Of course within two minutes John was heading back there.
While Natalie waited for John she tried to steady her nerves. She hated the notion of spending time with Javier, but didnt want John to see how much that was weighing on her. It was her job. She could do this she had to.
John walked into the storage room and closed the door behind him, and he and Natalie closed the distance between them. They came together in a passionate kiss, arms banding around each other, then remained in an embrace for several minutes, soaking in the comfort of it.
Finally John said, Youll never guess where I found some icing this morning when I was taking a shower
Natalie laughed at that, but felt herself grow a bit warm at the memory. Maybe chocolate sauce would be better next time
John kissed her again at that, but then had to back away since they couldnt go where their bodies were trying to.
I have something for you its from Chase, actually. Theres a microphone in the clasp of this bracelet. We three will be monitoring your date with Lezama. You wont be out there by yourself.
Natalie nodded and held out her arm so he could put the bracelet on her. She was relieved that shed have some connection to them, but at the same time cringed inwardly at the conversation they could hear, if Javier was anything like hed been in the past. And shed have to play her role She could only hope that that sort of conversation would fit into that boorish category he was trying to apologize for maybe hed be on his best behavior
Natalie Im not going to lie to you. I hate that you have to spend any time with him. I hate how he behaves with you. And I totally despise him for ruining our final night together before we head to Europe.
Natalie hadnt even made that connection yet and he saw her face fall at that realization and it touched him that she seemed as disappointed about that situation.
Oh, John I didnt even think of that. Damn.
Exactly.
He gathered her into his arms again and kissed her thoroughly, to the point that her knees felt weak. The way they touched each other had moved so far beyond kissing, but still there was something about it that did her in every time. When John pulled back he looked at her and smiled when he saw her eyes were still fused shut he knew hed had an impact on her and it made him happy. When she opened her eyes there was a dreamy quality to them that he never tired of seeing.
You are such a good kisser, John she couldnt help admitting.
He kissed her again for good measure and said, You bring my best work out of me, and youre no slouch yourself, sweetheart
I love when you call me that she sighed.
He grinned broadly and said softly, Thats why I do it plus I cant seem to help it
John gave her a tight hug and then left the room, leaving Natalie to unload boxes in double time.
Chapter 32
When Natalie had called Javier to accept his invitation he had been thrilled hed practically purred through the phone line, making her skin crawl. It was something, because he was a very good looking man, as well as a billionaire several times over. As magazine after magazine shouted, he was one of the worlds hottest bachelors a true catch. In theory Natalie should be excited and flattered. In reality she was completely put off by him. Even if she wasnt involved with John she would have felt the same way.
He suggested they dine at his hotel since it had one of DCs hottest restaurants CityZen. In fact, Food & Wine Magazine had declared it one of the hottest restaurants in the world. Natalie thought long and hard about what to wear since she wanted as much amour on as possible, yet it couldnt appear that was her intent. If only it was winter She selected black silk pajama pants and a matching sleeveless mock turtleneck. She fastened her Swarovski Crystal broach on its neck and wore diamond teardrop earrings and her new tennis bracelet. On her feet were black Prada sandals. It was a simple, elegant look, yet youthful enhanced by her hair worn down.
As Natalie stepped into a taxi at 8pm, she wondered where exactly John, Mason and Chase were going to set up shop because they had to be careful not to be seen, even if they wanted to be nearby. As it turns out, theyd had no trouble sneaking into the hotel through the back entrance and were now ensconced in a room just down the hall from Javiers suite, and right next door to the stairwell which theyd use to leave unobtrusively when the time came.
Javier was waiting for Natalie in the lobby when she arrived, and he walked to her, placing a hand on her arm and a kiss on her cheek as he said, Cara mia, thank you for having dinner with me so lovely to see you again
She smiled at him, noting that they were attracting interested looks since it was clear people realized who he was. He tucked her hand in his elbow and led her to the restaurant and he didnt have to say a word when they walked in the maitre d jumped to attention and escorted them immediately to an intimate table down back. The wine steward was already at their table and as they took their seats was opening a bottle of Cristal champagne.
Javier raised his flute and clinked it against Natalies, saying To your health and happiness. Natalie, I have to be honest I was a bit surprised you accepted my invitation
She smiled and said, So was I
And he laughed, then said, So why did you?
Well, I really do want to learn what I can in preparation for my trip and for a brief moment in Mexico, when you were telling me how I should approach my first experiences in the Middle East well, I thought I saw more of who you were more so than when you
When I was delving into your sexual relationship with your agent
Natalie sat back and said, Yes.
So, you want to know the real me?
Or at least talk to the real you it seems like you have some very interesting perspectives, but they were getting lost in your game playing
You think I was playing games?
Werent you?
Not to the extent you apparently believe, cara mia in my experience every interaction has some element of gamesmanship even if the actual players arent totally aware of it. I acted as I did because I wanted to know the real you as well.
How does grilling me about intensely private matters do that?
Did you not listen to your own words just now what is more revealing than someones intensely private moments and their reactions to them
But those types of experiences are just a part of who someone is theres so much more
On some level you are right, but it depends on where a person is in the arc of their life what is beginning to shape them at a pivotal moment
They were interrupted by the waiter and Javier asked Natalies permission to order for them and the waiter quickly took his instructions and left with all due alacrity.
He continued his previous train of thought. Natalie I could certainly take a more traditional approach and ask you all sorts of questions about your life and history and I would learn some things about you. But when I look at you right now consider who you are at this moment at this stage of your life you are moving from girl to woman what is happening now is shaping the woman you will become who youll be from now on. These experiences will be carried with you for the rest of your life because they have awakened you to a new reality. That is why I am so focused on what has happened what his happening with you and your agent. The very fact that you are having such an illicit affair is both revealing and exciting and life altering. And then what he is doing to you what he is teaching you about yourself as he opens up this entirely new world for you Are you telling me that something that happened to you in high school would be more revelatory than what it is that led you to jump into this affair and what you are learning every time your agent claims your body to take you to places youve never been?
Natalie was unsettled by the direction this was all taking largely because there was so much truth in it, and it was excruciatingly personal, yet here it was being scrutinized not just by Javier, but for the listening ears of Chase and Mason not to mention John. She tried to derail him a little bit.
Javier, you act as if I was a virgin or something
Werent you? In all the ways that mattered even if not technically
You know, I thought that you were planning on behaving differently, but this is uncomfortably close to the way you were in Mexico
Natalie, I am prepared to reveal more of myself to you but and this may be the business man in me this needs to be an even exchange. I want to know you, too and Ive explained how and why I want to do that if you cant deal with it, Ill understand. Ill not force you, but then whats my inducement to reveal myself to you? Its not like were actually starting a relationship unless youre tiring of your agent or trying to plan for when your summer fling comes to an end
Well since youre right we are not starting a relationship why do you even care to know me and if you just tell me about places to see in the Middle East, how is that all that revealing about you?
Natalie you can read a travel book for a list of sights to see Im talking about providing the historical and emotional subtext of that turbulent yet wonderful region. And in doing so I cant help but open up some windows into who I am to places that I rarely let anyone in. I find where you are in your evolution as a woman to be fascinating I have had the privilege a few times myself of ushering a lovely young woman to an entirely new level of exploration and understanding. What is more fundamentally human than our core animal and therefore sexual beings? I cannot know you that way myself I am not your tutor but I can experience it one step removed
John, Mason and Chase had listened to this with a mix of discomfort and fascination. They believed he meant exactly what he was saying. It also made bizarre sense. Chase was concerned because he not knowing the truth of Natalies situation wondered if she could pull it off. Could she seem to reveal the sorts of things that would please Javier and ring true? Of course, John and Mason were uncomfortable and concerned for her because they knew the truth, and what it might cost her to give up so much of herself in this exchange. Javiers use of the word tutor was like a stab in the gut, since John remembered all too well that that was exactly what he had done with Natalie that day that first day
Natalie absorbed what he was saying. On some level she understood, but that is also what made it so difficult because it was so profoundly about who she was and was becoming. She would be dealing away her most private truths for the benefit of her job in earshot of her three supervisors. Yet the ludicrous irony was that it was her job that had led her to this incredibly intimate journey of discovery, at the hands of one of those very supervisors. Every now and again something happened to make the reality of her life and situation hit home hard and this was one of those moments.
She took a deep breath and said, I can only try I want to know what you can tell me Im just not sure how much Ill feel comfortable sharing about well, about such personal things
I understand. You are ultimately in control, no? But tell, me, Natalie why are you so very interested in that part of the world that youd even contemplate sharing what will obviously come at a cost to you?
And there it was a question that made perfect sense for him to ask, and which could throw everything in jeopardy. For what could she possibly say that would seem to explain why it was so important to her to learn about the Middle East that shed engage in such a difficult exchange?
The three ear-wigging men held their collective breaths.
Natalie saw that a trap had been set likely more than Javier could possibly realize. She took a deep breath and tried to tap into a separate reality what would drive someone to do this, if it wasnt for the reasons Natalie had to? As it turned out, she didnt have to work too hard, because in truth she was fascinated by the region, and the fact that she didnt understand it. And she WAS in an amorphous phase in her life, where reality and pretend swirled around each other, each teaching her something and pushing the limits of her self-definition and self-discovery.
Im not sure Ill do a very good job explaining but, well, I guess it goes along with what you were saying about me your observations I am I am in a transitional moment in my life that is all about exploration. It wasnt planned but I guess when you open to one thing you really open up to, well, everything its like all of your senses are sharpened, and so is your mind and you begin to question everything things you never even thought of before, let alone wondered about I have to be honest. I some ways I fall into or FELL into that stereotypical bucket of Americans who dont understand much beyond their own environment. I know that my views of much of the world are very simplistic and I am assuming one-sided And that is very much the case when it comes to the Middle East. And then I met you. And for a brief moment, when you talked about the Middle East, I felt as if I really HAD meaning Id met the real you, for a brief instant. And that well THAT you intrigued me because you have everything. Yet that is the place you say is in your blood. And the part of me that is wide open to exploring everything now well it suddenly seemed that it would be such a waste to go to the Middle East and not even try to understand it at an entirely different level especially if there was chance that someone like you, with such a bond to it, could help me see it really see it
John, Mason and Chase expelled their collective breaths and the latter said, Damn, shed good she nailed that
Javier looked at her closely while Natalie tried to keep her breathing on an even keel. This moment was everything this was for all the marbles. If he didnt believe her shed get nothing more from him. He smiled at her a genuine smile and she felt the tension along her spine ease.
Ah, cara mia I knew you were special.
At that moment their food arrived and they ate quietly for a little while, sharing their dishes. Then Javier said softly, Are you ready to begin our special exchange?
Natalie felt butterflies in her stomach as she said, Yes.
I will ask a series of questions you can answer. Or not If you do answer, then after I feel Ive learned a good amount, I will reveal some things to you and then it will be my turn to ask more questions OK?
OK.
Good. Tell, me how old were you when you lost your virginity?
Natalie should have expected the question but she didnt, and she blanched for a second before answering, realizing with a sinking feeling that this might be one of the easiest questions she faced. Sixteen she answered truthfully.
Ah, such a tender age. Was it with someone older, or a boy your own age?
He was eighteen, so a bit older.
Was it a one-time only thing a one-night stand, or were you a couple for a while?
He was my boyfriend we were together a little over a year.
How many others have you had sex with since not counting your agent, of course?
Two.
Were they both your own age, more or less?
Yes.
How long did you date them?
Natalie wasnt sure why she felt compelled to answer truthfully as much as she was repulsed by Javier there was still something magnetic about his personality and it was hard to deny him the answers he sought. Moreover, there was so much she had to lie about she knew it was best that she kept any other lies to a minimum. One of them, about six months the other, well, it was just one time
Oooh, a one-night stand that doesnt seem quite characteristic of you? Was it a stranger, Natalie?
No.
Yet you were only with him one time....
It was someone Id considered a friend, until
Until?
Until that night
It was just too awkward after?
Natalie swallowed hard, Yes
Shed tried to keep her tone neutral but Javier was canny and picked up on a subtle tone in her voice. You arent telling me the entire truth that is obvious, Natalie. Truth is our deal, my dear, now what arent you telling me?
She shook her head slightly for a second and then said softly, He I had had too much to drink at a party. He told me he was worried about me about leaving me in that condition among a bunch of fraternity boys, and that hed take me home because he was ready to go as it turned out, it was him I couldnt trust.
Javier sat back a bit in his chair hed not been expecting that answer. He raped you, Natalie?
Natalie was quiet for a long moment, then she said in a tone devoid of all emotion, I suppose that would be the best way to describe it though some might say it falls into one of those gray areas what is consent if you arent in any shape to give it or fight off the inevitable?
Javier nodded and it was his turn to be quiet. So, too, were the three men listening in they were suddenly very uncomfortable hearing such personal revelations, and since they cared about Natalie, to varying degrees of course, they cared very much that this had happened to her. John felt a bolt of fury surge through him certainly at whomever had done that to Natalie, but also towards Javier and this entire situation. This is not how he should be learning about this it should be when he and Natalie were alone, sharing confidences, and where he could take her in his arms and hold her, comfort her through any lasting hurt John felt Masons eyes on him and he looked in his direction, noting the sympathy in his eyes. Then they turned their attention back to the conversation.
Javier said, Well, I am terribly sorry that happened to you why dont we talk about much happier topics like your agent, for example. He makes you happy, doesnt he, Natalie?
Yes. she said simply.
How did you first meet him, Natalie?
It was in two places almost simultaneously I became Zos roommate, and also started working at a local restaurant that John and Mason frequent.
Ah, and how long did you know him before it all changed?
The whole semester and then most of the trip to Canada
What drew you to him?
Natalie thought about that, remembering what shed first thought and felt about him. He seemed mysteriousolder experienced he was always very nice to me, but held back some good looking, of course
When did things start to change or when did you develop a real interest?
Again, she gave that consideration. She thought of the night hed held the ice against her lip after Rocco had accosted her and how he talked to her when she was so rattled about her upcoming torture sessions not to mention after when hed shared his own reactions to his tapes being viewed. None of that was appropriate to share. Finally she said, There was an end-of-semester party. Someone slipped something in my drink. John noticed and got me out of there. He made sure I was OK, and stayed with me until he was sure
Very heroic
Actually, very John
And the first time you two were together intimately that was in Canada?
Natalie knew she had to fudge the truth a bit in this instance. Yes.
Tell me how all that came about.
Well, I Id started flirting with John some and it seemed he was flirting back. I bumped into him and Mason at a pub in Calgary one thing led to another we danced a bit and then we kissed. Actually, a lot. And then we made arrangements to meet at a hotel and that is how it all began
And what have you two done together since?
She wasnt sure what exactly he was getting at, and the question showed on her face.
Youve had sex each time youve met in private?
Yes.
How many times have you met since Canada?
Twicehere in DC
And in Mexico, at my place of course
Yes.
Has he taken you with his fingers and his mouth, Natalie?
She was surprised by his graphic question, but said quietly, Yes.
From behind?
She was mad and embarrassed and said tersely I dont see why we have to get this
Graphic?
Yes!
OK, Ill pull back for now anyway. So, not sexually well come back to that but emotionally, how does he make you feel?
That was a loaded question and one shed deliberately skirted a number of times when her inner voice had asked it. She knew shed have to come up with something, and it needed to be truth-based. Safe. As much as he knocks me off balance in some ways, in the end I feel safe. Its strange, really, because I also feel so small when Im with him hes so much bigger than me yet Im not afraid She realized she was revealing quite a bit and silenced herself because she was on the verge of just going on about him and what she felt, and wondered if shed temporarily lost her mind.
Javier took all this in and then asked, Natalie before your agent, who was the last person to have had you your second boyfriend or your rapist?
She started when she heard that word said so baldly shed long-avoided characterizing that experience and that person in those terms. Call it self-protective denial, but it had helped her move past it. She couldnt bring herself to answer out loud, but she didnt need to.
Javier said softly, I seeso you let no one touch you from that moment until you met your agent in a hotel is that correct?
Yes.
John felt a stab of remorse as he remembered their first time in the shower how intense and forceful it had been. How hed hurt her and that had been her first time since shed been raped? He felt physically ill and it was all he could do not to bury his head in his hands but he couldnt forget Chase sitting next to him.
Javier continued his relentless questioning, Did you tell him about your history?
No.
Why him, Natalie?
She thought a simple, direct answer would be best. I wanted him.
Hmmm, interesting. You felt a strong desire for him?
Yes.
After everything, that must have been a surprise to you, no? To feel that way? To have your body reawaken? How long had it been since well since your friend proved to be anything but?
She knew she had to lie about timeframes. In truth it had been almost three years, but that wouldnt conform to her supposed age and the other details shed shared. Almost two years
And did your desire surprise you?
Yes.
And why him?
I I trusted him
Interesting word trust it can mean so many thingsdid his age his being much older than you have something to do with that?
I guess I dont know, maybe
Oh, I think you do I think you knew you were ready to move past that other experience, but you needed someone whod know how to make it all entirely different for you no more fumbling boys but a real man who didnt need to take advantage of you whod know how to do things to you and your bodyto open up that new world for you it would be such a uniquely different experience that your past would be just that, left entirely behindyoud be set free of itfinally learn what it could be like, how beautiful, overwhelming all-encompassing the deep connection of it all
Natalie couldnt help remembering her last meeting with John, when she had been exactly that overwhelmed. She felt like she was being dissected like some rat in a lab, and though shed not given conscious thought to much of this, she knew by the way she was reacting to his words that Javier was seeing the truth in her his words were hitting home, resonating deeply and it took everything in her not to flee to run and hide and she couldnt bear to think that all this was being heard by Chase, Mason and John
Javier scrutinized her face, her eyes, the flush of her cheeks and he asked, Does he know youre in love with him?
Natalie sucked in her breath and all parties to this conversation heard it. She said nothing. She didnt even want to think about what hed just said in earshot of John, no less let alone talk about it.
Its OK, cara mia your secret is safe with me. its probably best you keep it from John, too this is supposed to be just a summer fling, no?
Natalie felt a jarring sensation at his words so abrupt almost harsh. Softly she said, Yes. Thats what it was is supposed to be...
That sort of thing requires a certain level of sophistication to pull off, my dear. Well, it would probably more correct to say a certain level of detachment an ability not to compromise your heart. I get the feeling you arent pulling that part off, but youd be best served not to let your agent realize that unless you want him to run for the hills.
Even as Javier was saying this he knew he was lying hed seen the way John had tended to Natalie and looked at her in Mexico when shed rescued Zo and been injured it was obvious then that the agent had real feelings for Natalie as well, but it served his purpose much better for her to question that entirely. He saw a painful reaction work across Natalies face before she could school her features.
Natalie, it is no reflection on you, cara mia. I am sure he is taken with you in his own way. I doubt hed be risking his job if this didnt have some meaning, but I am speaking as a man of a certain age and type perhaps not too dissimilar to your agent. He has a very important job its probably required a lot of sacrifice for him to get to such a pinnacle in his career. I am sure youve given him pause how could you not? He may even have told you that he hasnt felt this way before or that it is different for him, and he is perhaps open to more he may even believe that. But it isnt in him. I know that because until recently I have been the same no time for love building my empire, garnering power and influence yet now I find myself needing more and meeting someone like you Your agent isnt ready yet not really. I am. Protect your heart. Enjoy your summer but protect your heart and know that I will be waiting for you
Natalie didnt know what to say she was reeling, but fighting so hard against it. Again, his words his insights seemed to hit so close to home her brain knew she should discount him she knew he was a master manipulator. But other parts of her were feeling the impact of his words all her insecurities and vulnerabilities were being laid bare and hit hard.
John sat listening to this feeling completely helpless. He knew what that bastard was trying to do. And he also knew that the very nature of his and Natalies situation left her vulnerable to Javiers methods. He had basically parroted much of what John had said to her and John knew nothing was definitive between them right now they had talked about why that had to be the case it required trust and an openness to taking risks to stick with it. Had Javier eroded that? Had he planted seeds of doubt that would be too devastating to recover from? He wanted to go to her and help her regain her balance her belief in them whatever they were But he was stuck he had to sit here with Mason and Chase and pretend this had almost no meaning that most of it was trumped up lies
Javier could see the impact hed had on her. He didnt know if it would ultimately get him where he hoped with her this game still had a lot left to play but he knew his blows had landed in tender spots. He was also surprised by what she had revealed to him, and since he had wide streak of fairness running through him, he felt he should consider responding in kind. What sealed the deal for him was his belief that in her current state of vulnerability, him showing his own was likely to register with her, and perhaps help her see him differently feel differently about him, if only for a little bit. And from that little bit
He said softly, You have told me so much, cara mia been so open, and I know that was not without cost. So I am going to do the same. I am going to tell you some things about me that almost no one knows I had no intention of telling you all this, but now, well Id almost be ashamed not to, given what you have revealed but please, just let me say it all out no questions or interruptions it is a difficult story for me. I try not to think about it too much but I will, for you. To repay my debtOK?
Natalie and the three men listening in sat back, wondering what theyd hear. She said quietly, OK.
My mother was a Saudi Princess
That made them all sit up and take notice.
My father had business interests in that region during the sixties, and he met my mother. They fell for each other and began an affair, which was an incredibly dangerous thing to do because not only would she risk death for being with a man outside of marriage, but she was promised to a Saudi. It was a summer affair, and that fall she was heading to the US for school Princeton. By the time she got there, she realized she was pregnant. She contacted my father and he came to see her, offering her marriage, but she explained that she could not risk death nor could she disgrace her family by reneging on the agreement to marry the Saudi. She was being chaperoned in the US by her older sister and her husband. The sister helped her hide her pregnancy, and when the baby when I was born, I was handed over to my father to raise. My mother went back home that summer, and she met and fell in love with a US Diplomat and told her family. She was going to turn her back on everything for him. She would not do that for her own child, but she would for her dashing American. Her family tried to talk her out of it her father technically should have killed her right away, but she was his favorite and he was sure he could bring her around She was adamant said her American loved her, and she loved him. But he was not the man she thought. He told her he was being re-posted, and he could not take her along he could not marry a Saudi princess, since it could ruin his career. She was devastated. Worse, the Saudi she was intended to marry found out about her affair and he and his family killed her in a classic honor killing. Her Diplomat married the daughter of a wealthy US industrialist and had a family, living happily ever after in their American Dream. I initially had a lot of hate for my mother for that culture that would keep her from my father and me but her blood is my blood, and I realized that she was a victim, too. She, like so many in the region like so many COUNTRIES, let alone starry-eyed young girls fell for American lies her virtue was compromised the best part of her taken, then she was discarded when she was no longer of value, or something more important came along. But some day and hopefully that day is sooner rather than later things will be different
Natalie was blown away. She knew hed told her the truth and that he had ample reason to want to hurt US interests Americans. Perhaps even strike at the First Family itself. Javier, I dont know what to say
Nothing to be said, cara mia Javier wasnt prepared for the darkness that seeped around his heart and soul as he thought of his painful personal history. He always had the same reaction, yet it managed to surprise him every time. He wanted to lash out and he had Natalie sitting right there. He needed more from her now needed to watch her squirm again. After all, she was just a woman, and an American one at that. My turn I need more from you now
More?
More. Tell me about the first time your agent fucked you. What was it like?
Natalie sat back in surprise at the change in him. She sensed the deep anger that bordered on hatred.
Upstairs the three men had also been blown away by what Javier had revealed, but now they too sensed the change in him and they were concerned that Natalie would bear the brunt. Maybe shed just decide to leave. Shed already learned so much it was unlikely hed reveal any more.
Tell me, Natalie come on what did it feel like? Did it surprise you? Overwhelm?
Yes.
Yes what?! I need details
Im not sure
Is he big - did he challenge your body DID HE?!
Yes!
Tell me what you were thinking what it felt likeTELL ME!
She wasnt sure what to do at that moment. Again she had the desire to flee, but also was worried about creating a scene, so she felt she had no choice but to answer. I I I felt like... I thought it was like I was butter and he was a hot knife slicing through me
Javier smiled at that, Excellent, my dear so there was pain?
Natalie didnt answer right away and he jumped on her I asked you a question was there pain?!
A little at first
But you liked it, didnt you?
She said nothing and in a menacing tone he said, Natalieeee
Yes she barely whispered.
Of course you did an important self-discovery, no? That pain can bring pleasure beyond what you can have without it in some ways Have you let him fuck you in the ass?
Natalie gasped and her whole body jerked as if shed been struck.
Javier noted her reaction and said, Oh, you really should an exquisite experience, especially if he finger fucked you at the same time or used a toy or something the blend of agony and ecstasy would be like nothing youve ever experienced youd be begging for it all the time what about when he fucked you with his tongue - did he bite your clit
Natalie could take no more. She shot up from her seat and said in a shaky, angry whisper, This is over! I should have known this is who you really are! Before she could move away Javier grasped her wrist and said urgently, Im sorry please, I am. Just sit SIT! I wont say anymore
Natalie saw that some people were beginning to look at them so she acquiesced, saying, All right, just for a moment, but if you say one more word Upstairs the three men had leapt to their feet, but then sank back down. She seemed OK, and they really couldnt afford to blow her cover unless it was life and death. John was the last to sit, and it took everything in him not to race down there and beat that monstrous prick until he was dead.
I am sorry, Natalie. I am embarrassed by my behavior. Truly. And now youve learned something else about me. When I am hurting I lash out. When I am vulnerable, I feel I must strike. The story I shared with you it is a difficult one for me. It is painful that that is my story my mother gave me up. She would not do for me, to keep me, what she was willing to do for an American who didnt really even want her. Again, please believe me I am sorry. This is why I so rarely even think about this, let alone discuss it. Sit here and relax a moment. I will leave you in peace while I go arrange for a car to take you back to the White House.
Javier was gone for five minutes, during which time she tried to steady her nerves. Then he came and took her hand to walk her outside to a waiting Town Car.
Natalie I know you may not be able to forgive me. I hope you will understand my human frailties and give me another chance. I will write you a letter with my suggestions for what you should see and do when you go to the Middle East. I hope our paths will cross again, and that by then you will have moved past the bad end to our dinner. If you ever need anything you have my card.
When Natalie sat back in the car, she released a deeply-held breath, and began to shake in delayed reaction to everything. It had been such a rollercoaster she felt like shed been carved open and put on display for all to see And she felt a heaviness in her heart as she tried to battle against what Javier had said about her feelings for John, and his for her and the likelihood of anything lasting beyond the summer. Had he told her anything she didnt know? Not really. Except for his assertion that she was in love with John which John had heard. She couldnt examine that right now and she knew it was something shed been refusing to contemplate for a while. But what would John have thought? She was exhausted physically and emotionally spent. She craved the chance to crawl into her own bed, pull the covers up over her head and cry her eyes out. But instead she was on her way back to The White House, where Zo would be waiting. Tomorrow evening theyd head to Europe. She suddenly felt a painful yearning to be with John, in his arms. Yet that thought also scared her to death now she felt defenseless when it came to him and was Javier right about her true feelings?
Natalie tried to fight the tears, but they coursed down her cheeks anyway. She did her best to be silent, but a few telltale gasps made there way out of her.
Chase, Mason and John were silent. They knew they should discuss what theyd heard, but they didnt have the stomach for it because they understood that something devastating had happened to Natalie, on so many levels. Of course Johns level of understanding went profoundly deeper, and so too did his pain over it. They knew she was crying. They knew she was trying not to.
Mason could see that his friend was barely hanging on. He felt a deep sorrow for Natalie, so he could only imagine what John was experiencing. He thought back on what Stinson had said to Natalie and how it had hurt her Javier had hit her even harder. He turned to Chase and said quietly, Lets turn the receiver off, weve heard enough
Chase nodded and their invasion of Natalies privacy ended though it had all been caught on tape. He turned to them both and said, Why dont we meet tomorrow morning, once weve had a chance to digest all this He was looking closely at John as he said this. It was impossible to know what Natalie had made up to support her cover story. Of course, Chase could simply tell himself that virtually everything to do with John had been complete fabrication. But there had been a disconcerting ring of truth to some things. Questions were colliding around in his head, but he was pretty sure he didnt want to know the answers. He should want to know well, his professional self should want to. But every other part of him rebelled against that because his gut told him that hed be probing sheer pain if he dug for answers. And then hed have to do something about those answers. So, he did something he could never remember having done before he willfully buried his head in the sand, which revealed something important about him and how much of a friend he considered John and the growing regard he felt for Natalie.
Once they were sure Javier was in his suite for the night, they left the room and exited via the stairs. They went separately to their cars and headed home. John drank three glasses of whiskey and tossed and turned for hours, his arms aching to hold Natalie. And he was afraid afraid that Javier had dealt them a blow they might not recover from, and the frustrating thing was he couldnt even try to rectify it until they got to Europe and had their first hotel encounter.
Chapter 33
The next morning Chase, John and Mason met for the debrief theyd put off the night before, and the intervening hours had done little to lift the heaviness that had surrounded them when theyd parted company. However, there was a job to do and their operation last night had yielded some very important information which is what they would focus on right now, not the consequences of how it was secured.
Chase got the ball rolling. OK, gentleman, we have a lot to do today. We are wheels up tonight at 8pm, first stop Ireland. We need to make some headway with the information we found out last night. To that end, before signing off last night I reached out to our research team. Tracking the exact identity of Lezamas mother is not going to be an immediate proposition. There are and have been many Saudi princesses and they dont exactly catalogue every honor killing. That said, we have a good bit to go on we know the timeframe based on Lezamas age, plus we can cross-reference with the fact that she attended Princeton. Finally, there should be record of her death, even if its exact cause isnt listed. We really have some great stuff to work with now for the first time we have something tangible to suggest that Lezama could have enough of a grudge to be involved in something. If he is involved, then I think we have to take the threat even more seriously he has the resources to fund a major operation. It will be very interesting to see if he contacts Natalie again and in what vein
John couldnt help but react to that thought, but he kept it to a stiffening of his spine perceptible but not over the top. Chase was glad to see that control because it suggested John hadnt lost sight of the fact that they did have an important mission, and Natalie appeared to be an increasingly important part of it given the interest Javier had in her. She was more of a source and conduit of information than they could ever have imagined.
The three settled down to go over all plans and schematics for the European trip three weeks through most major countries and a few smaller ones for good measure and John managed to bury most of himself in his work. Lives were at stake and that tended to concentrate the mind beautifully, still, he couldnt help but wonder what Natalie was doing and how she was. His mind kept playing over and over the many things hed heard the fact that shed been raped by someone shed trusted hurt him profoundly on her behalf. But what kept reverberating through his head was Javiers question about Natalie being in love with him. What had Javier seen to prompt that or maybe hed seen nothing at all. Maybe it was just more game-playing, trying to see if he could get Natalie off-balance. Still, she hadnt denied it but was that a gambit on her part? He refused to give a single thought to what he wanted the truth to be or how hed feel about either answer. He was even less-inclined to contemplate his own feelings he was keeping a tight lid on them. Of course a pesky inner voice called him out on the fact that if he had to keep a tight lid, there must be something of significance bubbling underneath. He ignored it.
Natalie got up feeling anything but rested, and as she pushed herself through the days tasks, a heaviness remained with her a sluggishness as if shed never fully awoken. She felt slightly nauseated and there was a tightness in the middle of her forehead not to mention in her chest. If there was any good news, there was so much to be done that she had little time to think. She, Zo and the First Lady were finishing their packing and wardrobe planning and there was a buzzing of excitement that Natalie desperately wished could take root in her since she felt so drained and listless. Another possible blessing: since she was so busy in the private residence it was highly unlikely shed see Chase, Mason or John she wasnt ready to face them, and the fact that she included John on that list worsened the tightness in her chest. She just didnt know how shed react if she could act with the required nonchalance, or if somehow that would even be worse. She knew she had to seem nothing but professional around Chase, but underneath the sluggish shroud of weariness all she felt was raw and exposed, not to mention completely vulnerable. She realized it was better to remain in that murky zone since it isolated her from the sharply drawn pain that she was likely to feel if she fully experienced the impact of last night she had been carved open, the trenches possibly reaching to her very soul. She would have preferred to go another 48 hours with Hawkins than to relive that dinner with Javier.
At 7:30 the First Family and Natalie boarded Air Force One and the three men shed managed to avoid all day were standing at attention, watching them board. Natalies heart squeezed when she saw John and she wanted nothing more at that moment than to fall into his arms, but along with that all the pain wanted to clamor forth so she clamped down on everything plus it wasnt as if she could act on that need anyway. She gave them all a small smile that was more like a grimace and followed Zo to their cabin to stow their personal items. She was uncomfortably aware of how closely she was being watched and hated all that they now knew about her. She felt a stab of pain in the side of her head while lights danced in front of her eyes, and it finally dawned on her that all day her body had been fighting off a migraine and it appeared to now be losing that battle. Terrific. Just terrific.
Just before take-off a ream of intel was delivered to Chase chatter from European-based muslim groups, some preliminary thoughts on the identity of Lezamas mother even a list of US Diplomats based in the region during the relevant period. Another one of Chases teams was technically on duty in terms of protecting the First Family, but he, John and Mason were taking the lead on carving through the intel. As leader of his team, John had a particular responsibility and hed also proven to be one of the most adept in terms of synthesizing and evaluating the various strands of data. He had instincts that went beyond what most others had a natural gift.
Within an hour after take-off Natalie was in complete agony. Shed already vomited violently in the small bathroom attached to the small room she and Zo were sharing. Her head felt like a hot spear had been shoved through it, but it also throbbed. Even with her eyes closed shut the light from the still-bright sky was killing her, notwithstanding the fact that shades were drawn damn summer with its delayed sunsets. Because Natalie so seldom got a migraine she had no medication with her, and Advil was trying its best to help along with ice packs applied directly to the most painful parts of her head. When she could lie totally still she could almost feel human, but her churning stomach kept requiring mad dashes to the rest room, which knocked her back down the path of pain each time.
God bless Zo, she was trying her best, but Natalie was so weak from pain and getting sick that she needed more substantial help getting out of and back into bed and unfortunately the slightly-built female medic wasnt much help in that regard. More unfortunately, while there were tons of medicines and pain killers aboard, none were specifically for migraine, and Natalie was reluctant to take something as heavy duty as Demerol or Percodan since they knocked her for a loop. She would try to gut it out a bit longer, but stronger assistance than Zo could provide was necessary. The First Lady herself had become very worried about Natalie she had a genuine affection for the young woman, all the more so since shed saved Zos life and it was obvious she was in great pain. So it was that Chase, John and Mason were interrupted with a request for assistance from the First Lady herself.
John was out of his seat first, but Chase broke in and said, Mason will you please help take care of Natalie I really need Johns eyes and mind on this intel Mason kept his groan directly inwardly he knew how much John wanted to go to Natalie. Hed been itching to see her and be with her all day, and now that she was ill but he also knew that Chase was right and he took no offense at it. Masons own abilities were well above-average, but Johns were unique. Even John understood, though he hated it. Still he sank back down, saying quietly, Keep us updated, and let us know if you need our help
Mason went into the room and could see that pain-fueled tension and exhaustion were buffeting Natalie. She was as weak as a kitten and his heart went out to her his gut told him this was a physical manifestation of the deep pain her conversation with Javier had visited elsewhere within her. Her body was making it all too clear the price that had been exacted. He said her name softly and her eyes drifted open for a moment before closing shut against the light, and he gently stroked her face when he said, John wanted to come Chase sent me He felt it important to tell her that, even if it wouldnt totally register right now.
Over the next two hours Mason had to help Natalie to the bathroom three times, literally having to hold her up as she vomited, though there was little she could produce at this point. Tears kept slipping down her cheeks and she was writhing in pain and Mason made a decision, Natalie, you have to take the pain meds you cant keep this up She nodded through the fog of pain and Zo dashed off to get the medic. She gave her a significant dose of Demerol and within 15 minutes Natalie was completely out, but her features had relaxed, and unbidden moans were no longer pouring from her. Mason remained holding her hand for a little bit, and then went back to report to John and Mason.
The three men went to get some sleep they had about 3 hours until theyd touch down in Dublin. They stretched awake when they began the initial descent and they made final preparations for their journey from the airport to the US Ambassadors Residence in Phoenix Park where they would be staying. Chase finally turned to John and said, John, Natalie will still be out of it likely for the next three or four hours. Why dont you go get her as soon as we land you can handle transferring her from plane to car, and then to her room. John just nodded, feeling a burst of gratitude and relief.
When he went into the small cabin Zo was sitting beside Natalie, and she smiled at John.
I think the pain medication really worked but she is out cold
It seems she needed that he said softly.
Yeah well, Ill leave you to take care of her and as she said that John thought her words more significant than what they seemed on their surface. Perhaps Zo was more astute than hed given her credit for.
John was finally alone with Natalie and he looked at her just looked at her, soaking in her features, noticing how small and fragile she looked, especially given the hours of pain her body had fought through. And he knew it wasnt just physical pain. He rested his hand against her face and she pressed into it, seeming to register his touch, and that made the tight fist around his heart expand just a little bit. When the time came he wrapped a blanket around her and gently lifted her, carrying her with no effort down the stairs and into a waiting SUV. He held her on his lap so he could help keep her immobilized and safe and he knew it helped him at least as much to be able to just hold her, even if she wasnt aware of it. Just as he completed that thought she stirred for a moment and sighed, John and slipped back into the soothing grip of Demerol, but it was his arms around her that were helping her heal.
When they reached their destination John carried Natalie to her assigned room and deposited her in her bed, under the covers. Then, knowing they were alone, he pressed a kiss into each of her hands, her right temple and then softly on her lips. Giving her one final look he went to find Chase.
Chapter 34
Natalie slept all through the day and into the night, but didnt miss much since the main festivities were beginning the following night, when the Taoiseach (Prime Minister) and the President of Ireland would co-host a dinner and gala at the latters official residence ras an Uachtarin, also located in Phoenix Park. During the day President Caldwell would be holding official meetings and the rest of the party would tour some of the prettiest sights around Dublin, including Howth Head to the North. What Natalie did not yet know was that she was going to beg off that part of the agenda to rest up for the gala and ensure shed be fully recovered when in reality shed be meeting with John for the afternoon at The Merrion Hotel.
She woke the next morning relieved to find that she no longer felt any pain, though she did feel weak, likely from the fact that shed eaten nothing in more than 24 hours though she did recollect someone making her drink water at regular intervals. She also had the vaguest memory of feeling Johns arms around her, his lips softly touching hers mostly she remembered the sense of comfort and safety. As she was stretching there was a soft knock at the door and a member of the household staff walked in with a breakfast tray and a note. When Natalie opened and read it her stomach flipped over:
N - meet me at noon at The Merrion Hotel, Upper Merrion Street. J
She wasnt ready for this she was probably the least ready she could possibly be, but as with most of this whole ordeal she had precious little choice. And paradoxically, there was nothing she wanted more than to see him and be with him but only if it would go the way she needed it to and therein laid the rub since she didnt know what that meant, or more accurately, wouldnt let herself know it for fear it wouldnt happen and she might never recover. She ate some toast, tried to force down a piece of Irish bacon very different than what she was used to at home and drank her tea. At that moment, Zo stuck her head in the door.
Hey youre alive!
Natalie chuckled and says, Yeah back from the dead sorry about all that
Natalie, thats crazy my God I felt so badly for you and poor John
John?
Well, Chase sent Mason to take care of you for a while, but it was John who carried you off the plane, held you during the whole drive, and then brought you in here. He looked so worried
Natalie smiled a little at that, knowing that her memories were true.
Dad said that you were to lie low for the day so that you can be back in form for tonight Ill miss having you along, but you still dont look quite yourself I hope you feel better, Natalie
Im sure I will
A few minutes later she heard another knock at the door and called to whoever it was to enter and she was more than a little surprised to see it was Chase. He had a kindly expression on his face as he stepped into the room and closed the door.
Hi, Natalie I just wanted to check and see if you were feeling better.
She sat up a bit straighter in bed and said with as much strength as she could muster, Yes, much better.
He studied her, noting her wan appearance and while it could be put down to her migraine, he sensed it went deeper than that, and he realized that she would not have the haunted look she did if shed been dealing lies to Javier. He was old enough to be her father and he felt a pull in that direction which surprised him, but maybe it was because hed learned how brave she was when it came to tossing herself into what had to be done. She had been through so much in a short period of time. Yet what gave him pause was that the very thing that made her an increasingly valuable asset was what could destroy her she held nothing back. She didnt seem to protect herself, but gave away as much as was required and he knew with a complete certainty that that is the only reason they learned what they had about Javier this early in the game when that knowledge might make all the difference. He also realized she only had those truths to trade because she and McBain had likely crossed every line so how was he supposed to feel about that? Mostly he just felt worried for them and a twinge of guilt when he admitted to himself that he wasnt going to try to stop them, but instead would continue to shove them in each others paths. The lives they were officially sworn to protect were at stake what would be left of their own and themselves was of secondary importance. He had to have that attitude or he needed to hand in his resignation theirs was the branch of service pledged to jump in front of a bullet. Natalie might have preferred that might have survived that better than what Javier had done to her. What he might still do to her. Not to mention the possible impact of whatever was happening between her and John.
Natalie you did some amazing work the other night What we learned about Javier was very valuable. Theres a lot more intel pouring in John will go over some of that with you this afternoon. But I just wanted to tell you how proud I am of you how important you are in all this and I know it hasnt been without personal cost
Natalie wasnt exactly sure what to say. She didnt want to think about what Chase did or did not know or suspect. She also felt like a fraud because what work had she really done? Shed simply opened up about some of the most private moments in her life many of which had occurred while on this very assignment. Yes, her laudable job performance had been essentially to screw her brains out with her boss and then talk about it with a possible terrorist with mommy issues. How would that get worded in a commendation?
All she said, quietly, was Thank you I hope it makes a difference
It will. Well, I just wanted to check in take care of yourself, Natalie.
I willthanks.
It was already 10am, and she knew it was time to get ready. She showered and then contemplated her wardrobe, trying to figure out what she should wear. She settled on a pair of black linen walking shorts and a white cotton v-neck cardigan that she wore closed on its own. She selected black patent leather mules with one-inch heels and accented her look with pearls at her ears and throat. She sat on the edge of her bed for a long time, trying to steady her nerves, then went to get in the taxi that shed called for.
Natalie walked into the lobby of the hotel a beautiful Georgian structure that had been completely refurbished and saw that John was already there, as always. He gave her a small smile and wave as she walked towards him and her legs felt like they were turning to jelly. She was being stormed by emotions that she wasnt prepared to deal with that she wouldnt let herself name.
John thought she looked so delicate and wan yet tragically beautiful and he could tell she was not herself. He didnt know if it was the lingering effects of her migraine, sheer nerves or both, but it made his stomach clench to think she might have an issue being with him yet he understood it. He took her hand in his and noted it was cold, and when he bent to kiss her she offered him her cheek. He wasnt the only one who was surprised Natalie had not consciously intended to do that. She saw the fleeting reaction on Johns face and to soften the blow she hugged him tightly for a moment, closing her eyes against the feeling of being in his arms again. She had no strength.
John held her for a minute and then stepped back, asking Do you want some lunch, or do you want to just go upstairs? He could see her deliberating.
On one level, there was nothing Natalie wanted more than to delay the inevitable by heading first to the restaurant, but she knew shed likely jump out of her skin if she had to sit there trying to seem normal while going through the motions of dining. So she said softly, Why dont we just go upstairs?
He nodded and took her hand she let him. They were alone in the elevator and as soon as the door closed he pulled her closer and tilted her chin up so they could look at each other. Her eyes had lost some of their brightness and again he wondered why. He gently moved his hand under her hair to the back of her head and lowered his mouth to hers, and she kissed him back immediately, opening her mouth to him and letting her tongue mate with his with a gentle passion.
As soon as Johns mouth moved over Natalies she felt lost. She had zero control over her thoughts and feelings and in that instant her personal truth flooded through every part of her she loved this man. She was totally, utterly in love with him and she was petrified what that meant. She felt her self-preservation instincts kick in and she pulled out of the kiss, burying her head in Johns chest because she couldnt trust her legs to carry her any further away.
John sensed the change come over her before shed fully disengaged from the kiss and he wasnt sure what to make of it all. They had so much to talk about to possibly work through, and he wasnt sure how to even begin especially since Natalie seemed to be struggling mightily with what had become their comfortable routine. But he was also painfully aware of what shed gone through during that dinner with Javier what shed been forced to reveal and hear from him regarding their summer fling, not to mention some horrible memories from her past and he would find his patience.
When the elevator doors opened Natalie stepped out first, but she let John take her hand as they walked down the hall. She wanted to run, but her legs were trembling so badly it wasnt even remotely a practical consideration. How was she going to hide her feelings especially if he touched her. but how could she not let him touch her, given everything? Unless she was willing to blow everything up but why? To what end?
Natalie walked into the room first it was lovely but all that jumped out at her was the massive bed. Why should that have such an impact? It was a hotel room, for goodness sakes, but its presence was so pronounced She walked over towards the window there were two armchairs there yet she couldnt sit down either given the nervous energy coursing through her. She needed to try to steer this situation, at least until she could get herself under control. She turned around to face John and she could tell he was looking at her with a blend of curiosity and confusion.
John, Chase said that youd gotten a lot more intel that you needed to go over with me
Natalie wanting to dive right into work was just about the last thing hed expected from her, and his puzzled expression gave him away.
What am I wrong?
Uh, no, Natalie, but I guess Im just surprised that thats what you want to talk about right now it seems theres a lot more that we could talk about maybe even NEED to talk about
Of course she knew what he meant, but she wasnt just going to cave. She wasnt ready. She might never be ready. Like what?
Oh, I dont know like your dinner with Javier and everything you talked about
Well, it was my understanding that you, Chase and Mason already debriefed about what we learned and that he already had a ton of people researching it hence some of the additional intel were supposed to discuss
Now John was feeling the first stirrings of anger, but he tried to keep them in check. Natalie, I think you know thats not what Im talking about When she said nothing he continued, To be clear, Im talking about all the things he made you tell him about you, your past, us
Look, I did what was necessary and its over it worked its done
Oh, but it isnt, is it? And I think we need to talk about it
And I dont. Whats the point
He shook his head and said, Given what has been happening between us how it all started you dont think it makes any sense for us to talk about what happened to you? Who the last person to touch you was before we collided in the shower that day?
She closed her eyes for second and then said, I dont want to talk about that with you.
With me he whispered in shock. So let me see if I have this straight. Im the man youre in an intimate relationship with and you refuse to discuss it with me, but you willingly did so with Javier Lezama?
Now anger coursed through Natalie. Willingly?! I may have been complicit but I have a hard time saying I was a fully willing participant. Exactly what choice did I have? Ive put all that behind me why do you need me to go into it any more than I had to the other night? For your benefit? Even if it hurts me? Its not enough that I already had to
He could see she was getting increasingly upset and he wanted to defuse the situation, so he put his hands up almost as if in surrender and walked slowly towards her. OK. OK fair enough your past is just that. But what about what he said about us?
Hes an idiot.
Yes, he is, but I think he impacted you nonetheless
In hindsight, she would have preferred to be talking about her date-rape experience she had let things get steered to the edge of the cliff.
Im just tired still not over my migraine
Youre upset about what he said about what he made you say
Youre wrong?
Am I? Then why are you letting it come between us?
Us?
Yes, Natalie Us. The us we talked about becoming when we decided to go with this
She wanted to scream What the hell does that mean? What does us mean?! But she didnt. Im not doing that
No?
No.
OK, then kiss me. Right here, right now not pulling away the first chance you get
She stood rooted to the spot while he looked at her intently. She walked towards him and let him take her in his arms as she tried to stop the tremors that threatened to erupt. She could do this she could pretend it was four days ago two weeks ago even that first night in Calgary. She was wrong. She started to kiss him but when she felt the surge of desire that was no longer just physical, but deeply emotional, wash over her she had to pull back.
When she looked at John she could have sworn she saw a deep sadness cross his features, but then it was gone. He said softly, Now tell me you arent letting him get between us
Im not. Even as she said this she knew she was being utterly ridiculous as evidenced by Johns incredulous expression. He couldnt believe she was going to continue to lie.
Now the sadness reached his voice as he said, You know, I knew that what he said did a number on you how could it not. We talked about this all being difficult and uncertain but also that we needed to trust each other and be honest I can understand you being knocked off balance, but for the life of me I cant deal with the fact that you are taking his word over mine substituting his judgment, his interpretation over what I have to say what Ive told you you said yourself that hes an idiot.. a manipulator yet you have given him all the power here youve put him before me
No
Damn it Natalie, yes you have, or you wouldnt be behaving this way! Its like night and day from where wed gotten to! As if youre throwing it all awaydiscounting it like it was all a lie
Im not! How can you say
He was truly angry at her stubborn refusal to admit an ounce of truth in what he was saying. Theyd never get through this if she continued this way. His attempt at careful prodding wasnt working, so all he had left was bold-faced truth. How can I say that? Well, lets compare and contrast, shall we? The last time we were together prior to your dinner with Javy I was eating chocolate icing from between your legs while you licked it off my dick! Now you cant even kiss me with as much passion as a teenager at a sock hop!
Natalie took a step back in shock but then felt her own anger bubble up beyond what she could contain. Oh, now the truth really comes out, doesnt it?! She took a step towards him.
What are you talking about?
Sex, John. S-E-X. Thats what this is really about. Im not playing my part! No, I wanted to focus on some other things first like maybe our work but my mistake, because Im messing with the little routine weve set up get naked as soon as we get to the room, screw our brains out until we pass out, and then finally work over room service. Well, fine. Lets go then!
While John was still in shock from her outburst she kicked her shoes off, yanked her sweater over her head and next had her shorts off so she was standing in front of him in skimpy bra and panties, her hands one her hips and her face flushed with anger. Her eyes were glittering sapphires as her breathing became more labored. He could tell shed actually lost weight since theyd last been together, the likely ravages of her migraine. He also couldnt help his bodys instinctive reaction to her, and the way her eyes swept down over his pelvic region not to mention the smirk on her face told him shed noticed.
She was angry and aroused but the good new was the anger was blocking those other pesky emotions shed just finally admitted to maybe she could pull this off, then go lick her wounds and figure out how to regain enough balance to hide her true feelings. She walked towards him saying in a soft purr, Is this better, John? Is this what you want from me how you need me to be...I can be this for you
She stood less than a foot from him and the heat was building between them. He knew he should stop this he would. Natalie
Before he could continue she reached her right hand out and cupped his rock-hard manhood through his pants and half a moan slipped out before he grabbed her hand and said, Natalie, stop it!
No! You know you dont want me to She reached both hands up and aggressively grabbed his face, then stood on her toes to press her lips against his, her whole body along the length of him. She said against his mouth, Kiss me John I need you to kiss me
He had no choice he had to give in and he took possession of her mouth in a searing kiss. She was walking forward, bearing him backwards towards the bed, and when the backs of his legs hit it he broke the kiss. They looked at each other, their breathing highly erratic, passion but something else, too, clouding their features. Natalie swallowed and moved around him, getting up on the bed and kneeling straight up at the foot of it to face him. He turned around and again they studied each other, then Natalie grabbed his tie and pulled him into another kiss. His arms wound around her back, hers around his neck, and she moaned at the feeling of his fully-clothed body pressing up against her almost-naked one. But she was becoming more desperate because she was starting to feel again and she didnt want it this way she didnt want to just be physical, or even mostly physical. Still, it was too late to turn back now so she tried to dive into her desire again. But it was so hard she felt so much now and she was shaking with it with the effort to hold back to hide it.
John had been losing himself as well, but he was attuned enough to Natalie to detect the change in her. She was still kissing him ardently but she was shaking and he knew it was from emotion, not passion. Hed felt the latter enough to know the difference. He pulled back and looked at her, kneeling on the bed, passion but also sadness on her face and in her eyes, her body trembling and his heart squeezed as he had his own epiphany he couldnt do this anymore. He didnt want this any more not like this.
He stepped back and gave voice to this turmoil, I cant do this I dont want to do this any more The problem with epiphanies is they can lead you to blurt things out before youve figured out the best way to fully explain them. This became horribly clear when he saw the look on Natalies face. She looked like shed been slugged in the gut, and must have felt that way, too, because she doubled over for a second, wrapping her arms around her middle as she said, Oh God Oh my God he was right Im such such an idiot Ive got to go She was so clearly trying not to cry but not quite succeeding. Johns brain was frozen for a second and he tried to form the words to stop what was happening correct things but before he could say a word she had slid off the bed and was almost desperately grabbing for her clothes.
Natalie had thought shed felt devastation before but she knew she was so very wrong. She felt like every part of her had broken yet she needed to somehow get her body to cooperate and move. John didnt even want to do what they had been doing any more! He must have realized Javier was right and that she was in love with him somehow she must have let that show... somehow hed felt it and he was running away. And right now thats what she needed to do, but she was losing it she felt tears and sobs backing up in her throat but fought against them with everything she had. Dear God, please dont let her face that ultimate degradation of falling on the floor into a weeping heap in front of him
Natalie was so focused on trying to keep it together, to find her clothes, to will her decimated heart to keep beating long enough for her to escape, that she didnt hear John come up behind her she just felt his arms close around her from behind and she began to struggle against his hold because she couldnt bear his pity, or him trying to comfort and console her as if this could ever be all right.
Johns heart was now breaking as he saw what his words and actions had done to her, but it was also pounding with the urgent need to try to fix it get her to see and understand As she struggled against him he tightened his arms and practically lifted her off the ground, saying against her neck, Natalie, stop STOP listen to me you dont understand
Yes! I do you you were cl.. clearyou dont want want.. this any.. mo.. more she was crying in earnest now, it couldnt be helped, but she was also still fighting him.
Natalie, please.. sweetheart
The last intact pieces of her heart tore when she heard him call her that and she redoubled her efforts to free herself saying brokenly, Dont DONT call call me that
John could feel his own tears running down his cheeks he had to make her understand...God DAMN it Natalie I want MORE MORE! Thats what I was trying to say Damn it I love you! I LOVE you and I cant just do what we weve been doing do you understand? Did you hear me? I love you God I love you He was now rasping those words against her ear and she finally heard them she could barely believe it but he was still hanging on to her from behind, she could feel the wetness of his cheek against hers as he rubbed his face against hers and continued to whisper in her ear, I love you
The damn broke. Natalie began to cry so hard, her body was wracked with raw, gasping sobs and her knees were giving out so John followed her down to the ground, kneeling behind her and pulling her onto his lap as he sat back on his heels rocking her, kissing the back of her neck But it was no longer the crying of the broken hearted, instead her heart was pouring out all the pain, hurt, fear the poison that had almost destroyed it.
She was finally calming and she felt John turn her around and pull her across his lap and still he held her and rocked her while she clung to him and buried her face in his neck. He took it as a good sign that she was holding on to him, not pushing him away but he wondered if hed overwhelmed her with his confession. Would that be any better than what shed thought he meant. As if reading his mind Natalie finally pulled back and looked up at him. Her eyes were so puffy they were practically swollen shut but there was a sparkle in them that gave him hope. He gently pushed her hair from her hot, wet face and she said so softly, I love you, too, John so much thats why why I was acting so crazyI was so afraid when I realized let myself see
He cupped her face in his hands and said, You dont need to be afraid any more and Im so sorry I did such a bad job explaining that you thought for a second I love you, Natalie She gently wiped a few errant tears from his face, and then their mouths found each other in a soulful kiss that held everything they needed in it.
John stood with Natalie in his arms and walked her over to the bed where he gently placed her. He quickly stripped down to his boxers and tank and climbed next to her saying, Let me just hold you for a while, sweetheart weve got plenty of time let me just hold you
She sighed and said, You know I love when you call me that
Thats because you know I mean it youve always known
He pulled the covers up over them and felt her fully relax against him. He let out a breath that he felt leave the deepest parts of him. Theyd made it. No matter what else happened theyd figure it out.
Chapter 35
John held Natalie while she slept, keeping her in his arms, her head on his chest. He felt like hed run a marathon but was now blissfully at rest. He was completely calm there wasnt an ounce of dissonance about what hed admitted, what he felt. His only regret was that hed bungled things to badly that Natalie thought he was saying the exact opposite of what hed meant. His heart seized again as he pictured the look on her face, the way shed tried to flee and had fought against him. As his mind went there his arms tightened around her and it woke her up. She pulled her head off his chest to look at him and her own heart stopped for a moment as she saw the love in his eyes it was real. He actually loved her.
Natalie smiled at him and his heart expanded again as he smiled back.
Hey he said softly as he pushed her hair back from her forehead, How are you? Your headache hasnt come back, has it?
No Im finegood
Im really sorry, Natalie
John you didnt do anything wrong. It was me
No, no it wasnt. It was everything and I blew it when I tried to explain when I pulled away from you. Its just at that moment I finally let myself admit my real feelings and I knew I needed more it knocked me for a loop and I didnt handle it right
John, believe me I know what thats like. Thats why I was acting like a complete loon.
He laughed at that. This has been an impossible situation, but hopefully now at least well be solid well know how we feel. So well just have the garden variety lunacy.
That would be nice she said with a smile.
I do love you, Natalie. I couldnt fight it any more
As she looked at him he saw the intensity of her emotions mark her face. Me neither. When I walked in today and saw you standing there, it hit me like a ton of bricks, but I didnt want to freak you out upend everything but I didnt know how to just be what we had been
John pulled her to him so he could kiss her tenderly. When he drew back he said, As crazy as this sounds, in a way Javier may have done us a favor he pretty much forced everything to a head, and I cant say Im sorry about that, though I hate everything you had to go through with him.
Natalie stroked his face and said, Its OK now it all feels so much more than OK.
John looked at the clock and said, Its only 2 oclock, and tonights gala doesnt start until 8pm I dont have to be back on duty until 7, so we have time. The first thing I want to do is feed you. We can talk over our lunch quickly about the intel, but then about everything else. And then he caressed her face.
Then?
Then, if youll let me, I want to make love to you
Natalie felt her heart flutter and she whispered, What if we flipped the order of things
He smiled at her and said, Thats a tempting offer but we need to get your strength back up Still, he pulled her into another kiss, deepening it this time until she sighed. Keeping her in his arms he reached for the room service menu then the phone, ordering sandwiches and soft drinks.
Natalie asked, No dessert? with a smile
I dont want anything coming between me and you when the time comes
She felt her face flush a bit at that and he laughed, saying You know, it really is so cute that you still get all shy and embarrassed at this point.
I cant help it its what you do to me.... you make me forget myself.
I know the feeling They began to kiss again and it started to get heated as John rolled Natalie under him and came to rest between her legs. Now I wish I hadnt called for room service yet.
Told you so then she gasped when he ground himself against her. They kissed and rocked against each other for several minutes until John had to pull away.
OK, I hate to do this but I have to get out of this bed you can stay here, but Im going to keep my distance for a bit at least until after the food arrives.
Hed just gotten off the bed and grabbed a robe when the knock came, and a discreet waiter quickly wheeled in their lunch. Suddenly Natalie realized she was famished and she scooted down the bed to sit beside John, shivering a bit against the cool air in the room. Seeing that he quickly brought her the other robe and she was soon lost in its folds, sealed in with a hug she let herself sink into for a moment.
As they ate she could sense John studying her closely and she turned to him and said, softly, If theres anything you want to talk about anything you want to know Ill answer your questions discuss anything
I dont want to bring up painful subjects
Its OK really. Talking to you about them wont hurt me
I just feel so badly that you had to expose so much of yourself to Javier that he picked over it for his own twisted needs and what happened to you I hate that anyone hurt you
John Im not going to lie about it. It was difficult to talk about all that with Javier especially knowing you were all listening to it. What he expected from me what he said to me that all felt like more of a violation than what happened to me that night three years ago Heres the thing. The worst part about that was the sense of betrayal I had trusted that guy. He was a classmate and I had truly thought he was my friend. But the actual act it really is such a blur, still. I made a mistake and had too much to drink, which made me vulnerable but it also shielded me from the worst of it when it was actually happening, if that makes sense. I have pieces of memory, images. Theres no doubt what happened, yet as I was experiencing it, well it wasnt as horrifying as it could have been. And Im not trying to diminish what happened but honestly it was the breach of trust that was hardest for me to deal with in the end
It had to have been awfulI makes me crazy to think someone could do that to you and I cant help it, Natalie. I regret that your first time after that,,, I was so rough with you. I had no
You had no idea exactly.
But
Natalie turned to John and wrapped her arms around his neck so he had to look at her. John I didnt lie to Javier. I wanted you that day. In three years I hadnt felt that hadnt thought I could any more and Id never experienced it that intensely and then I did I wanted to be with you so badly. Think back on it you left it up to me. And it was amazing. Yes, it was overwhelming, but in an amazing way and I am using that word on purpose. Id never experienced anything like it and I mean that in a good way. A great way. And then latermy God, later what you did to me made me feel step-by-step... That day shut the door on my past, John. And since well I told you the last time we were together I never knew it could be this way I had no idea Natalie needed to say all this to John, even if it was a bit embarrassing because she had to help him see to let go of his own guilt about that first time between them.
John felt better the more she talked. He wasnt completely over it he wasnt sure he ever would be because that would mean being over the fact that someone had hurt Natalie but he could tell she meant what she was saying, that she wasnt just trying to make him feel better, and he was glad he could be the one was the one who helped her move past it. He kissed her softly for a second and said, Its only going to get better, Natalie no holding back
No holding back.
Natalie you said to Javier that you trusted me
I do. I really do. I felt I could from the beginning
I wont ever do anything to abuse that trust. Ever.
I believe that John I know it in my heart. She pressed a kiss against his lips and then said quietly, So, John.
Yes, Natalie?
How about we talk quickly about this new intel, and then we can move onto other things
What did you have in mind?
Ill show you later
What? I show you mine, you show me yours?
Something like thatI was really thinking more along the lines of you touch mine Ill touch yours
Natalie earned another heart-stopping kiss for that and this time she moved away from John and pushed the room service table from the foot of the bed. OK, talk fast whats the new stuff?
He laughed and then said, Theyve narrowed it down to 10 possibilities for Javiers mother. Also, weve seen the term Trojan Horse pop up in the chatter on several occasions
Trojan Horse? As in they think they can sneak in get close to us or maybe even position an insider? Do you think they have help on the inside?
All good questions. Natalie and that might be their aim. Inside doesnt necessarily mean someone on the Presidents direct team or a mole or anything. Unfortunately it could be one of the many cleared people the First Family comes into contact with including wait staff, drivers, anyone. Of course it is even more of an issue when we are outside the US.
Natalie rolled that over in her mind and tried to think of any ways Javier might fit with this Trojan Horse concept suddenly she thought of something.
John, what if thats Javiers aim in pushing closer to me? What if his real interest in me is getting closer to The President, Zo? He already has a lot of freedom and access because of who he ishe can hide in plain sight due to his image as a wealthy, connected business man. But if he and I were to become friends or something and Im Zos good friend, I mean Im living with her in the White House for goodness sake! Doesnt that just get him closer?
John considered what she was saying and it was entirely plausible. That is possible, Natalie and a really interesting thought. You might be right and that may be part of what Javier is up to. But I still totally believe that he is interested in you truly interested and thats not just me being jealous
Well, I have zero interest in him but I am happy to play him to serve our purposesand I think I like you being jealous
Well, I think Ill always be jealous when it comes to you Im just going to have to deal with itbut its more than that I cant stand the thought of you anywhere near him because he upsets you every time.
I know yet every time I also walk away with an important piece of information. And it is my job
I know
But youre not my job anymore
No?
No.
Then what am I, Natalie?
Why dont you tell me? Show me? I think I need a remedial tutoring session
John felt his arousal grow more profound and he needed no further inducement from her. He whispered against her mouth, Take your robe off and move up on the bed, Natalie.
She felt a rush of moisture between her legs at his words, his breath on her lips, his voice Keeping her eyes locked on his, she took her robe off and then scooted backward on the bed in her bra and panties. He followed her up the bed, moving like a cat, their bodies almost touching, electricity seeming to jump between them. He placed a brief but heated kiss on her neck, sending a shiver down her spine, then he took his own robe off, followed by his tank and boxers. Her eyes hungrily roamed his body he was beautiful, she thought again. His muscles were impressive and well-defined, though not out-sized. His tattoos perfectly outlined his pronounced biceps and jutting out from between his legs was his fully-engorged penis, the sight of which caused her passage to contract as if he was already inside her.
Joohhnnn she couldnt help say, a note of begging in the single syllable which somehow how stretched to three as she half moaned it. He smiled at her and pushed her flat onto the bed, running a fingertip down between her breasts and whispering, Yes, Natalie?
I want you
John closed his eyes and took a deep breath at her direct statement. He had every intention of complying, but just not yet. He reached under her to unhook her bra and pulled it off, immediately running his finger tips over her hardened nipples, noting with satisfaction how she sharply arched her back at the contact.
Natalie loved the feeling of his rough, callused fingertips running over her sensitive skin, and craved that touch elsewhere but she was trying to be patient and savor every moment. When his mouth closed over the engorged bud tipping her right breast it felt like an electric charge in her core and her legs fell open as her back arched again. He moved to her left breast and now her hips were writhing as her head fell further back on her pillow.
John loved watching her responses to his touch because she gave them free reign, which encouraged him to try even harder to bring her pleasure. He hooked his fingers around the sides of her panties and pulled them off her body and saw the evidence of her own arousal glistening between her legs. He thought for a second of that night in Calgary when shed left a damp spot on his jeans after refusing to admit if hed made her wet well he had no need to ask now, but he did have an urgent desire to feel what hed done to her and he reached his right hand out to massage the moist flesh between her folds, taking care to brush against the sensitive bundle of nerves. She gasped as her legs spread even wider for him and he felt his groin throb with his desire to bury himself between them, but he still wasnt quite ready. Instead he lay in the V formed by her bent, splayed legs and pushed two fingers deep inside her, grinding them even further when her hips shot off the bed in response.
Natalie could feel her inner recesses quaking as he took her with his active fingers, and she couldnt help the rhythmic movement of her hips against his hand, shoving him deeper within.
Thats it sweetheart oh, youre so wet so tight
She was wholly unprepared for the added sensation of his tongue pressing against her clit and she screamed from deep in her throat as her entire back arched off the bed, her head tossing from side to side. John could feel her begin to seize around his fingers and he quickly removed them so he could kneel between her legs.
Natalies orgasm had just sent its first wave over her when she felt him push her knees into the mattress and move up against her body. In one sharp move he thrust into her pulsating core, groaning at the tight heat of her and the feeling of her pouring onto him to ease his way even as her clenching walls both challenged and embraced his presence. Her back bowed as he was buried to the hilt, then he was driving into her with passionate abandon, spurred on by her intensifying release.
As soon as he plunged into her heated flesh a massive charge of energy propelled her climax to an entirely new level and she could not hold back the whimpers and moans that seemed to have a life of their own as they moved her head from side to side, nor could she quell the writhing of her body. Her instinctive response to steady herself was to wrap her legs around Johns waist which pulled a guttural moan from him. He was nearing his end and he reached down to grab her hands and pushed them over her head as he stretched his upper body along hers, while his thrusting hips never faltered. As he moved, her calves began to press against his ass and soon she was using them to drive him deeper within her still-convulsing body. Finally his mouth took fierce possession of hers and when she sucked hard on his tongue he felt the pull in his groin and he shouted down her throat as he exploded deep within, torturing himself by delivering three more decisive thrusts before collapsing entirely against her.
John released Natalies hands and her arms wound around his shoulders, gripping him as intensely as her legs which were still wrapped around him and their bodies shuddered against one another. She could feel John placing hot kisses along her flushed neck, which added to the fantastic feel of his weight bearing her down onto the mattress while his thickness was still inside, inciting the continued contraction of her slick muscles against him. She could not get enough of his strength, size and power and how they made her feel small, pushed to her physical limits, yet totally safe.
John knew he should move off her he was probably crushing her but she didnt seem to mind, in fact the way she was wrapped around him suggested anything but. Still, he didnt move because it stirred his blood to feel this domination over her, knowing she welcomed it openly invited him to take what he needed. In the end, that told him all he really needed to know about the extent to which she trusted him and reassured him that their first time together had not harmed her.
He finally rolled onto his side, leading her to do the same, and then he smoothed her damp hair from her forehead and temples before leaning down for a kiss. She smiled at him then and whispered, I love you, John.
I love you, too. A lot. I wish we could stay here all night so I could continue to show you just how much
But
But its time we hit the shower and get ready to go
When they were dressed John reached into his jacket pocket with a strange expression on his face Natalie thought he almost seemed shy. When he took his hand out a flat velvet-covered jewelry box was in it and she looked at him in surprise. He walked over to her and said, I got you this before we left DC there just wasnt a good time but now seems perfect.
He handed her the box and held his breath while she opened it. She looked at him in surprise and he saw a few tears glisten in her eyes inside was a diamond infinity necklace, a beautiful circle of diamonds set in platinum. She whispered, John, its gorgeous I cant believe
Natalie, even before I admitted what I was really feeling the extent of my feelings well, I knew there WERE feelings of some sort that it wasnt just a fling. I know wed talked about that, but I I just wanted to get you something to reinforce that
She was deeply moved to know hed done this for her while theyd still been in that murky period. I love it and it means so much to me that you got this even before you knew
Before I admitted what I knew, Natalie With that he took it from her and stepped behind her to put it on, kissing the back of her neck as he rested the closed clasp on it. She put her hand over the circle and leaned back against him. Thank you She turned around and they kissed with a blend of passion and emotion before finally breaking a part.
As John handed her into a taxi he touched the diamond circle and winked at her and said, See you later
Natalie had a hard time fighting back the smiles that kept taking over her face. She didnt think shed ever been this happy before. Her heart had been so heavy when shed been on her way over here, and now it was light as air.
John and Natalie sprang apart and he said, Shit!
Mason knocked again and said, Hey, you in there?
Coming! John said as they searched for their robes and tried to gather up their empty mini-liquor bottles and toss them away.
Natalie stood by the end of the bed trying to smooth down her hair. She had no idea what she looked like and she wished shed bolted to the bathroom but now shed have to blow right past Mason to do so.
John came walking back towards her, Mason following behind and he stopped to look at them both. He had a look of exasperation on his face and it was in his voice when he said, OK, look, Chase is at most 20 minutes behind me so I dont have time to be sensitive and mince words. Please understand that Im not asking Im not judging Im just saying but this room smells like booze and sex and mostly sex at that. And you guys smell of each other.
John and Natalie both looked embarrassed and chastened and he started to say something but Mason held up his hand. No time. Look you two go take a shower. And yes I mean together theres no time for two and no need to pretend you havent already been close enough to be able to survive sharing one. I will try to make this room somewhat presentable now go GO!
Now dying to simply get away from him for a moment they headed into the bathroom. When the door closed Natalie said quietly, OK, that was excruciatingly embarrassing
Yeah, but better him than Chase. John said this as he was reaching in and turning on both shower heads and it struck him exactly how much had changed how much had happened in the few hours since hed last done that. One welcome difference was the water temperature which he made invitingly warm.
After you he said to Natalie and she took off her robe and stepped in, suddenly feeling a touch of shyness. Even after everything the idea of taking a normal shower with John struck her as an incredibly intimate thing to do. He could sense a little bit of discomfort in her and as soon as he stepped into the shower he pulled her around and into his arms to hold her close for a second. He felt her relax against him and as she put her arms around his middle he reached up and grabbed the small bottle of shampoo off the shelf and poured some in his hands, and then he moved them to her hair and began to wash it, his deft fingers massaging her scalp. She sighed against him and said, That feels like heaven
He moved her further under one of the showerheads to rinse the shampoo out, and then he poured conditioner in and repeated the process. By the time he was done there wasnt an ounce of tension in her. Next he took the shower gel and poured some on a wash cloth and began to wash her entire body, taking care to be especially gentle wherever he saw acid burns, which were thankfully few and minor. He was becoming totally aroused as he learned yet more about, and cared for, her body in this way, and he tried to keep his lower half at a safe distance so as not to change the entire nature of the exercise they didnt have time and Mason was just outside. With just a seconds hesitation he finally moved the cloth between her legs to wash her gently there and she gasped, her head coming off his chest and their eyes locking. Hed known it to be a bad idea, but hed done it anyway, and now he didnt want to stop and from the look on her face she didnt want him to.
John moved his right thumb to Natalies lower lip and traced its lush, now-swollen contour. She parted her lips and his thumb was suddenly pressed against her tongue and he drew a sharp breath as his erection jumped. She then closed her lips around his thumb and sucked on it and in a heartbeat he had replaced it with his own tongue as his mouth took aggressive possession of hers. They clung to each other as they kissed but finally Natalie broke away though her arms remained locked around his neck.
John she said shakily as if in admonishment.
I know, we cant but even as he said that he was backing her against the wall and raising her right thigh so he could glide into her in one fluid stroke and he almost lost it when he felt her walls begin to clutch at him immediately. He had retaken her mouth so they could swallow each others noises and Natalies legs banded around his waist, her arms around his neck. In five quick, deep thrusts they were cumming together, their arms like vices around each other to steady themselves. John finally surrendered her mouth and whispered against her neck, Jesus Natalie what are you doing to me?
She couldnt have answered him if shed wanted to since she was still totally impaired from her third mind-altering climax of the day. She was never going to be able to be alone with him again and not want him. Correction, shed probably never be able to see him, hear him, THINK of him without wanting him.
John eased out of her and said, Weve got to hurry up and while she stayed leaning against the wall to regain herself he quickly washed himself. Finally she finished her own shower, knowing neither could be trusted if John put his hands on her again.
As soon as they had headed into the shower Mason had gone to the door and kept it ajar while he went to the housekeeping cart sitting outside the room two doors down and he grabbed some of the freshening spray from it. When he got back inside he thought of how best to proceed and avoided thinking about anything else. They were supposed to have made the room look used for their cover story and boy had they done a bang up job of it. Pun intended he supposed. Hed leave most of it as is, but realized hed better get rid of the comforter which was the most impacted from their activities. He yanked it off the bed and they tossed it in the closet, closing the door. Now the sheets simply looked mussed appropriately, as did the pillows. He scooped up the trash can by the desk, which had all the empties from the mini-bar, and carried out to the housekeeping cart again so he could dump them in the attached garbage bag. Then he liberally sprayed the freshener around the room and onto the bed linens, sighing deeply.
As Mason was passing by the bathroom yet again to return the spray to the cart he could have sworn he briefly heard a soft moan and he stopped dead in surprise, not knowing if he should laugh or go in there and wring both their bloody necks. Clearly they had lost their damn minds and were about to drive him around the bend with them. He had never known John to be so reckless in this way and it concerned him, yet part of him understood. He had seen what was developing between John and Natalie even as hed try to turn a semi-blind eye and hope for the best because the complications could be significant. There was something about the way they looked at each other and it wasnt just about physical attraction thats what made it so dangerous. He knew if it had only been about sex John would have had no problem drawing a line and finding another outlet. No, this was about Natalie.
He could almost see how it had gone down this afternoon frantically having to strip off and shower, of course together because acid would not have waited on propriety. Then they had likely succumbed while still in the shower he knew he probably would have. So, if they had left things there well, they might have been able to pull out of the possible death spiral. But clearly, if his clean up duty had shown him anything, they had not stopped there. And even if they hadnt first had each other in the shower, moving their party to the bed showed intent. It proved they had not just been in the heat of the moment. But the most troubling of all was what he was now certain they had gotten up to when all they were supposed to have been doing was quickly showering so they could begin to fix things so they could prepare for Chase who would miss nothing he hadnt gotten to where he was by missing a thing. He walked over and sat on the chair by the desk, figuring hed done all he could. And he tried very hard to stop thinking about the highly personal things that had happened in this room. He hated to be involved in it at all, but there hadnt been any choice, really.
A moment later John and Natalie walked out in their robes and towards him. They sat next to each other but with at least 2 feet of space between them on the side of the bed so they could face Mason.
Good shower? he asked with an arched eyebrow and Natalie flushed because she knew HE knew she just nodded.
Uh huh
John spoke up to address what he and Natalie had spoken about before leaving the confines of the bathroom. Mason, if you need to tell Chase to report us
Mason looked at him like hed grown two heads and said, Why would I do that?
Because if it comes out and if it seems you knew
Look, today is today. I have no problem writing it off as a heat of the moment sort of thing. He said this knowing it had expanded well beyond that. Going forward well, I wont know anything for sure. The only thing I could possibly KNOW is that you two are sneaking off together but that is your actual assignment. So, no problem there either.
They both looked at him and John said, Well, if the need ever arises
Well, lets hope for your sakes more than mine that it doesnt. I know I dont need to tell you to be careful. So, anyway any idea what the hell happened? Who it was?
They both shook their heads, and John said, We can have the clothes analyzed but I do know it wasnt sulfuric acid, otherwise we would have been in a lot more trouble maybe hydrochloric I just dont know
At that moment there was a knock on the door and Mason went to get it while John and Natalie stood to face the entrance. It was Chase. He walked in and looked carefully at John and Natalie who, thank goodness, seemed quite normal. Are you two OK?
John answered, Yes. Very minor burns on our hands and necksthats mostly it our clothes bore the brunt of it, and thank God I saw them coming and turned us away so our faces werent exposed
Yeah, McBain, we dont want your gorgeous mug ruined, do we Chase laughed. He was relieved that his agents were OK, and he got right down to business.
These are some still photos from the one of the security tapes. They arent great since the hoods and sunglasses were pretty effective in shielding their identities but there is one that isnt bad if you know the guy you might have a shot at recognizing him from this. Chase placed the photo on the desk as the other three gathered around it and Natalie gasped while John and Mason felt a bolt of fury go through them it was Rocco. That bastard! John said before he could stop himself.
Chase turned to him and asked, You know him?
John replied, We all do hes a jerk from Georgetown whos been bothering Natalie there and at The Brazen Head. Mason and I tried to steer him away but apparently hes a thickheaded moron. He went on to explain what Rocco had done and now Chase was mad - at Rocco and his agents.
And why didnt I hear about this stuff?
Natalie broke in, That was my fault. It just didnt seem like anything more than college BS and we couldnt let it get in the way
Chase was slightly mollified and he said, Well, unfortunately at this moment we cant take normal legal action because too many questions would be raised and it might leak out and become some tawdry tale of the type the inside-the-beltway crowd love. They would be all over a Secret Service Agent trysting with a college co-ed. But I promise you this, the moment this whole case is over I will hand everything over to the authorities. In the meantime, I am going to dispatch two of our more hotheaded agents to have a bit of a chat with this guy let him know we dont take kindly to him harming one of our agents you John, given Natalies cover and that next time well take action that will have nothing to do with due process. To be on the safe side Im going to run a background check just to make sure he isnt tied to any groups that would suggest this is more than meets the eye. Do you know his last name?
Bernisky answered Natalie.
OK. Oh that bag has some clothes. I could only do the basics sweats but theyll get you home. Im going to head out now and get this stuff in motion. I guess the one good thing is you guys must be selling your inappropriate relationship if its inspiring wackos to throw acid great job at making it seem real
John, Natalie and Mason stood still with small smiles plastered on their faces, and then mercifully Chase was gone. Three sighs of relief came pouring out as soon as the door slammed shut.
OK, you guys dodged a real bullet there
Thanks, Mason John began.
I know youd do it for me youve covered for me enough in the past, too
They looked at Natalie and realized she looked downright upset.
John took a step towards her and asked, Are you OK?
She looked at him and he could see some tears shimmering in her eyes. Its my fault, John. You could have been really hurt and its my fault because of Rocco
John stepped to her and rubbed her face softly. Natalie, its ROCCOs fault you didnt ask for his attention and its the job and what weve had to do that further stoked him She looked at him and didnt seem convinced, but she did shake her head as if she saw his point.
Mason had watched this interplay and sighed inwardly. They had an obviously intimate connection that on one level could serve their cover, but on another could begin to raise questions in some peoples minds namely Chases as to whether lines had been crossed.
John said, Why dont you go into the bathroom and get changed, then maybe we three can go grab a quick bite to eat somewhere steady our nerves
Natalie grabbed the smaller sweat suit basic gray government-issue and headed into the bathroom.
John turned to his friend, Go ahead, say whatever you need
Mason shook his head, You dont need me to you know it all already. And Im not going to lie and say I dont understand I do. The more Ive spent time with Natalie the more unique Ive realized she is especially because she herself has no clue. You just both need to be careful. This sort of thing it sometimes blows up badly, both professionally and personally yet sometimes, well, sometimes it works out problem is you dont know until you know
John just nodded and figured it best to just change the subject. Its not like he was going to have a guy talk with Mason now and give him chapter and verse on everything that had happened with Natalie. And that gave him pause because normally they were just scoundrels enough to share the gories as they called them. They had de-briefed about their romantic and sexual escapades for years, but John wouldnt dream of doing that with regard to Natalie. What they had shared, especially as she had opened herself up for him to show her about herself, it was incredibly intimate and private. Perhaps the most intimate experience hed ever had with a woman. So, he could still learn about himself, too, he realized.
He said quietly, Its really my fault, you know about Rocco
OK, McBain, how do you figure that?
Because I didnt just warn him again to stay away no, I had to shove it up his ass for him that Natalies mine
Mason took note of Johns words and said, Interesting choice of words, John is she?
Is she what?
Yours?
John inhaled sharply and didnt want to tackle that, so he replied in a slightly dismissive tone, You know what I meant
No, John, Im not sure I do thats why Im asking. More importantly, Im not sure you do and maybe you need to figure that out especially in light of today
While theyd been talking John had gotten dressed and it felt better to have clothes on he felt less exposed. He said nothing, just looked at Mason and then turned towards Natalie who had come back into the room.
Natalie thought she had walked in on a significant conversation between the two men friends and colleagues for a very long time and she hoped that somehow she wasnt coming between them, making their lives harder.
The three grabbed a quick bite at a nearby Italian restaurant, trying to keep things light and on neutral subjects. Mason regaled them about a recent date with Angela and they were sharing some genuine laughs. But every now and again John and Natalie would lock eyes and theyd remember, and then theyd have to remind themselves they werent alone. Mason, of course, saw this and he wondered if they even had the first clue yet that theyd fallen in love because thats what he saw passing between them. He wanted to be happy for them part of him was. But he was old enough to know that love often wasnt enough to overcome the sorts of obstacles that a complicated life could put in the way. He had never seen John like this. He knew that just before hed met him hed lost someone very close to him, and that that had essentially closed him off, even though periodically hed talked about a desire to have someone to share his life with some day. How would he deal with this all blowing up? Mason didnt know Natalie nearly as well hardly at all, in fact. But his observations told him that this might be her first serious love he wondered when or even if theyd admit it to themselves, let alone to each other. Would it be better if they didnt? At least not until this operation was over? All he could do was just try to be there for them. It was all he could do.
Mason dropped Natalie off at the White House thank goodness Zo wouldnt be home from visiting her older sister until later and then dropped John off at his car since hed taken a taxi to his clandestine meeting with Natalie. They said a simple See you tomorrow and tried to pretend everything was normal.
Chapter 22
The next couple of days felt strange because Natalie and John had no alone time just quick moments of contact at the White House while he was on duty and she was coming in or out. They needed some time to really talk, and that would not be coming for a frustratingly long period of time. The best chance to really delve into things not just each other would be during one of their hotel meetings, but the next one was almost a week away. The Mexico trip was too tightly scheduled to give them any time to meet so Chase had already informed them that theyd do their Mexico debrief back in DC. Theyd agreed it would be too dangerous to attempt a non-sanctioned private meeting. On some level it was a bit of a relief maybe a bit of space might help them see things more clearly again, whatever that meant. Natalie wasnt sure what made sense. She had to make an adult decision that didnt just take into account the way John could master her body as if it had been made for him and had just been on loan to her all these years, waiting for him to finally claim it. She had to make a well-reasoned decision that encompassed all critical factors her brain had to be engaged, not just the parts of her hed brought to life.
Two nights after the cataclysmic afternoon at the Renaissance, John and Mason came into The Brazen Head of course Natalie was on duty. Her heart rate accelerated when she saw him and he gave her a small smile that put an equivalent one on her own face. Masons own smile was warm, but wry as he noted their interaction. It hadnt been so long ago that shed stood nervously behind the bar in her plaid skirt, launching her assignment to flirt with him. She thought of the games theyd played in Canada and how her blood had stirred when hed said Consider me caught and then kissed her in a way that had melted her bones. And still shed believed they could keep things on the right side of the line. Times change, thats for sure.
She brought them over their pints of Harp and John took her hand and held it, rubbing his thumb over the back of it, when he thanked her. She realized at that moment she had no idea whether he was doing that for the job or for her and it threw her off a little. How could she should she respond and would he know where she was coming from? Would she? Still, she couldnt help the genuine smile, even if her eyes remained a bit troubled, and that smile would suit both scenarios. She brought them their food and a refill, and the three had eased back into their typical fun banter, which in turn eased the tension. Natalie realized that Mason was a God-send because he had a way of steering things without seeming to, and he was both sensitive to and detached from their situation at the same time and she marveled at his ability to find that precarious balance.
Later in the evening she went into the back room to get some coasters and she sensed Johns presence before he said anything before she turned around. She did as he was shutting the door and he stepped towards her, an intense look on his face. He took both her hands in his and said, The door is closed, so this is just you and me, Natalie its about us, not our jobs The relief must have shown on her face and he took it in both of his warm hands and caressed her cheeks with his thumbs. Then he gave her a tender kiss which she returned.
He pulled her into a hug and said against her hair, I know we have a lot to talk about a lot to figure out. And we really wont have the time and privacy to do that until we meet in DC after we get back from Mexico. But just know that when I touch you how ever I am with you its about you for you it might help our cover, but it isnt about that, OK?
Natalie let out a sigh and was so grateful for his sensitivity in realizing she needed to hear that. She pulled her head back and said softly, Thank you for saying that for knowing I needed to hear it its the same for me
He kissed her thoroughly then, and they felt the heat spring up between them, but they both knew it was going to have to wait.
John stepped away and opened the door, turning to look at her for a long moment before heading back to his table. Natalie felt better and worse at the same time. Her heart was lighter, but her body felt denied, yet maybe that was better than the opposite
John and Mason stayed a little while longer and then had to leave they had an early start in the morning. Natalie brought them their check and when they were getting ready to head out the three of them stood looking at each other for a moment. Mason could see the need and indecision on the others faces they needed to touch each other, but were clearly unsure if that would be appropriate in this setting. With an inward sigh Mason stepped forward and pulled Natalie into a hug sayin Thanks as always, darlin and he then stepped back with a wink. That, of course, made it perfectly fine for John to give her one as well, and no one would think it more than two special customers giving their favorite regular waitress a quick hug.
John gathered Natalie close to him and gave her a tight hug which she returned, but they forced themselves to break apart relatively quickly. It would have to do for now.
Natalie got back to the White House a little after 11 that night and she greeted the nighttime security guards familiarly, and then the Secret Service team on duty. Murphy and Stinson were still in the picture and she also greeted them in a friendly manner. She thought they might have looked at her somewhat strangely and wondered if rumors were starting to circulate about her flirtation with John. She should be happy about that, but given the dramatic change in their situation she just felt exposed. Her entire job right now was about lies, and she had just added yet another layer of deceit one that was dangerous, complex, powerful, and deeply personal, too.
Zo was still awake when Natalie walked in shed kept her door ajar to watch for her and she called her in. Natalie had grown to genuinely like her and felt regular pangs about lying to her, but told herself that it was to protect her. That was actually the truth, but she wasnt sure Zo would feel any less betrayed. Natalie hoped that when the time came she could help Zo see that her regard for her had been real and that shed never divulged any confidences. What was so ironic was that Zo was one of the few people really the only one besides John with whom she could actually be honest about what she and John had become. Oh what a tangled web
Hey, Natalie how was work?
It was good the usual
Zo smiled at her with a somewhat evil look and asked, Anybody I know pop in to say hello?
Natalie smiled back and said, Yes, Zo John and Mason came in
Do you know you have a moony look on your face when you say his name?
Natalie flushed, I do not!
Oh, yeah you do you really like him, dont you
Natalie responded softly, Yeah, I do unaware of the sadness that flitted across her features.
Why does that make you sad?
What?
You looked sad when you said that
Oh, nothing its just that it, well it seems kind of pointless I mean what can come of it, really? As Natalie said that, she knew she wasnt just playing the role shed been assigned.
But didnt you think a fling would be fun? It wasnt really supposed to be about anything beyond that, right?
Yeah, but Im not sure if Im the type who can handle something like that after all
Zo was very astute for her age probably from hanging around politicians all her life. Natalie, something happened, didnt it? What? You can tell me your secrets safe with me
To Natalies great surprise tears sprang to her eyes and she rolled them in consternation. Zo came over to her and put her arms loosely around Natalie and said, Tell me
Natalie was trying to figure out the right thing to do she knew Zo would keep her secret, and she knew that if it ever got out she could claim it was all to bolster her cover. But mostly right now she needed to talk to someone and she felt close to Zo, notwithstanding the lies that divided them. She swallowed hard and said quietly, I slept with him.
Zo sat back with shock on her face and said, Oh my GOD! Wow. When? Where?
Natalie was loath to share all the particulars since it sounded so cheap to say that shed met him at a hotel with the expressed purpose of having sex. Does it really matter? It just sort of happened we ran into each other
Zo accepted that. Well, how was it? I mean you dont have to give me too much detail unless you want to! she giggled.
Natalie was speaking honestly and from the heart now. Zo it was amazing. More than I ever knew it could be. He was so good with me hes really a good guy and all that makes it hard to think of it as just a fling, a quick physical situation that has no meaning going forward
Did he say thats all it was?
No.
What did he say? Did you guys talk about it?
We really didnt get a chance he had to go for some work thing. And there really hasnt been any time or place for us to talk. We cant do anything to raise any flags no one can know
Well hopefully you can soon, and maybe hell feel the same why cant something more come of it? How do you know it didnt mean more to him?
Natalie morphed partially back into her role, though her words had truth for her authentic self as well. Zo, this isnt a fairytale no Hollywood endings are likely. Im a college student, hes a significantly older professional who happens to guard the President of the United States he could have his choice of a lot of women those words stuck a bit in her throat as she said, themWhy would it be me really me beyond something short term?
Because age is just a number, Natalie, and maybe he sees something in you and not just the fact that youre a hot, sweet young thing!
It has long-shot written all over it
What are you going to do?
Play it by ear. Maybe when we get back from Mexico well find some time to talk and, I dont know, see where were both coming from. But given everything that has happened what I know now I dont believe I have the sophistication or whatever it takes to be able to have an only-physical relationship that is already scheduled to end.
Im really sorry, Natalie I feel like this is my fault
Your fault?! Why would you think that?
I pushed you in that direction so I could live vicariously and the truth is Im not sure I could handle something like that either. Im a big talker especially when it comes to telling other people what to do
Zo, I promise you, this is all on me. I guess well just see. For now I have to act as normal around him as I can
Wow, thats gotta suck. I mean, if it were me, I think Id be playing it over in my head all the time, and then to bump into him, with other people around I mean what a secret to share with him
Natalie just sighed deeply and Zo said, Sorry not trying to make you feel worse.
You havent talking to you really helped. And on that note, Im going to go to bed
Zo hugged her good night and Natalie headed to her own room. She got ready for bed and couldnt quite help the pervasive sadness that had settled over her. She tried to hold on to the relief shed felt over what John had said to her in the back room at The Brazen Head, but, really, what was going to end up happening? How could they know? She slid between the cool sheets and her body remembered the warmth the burning heat of Johns touch and presence. She wondered if shed ever have that again. And feeling very much like a lovesick school girl someone who didnt have what it took to play adult games she couldnt help the tears that slid down her cheeks and into her pillow case. She had sworn up and down she had what it took to handle this case. And shed probably have no problem facing down an assailant and protecting Zo. What shed been wholly unprepared for was the body blow her heart would take at the adept touch of her boss magic hands and mouth she knew it wasnt just physical for her. But God help her, she wanted more and that was what was causing her the most angst. She doubted shed do what was necessary to protect herself. She feared shed be weak and take whatever she could get, courting her own very personal disaster willfully.
Meanwhile in Virginia, about 15 miles from Quantico, John was sliding into his own bed. His house his home had always been his peaceful oasis. One of its best features had been the solitude. But tonight, he couldnt stop thinking of Natalie. The way she felt smelled tasted He liked the way she seemed so small in his arms, the top of her head barely reaching his chin when they stood together but then she had that mighty, feisty spirit. He blew out a frustrated breath, and willed himself to sleep.
Chapter 23
Then next day Natalie felt a bit better she was generally a positive person and it didnt make much sense to mope. John had made a point of reaching out to her last night at The Brazen Head and she would make that enough until their meeting next week. In the meantime she had a job to do and she would play her role, though in a scaled-back fashion befitting her White House surroundings. Maybe theyd even get one more night at The Brazen Head where she could flirt more overtly. If she kept the right attitude, that could be a fun diversion for the time being. She could make this work and not worry about what the upshot of their conversation would be until they had it.
She quickly had a chance to put her new attitude to work she ran smack dab into John and Mason as she walked into the kitchen of the private residence where shed headed for coffee.
Hey guys!
Hi, Natalie they said in unison.
She and John just stared and smiled at each other for a long moment and Mason just shook his head, but he couldnt fight his own smile. You guysyoure killing me!
What? This time it was John and Natalie in unison.
John stepped closer to Natalie and asked, So, where are you off to this early?
Well, Im mostly going to hang here this morning to help Zo pick out her wardrobe for her trip. Ive already got mine set since its not as important, really. I told her Id head to her moms office I mean the First Ladys office to get an updated copy of the Mexico agenda so we can map her clothes against it. Shes studying up on Mexico, believe it or not
Well I guess she wants to do her parents proud Mason said.
Yes shes really trying to take this whole tour seriously
At that moment the President entered and they all stood virtually at attention. He greeted them warmly and said, John, can you go ahead to the Oval Office and tell them Ill be right there? I forgot something in my study Mason can walk me over in a moment.
Certainly, Mr. President.
The President headed to his study and John turned to Natalie Want to walk over together?
Sure.
Again they couldnt help the small smiles that played around their mouths as they walked side-by-side along the outside portico from the residence to the other wing. Before they headed in doors John put a hand on Natalies forearm to stop her and he moved close to her. You doing OK, Natalie?
She shook her head and asked, You?
He nodded but said, I wish we had time to really talk
Me too but we will. And I really well Im glad you told me what you did last nightit helped.
He ran his hand down her arm and when he got to her hand he grabbed it and gave it a squeeze. Then he headed to the Oval Office to announce The Presidents imminent arrival.
Natalie saw movement from the corner of her eye and turned to see Agent Stinson standing in a nearby doorway with a smirk on her face shed obviously been watching them for a little while and Natalie felt her stomach drop a little. Then again, she and John had not done anything overboard really their actions were totally within the limits of her official assignment. She glanced back at Stinson and then turned to head to the First Ladys office.
Fifteen minutes later Natalie was walking down the hall towards the office of the Press Secretary shed been told that they had the most up-to-date schedule since it was going to be shared with the media a bit later that morning and she bumped right into Stinson. Natalie smiled and was going to pass her when Stinson said, Natalie, Id like a word, please
Natalie looked at her in surprise and then said, OK
Stinson moved her to a quiet corner where two hallways met and then looked at her with a somewhat snide expression. OK, Im just going to say this straight out and maybe I can save you a little bit of trouble or at least embarrassment. You are making a fool out of yourself the way you are throwing yourself at Agent McBain. And when you arent throwing yourself at him you seem to be mooning over him. Hes too nice of a guy to shut you down harshly especially because youre the First Daughters friend. But Im sure youre making him very uncomfortable.
Natalie was surprised, pissed and a little bit embarrassed but she bit her tongue as best she could and said, I think youre imagining things.
No, youve made your attraction to him your interest in him so obvious theres no need for imagination Im actually embarrassed for you.
Natalie tilted her head in defiance and said, You dont need to worry about me
Look, its not like hes going to give you the time of day.
Natalie retorted, You sure about that? Or is that whats bothering you? Do I detect a little bitterness what, were you shot down so you cant stand to think anyone else might get where you couldnt? As she said that she gave the agent the once-over, taking in her trim but unremarkable figure, angular face, amber-brown eyes and brown bob with bangs. She was about 33 and decently attractive, but almost non-descript. Natalie knew she couldnt push the agent any farther, but she thought shed remained decently in bounds. As a real college student she wouldnt have just stood there and taken it.
Stinson sucked in a breath and said, I was trying to do you a favor but if you want to continue to make yourself a pathetic laughing stock then go ahead the rest of us will actually enjoy it. You are so far off base if you think someone like John McBain would truly have an interest in someone like you. You are young and totally lacking in depth. And even if you managed to snare him with your overt charms you keep literally shoving in his face the way you approached him in Canada in your bikini was disgraceful! it will be for one reason only, and thats because at the end of the day hes a red-blooded man. So even if he succumbs to the lure of your nubile body that is all it will be a physical dalliance until he tires of you. I doubt hell even go there, but if he does it will be no doubt because of your relentless pursuit and youre the one whos going to get hurt. Stick with the college boys youre not enough to hold a real mans interest outside the bedroom, if he even bothers to take you there or just in some dark corner since youre making yourself so available
Natalie was truly taken aback and she couldnt help it Stinsons words found a vulnerable spot and she felt tears prick at the back of her eyes, but she fought against them. Before she could respond Mason came around the corner with a thunderous look on his face.
Thats enough, Roberta. You are WAY out of line. Im surprised at your indiscretion your voice was carrying quite nicely down the hall. Why dont you run along now dont make me rethink my decision not to write you up.
Stinson didnt even glance again in Natalies direction before heading down the hall.
Mason turned to Natalie and she was ashen her pallor pronounced next to her vibrant hair. He could see her eyes were suspiciously bright and she looked stricken. He stepped towards her and said softly, Natalie and when she looked at him tears had pooled in her eyes and one big fat one rolled down her cheek. Damn he thought, and he quickly took her arm and ushered her into an empty office behind them, closing the door.
Natalie, I heard every bit of BS she said, and thats what it is please tell me you arent taking a thing she said to heart. Come on, girl, dont do this to yourself dont do this to me!
Natalie just looked at him and was swallowing hard, trying so hard not to break down. She was trying to discount what Stinson had said, but her words had hit her in the most raw and exposed parts she had at the moment. Another tear coursed down her face, though she said nothing she couldnt trust her voice, and what could she possibly say anyway.
Natalie, darlin, youre breaking my heart, Mason said, and then he drew her into a hug. He could feel her tremble when he closed his arms around her and he knew she was fighting for control. Figuring some humor might help he said, Dont you know the only difference between Stinson and a pit bull is lipstick and thats just on her good days..
Natalie giggled into the front of Masons shirt she couldnt help it with that image now in her head and Mason said, Thats better laugh at the bitch
Natalie pulled back and looked at him in surprise, and then she had to laugh in earnest. You are terrible
Am I lying though?
No, she is a pit-bull bitch.
Mason gripped Natalies upper arms and said, I need you to look at me and listen to me there is zero truth in what she said. She is jealous. Thats it. She made it very clear a number of years back that she was interested in John and he made it equally clear that he did not share that interest. She still apparently has some residual bitterness that she just poured all over you but dont you dare give her words any power over you. They just simply arent true, Natalie
Natalie looked at him and shook her head, but he could see she had lingering doubts. Stinson had done a number on her and he could understand why she was so vulnerable. He sighed and said, Natalie, it isnt my place to speak for John, and I know it wont be soon enough that he has the chance to do so but I can speak for myself and to what I know about him. Ive known him for 10 years and well enough to know that you mean something to him. He wouldnt have gone where he did with you if he had nothing but a physical interest he never would have run the risk and mixed his professional and personal lives. Now beyond that, I cant say. Thats a conversation for you two to have but Stinson couldnt have been more wrong I promise you.
Natalie took a shaky breath and said, It was just a lot to take
I know and Im sorry you had to. Chases instructions have really made you a bit of a sitting duck, and now that things have gotten more complicatedbut one thing you dont need to do is listen to bitter shrews like her
Natalie laughed and said, She really isnt that bad or hadnt been last semester she was always pretty nice to me, and thats what was such as shock
Well, you made headway where she got shot down and darlin you are a nubile creature and her bloom is fading and never was as spectacular as yours
Natalie smiled at him and said, Wow, you really are pouring on the flattery to make me feel better, arent you?
Is it working?
Yeah pretty much.
Good. Im sorry you had to deal with that but put it aside. Consider the source.
Thanks, Mason.
No worries now, lets head back out and face the world with a smile, shall we?
She rolled her eyes but she was smiling when she walked out the door and they ran right into John. He looked between them and asked, Everything all right?
Mason answered for them, Natalie just had to deal with the wrath of Stinson, but I set her straight
What?!
Its OK, John really and now Ive really got to run since Im so late for connecting with Zoe She gave them a quick wave and dashed off. Truth was, she was still feeling the impact of Stinsons barbs, and being near John at the moment wouldnt help.
At the questioning look on Johns face Mason explained everything, and John was pissed, but glad Mason had been there to hear it and try to set Natalie straight. He knew he just had to let it go for nowthis was hard. It was all just hard.
Chapter 24
The day before they headed out to Mexico John finally had the opportunity to talk to Stinson alone theyd bumped into each other near the coffee station in the Secret Service offices at the White House.
Stinson was there first and she looked up to see John and he saw her face change a little bit. He just stared at her and he could tell she was growing incredibly uncomfortable and he was extremely happy about that.
Roberta I never would have thought you are a bully
John
What? Were you just looking out for me?
Yes thats
Well, Im a grown man and technically your superior, and let me assure you I dont need your help with that. You stepped over the line.
John, Im sorry but it is just so obvious that Natalie
And how is that your business? If Im not bothered by it why should you be? As far as Im concerned, Natalie has done nothing wrong, nothing that has made me uncomfortable Im fine with it all. Shes a wonderful young woman
Shes a girl.
Look, it isnt your business if Im friendly with Natalie. That is perfectly within bounds. If you have something to say about it or anything else for that matter then YOU need to act like an adult and come see me directly, and not corner her and verbally abuse her. Leave her alone.
Stinson shot him an angry look and said, Well maybe I need to go see Chase instead!
John raised an eyebrow at her and gave her a smile that held no humor it made her blood run cold. Feel free. But let me be very clear you tangle with me, you levy accusations against me, youd better have ironclad proof, not just lurid speculation. You read me?
Stinson looked at John for a second, nodded without quite meeting his eyes, and beat a hasty retreat.
John headed to his meeting with Mason and Chase they were going to go over final details for Mexico. It was going to be a quick trip, but would have its own challenges.
The three men sat around a small conference table but before getting into the meat of things John said, Chase, I want to give you a heads up on a situation that may be brewing, though hopefully between Mason and me weve taken care of it
OK
Stinson laid into Natalie for her flirtatious behavior with me. Mason heard it I didnt but she was pretty mean. Basically she told Natalie that she was making a complete fool of herself and making me very uncomfortable and that she should stop her behavior. I just told her to leave Natalie alone and come talk to me directly and she made some noise that maybe she should come see you instead, to which I warned her that if she did shed better have proof, not speculation. That appeared to shut her up, but I want you to be prepared.
Chase expelled a breath and said, Thanks for telling me how was Natalie?
Mason answered, She was initially rattled but she handled it well didnt break cover or anything
Good. OK, well, I doubt Stinson will approach me but Im glad you alerted me you guys are doing something right, it seems. Keep up the good work.
John just nodded, not looking at Mason as he did so.
OK, gentlemen, now to business. Current chatter suggests that whatever might be in the offing isnt planned until late summer suggesting as wed thought that the Middle East leg might be our biggest vulnerability. But that could also be to throw us off, and Mexico holds some dangers. Mexico City is crime-ridden and you know that kidnappings are a big problem. So even absent the terrorist angle we need to be on our toes. Moreover, we know that a lot of al Qaeda went to South America after 9-11 and Mexico is a real vulnerable point for us since the border is like a sieve. One person we should keep a subtle eye on during the party at the Mexican Presidents house is Javier Lezama his dossier is in your folders. He is one of South Americas wealthiest men and certainly one of Mexicos and is a major financier. But there are rumors hes involved in drugs, arms dealing and general money laundering and it is likely he could have some contacts and allegiances among our enemies. So we have to be on alert. He is reported to like young women very young women. Hes a couple of years older than you two. We should make sure he meets Natalie because he might give something away if hes flirting especially since hell just see her as a young college girl
John nodded and tried to ignore the twinge in his stomach at that idea it was her job, after all.
The next night found them at a gala event black tie at Los Pinos, residence of the Mexican President located in el Bosque de Chapultepec in central Mexico City. Presidente Getulio Cuervo was very welcoming of the Americans and appreciative of their visit. There would be much for the two Presidents to discuss the next day, especially the subject of illegal immigration, but tonight was to enjoy and the atmosphere was festive.
Natalie was dressed in a very simple cream silk gown that was like a sleeveless mock turtleneck that gently hugged her body until it flared out just below her hips and fell to the floor. It highlighted her long neck, delicate but defined shoulders and arms, and of course her curves, but it was a subtle look nonetheless. It also set her luminous skin off beautifully. She wore a Swarovski crystal broach in the shape of a leaf attached to the high neck of her dress, just to the right of center, and matching earrings. Her hair was done up in a French twist and a crystal comb held it in place. Silver sandals and a matching clutch purse completed her look. Zo was in an ice blue strapless chiffon that fell straight to the floor. She wore diamonds around her neck and wrist and at her ears, and had matching silk slippers on her feet.
Stinson and Murphy were assigned to Zo tonight and they each had simple black gowns on. Though Stinson gave Natalie a quick once-over, she declined any other comment or reaction. The four women made their way over towards the bar and were intercepted by Mason and John.
Mason spoke, Well, dont you all look lovely this evening.
They said Thank you as a group and Natalie could feel Johns eyes on her, appreciating what he was seeing. He looked amazing in his tux and she was unprepared for the bolt of desire that went through her when their eyes met especially since his eyes held a similar fire. He was standing near her and reached a hand out to finger the broach at her neck and he said, Pretty, bringing a flush to her cheeks. Then he looked up and caught Stinsons eyes and she looked away.
Mason, of course, had caught that whole interplay and held back a smirk, then he said, Well, it seems like you all were on a mission towards the bar I dont think theres a drinking age in Mexico, but go easy girls he said with a wink and Zo said, Dont worry, well pace ourselves Uncle Mason!
Uncle Mason?! Well that just made me feel like a geezer
You two are FAR from geezers she retorted, right, Natalie?
Uh, right exactly.
A while later Natalie headed to the rest room and almost immediately upon her return she was approached by Javier Lezama. She knew who he was and that she was supposed to talk to him, but her stomach churned a bit when she saw the way he was looking at her since he was leering as his eyes raked over her body.
Miss Maxwell, is it?
Yes Natalie, actually.
He took her hand in his and said, It is a pleasure to meet you, I am Javier Lezama, but please call me Javy all my close friends and loved ones call me that then he dipped his head to kiss her hand.
But Ive only just met you
Yet I have this feeling that we could become tremendous friends
She had to work hard to stifle the shudder that wanted to assert itself at his unctuous oiliness. He was actually quite good looking like a young Andy Garcia but he was just too over the top for her liking.
Have you been to Mexico before, Natalie?
Just on a quick dive trip to Cozumel and that was several years ago.
Well, its good of you to finally grace us with your presence.
Im fortunate to be on this trip with the President and his family.
Indeed. It sounds like a great set of trips has been set up for the balance of the summer
Yes, Im quite excited to see so many different parts of the world.
Ive been fortunate to travel to many of those places myself the Middle East is especially fascinating, notwithstanding all the trouble there or maybe because of it
Have you been there a lot? Recently?
Extensively over the years and, yes, even recently. Ive always felt an affinity for the place
Really? Well, I imagine it is, as you say, fascinating. Different.
Yes, but you might say its also in my blood my love
Natalie took note of that strange assertion and his use of the pet name for her. She figured she could perhaps use that to her advantage. She took a slight step closer and said, In your blood thats a rather, I dont know, romantic statement to make
He smiled his teeth very white against his tan skin Ah, but it is also true. I am going to share something with you that not too many people know but my mother was Saudi. She died when I was a little boy, but I am told I am quite like her so the pull of that part of the world runs deep for me theres an attraction, a deep desire to know it Hed stepped closer as he said that and she knew he wasnt just talking geography.
Natalie moved back a little, wanting to open some distance between them. He noted it with a wry smile.
Do I make you nervous, Natalie?
No, not nervous I guess that, well, we Americans are used to our personal space more so, I think, than in the rest of the world
I think you are correct. And Im sorry if I trod on those boundaries. I find myself tempted to invade your space
Ill forgive you
I hope so I also hope that at some point you wouldnt mind how close I got to you even if it was intimately so
Natalie was shocked by his boldness and it registered all over her face and in the stiffening of her body.
You are very young, my dear, and I am sure my forthrightness is unusual to you but I havent gotten where I am by, how is it you Americans say it beating around the bush And I want you. You are lovely your touch of innocence is intoxicating. Could I convince you to spend the day with me tomorrow no pressure to do anything but enjoy the day, see parts of the city only I can give you access to and then maybe tomorrow night, youll have gotten to know me well enough that youd invite me to your bed well, I guess it would be more appropriate for you to join me in mine under the circumstances
Hed said all this as he held her hand, his thumb caressing her wrist as their eyes had remained locked. She was rocked by his overt approach it was audacious to say the least. She swallowed hard and said, I, uh, appreciate the offer, but Im pretty booked with Zo during the day, and theres an event at the American Embassy
And after
Lord this man didnt quitWell, then Id hardly have gotten to know you, and it just isnt something that is like me
But isnt that part of what going abroad is about challenging your boundaries? The chance to be swept off your feet by a billionaire who can more than live up to the vaunted reputation of Latin lovers? Hed encroached again.
I appreciate... Im flattered but, well I have someone back home
A boy?
What?
Someone your age?
What does that
My dear, again, pardon my boldness, but someone like you needs a man to show you who you are a boy cannot handle all that you are he cannot help you become
Mr. Lezama
Javy. He said in a seductive purr.
Natalie took a large step back again and said, If I may now speak plainly Ill not be taking you up on your offer, however much you think I should.
Fair enough. Let me assure you that it is not my style to force unwanted attention on anyone. I may be very upfront but I also honor someones wishes. Please, I hope I have not offended you
No, not at all. Truly. Its just not well, I cant.
He smiled at her and said, If you change your mind, heres my card with my private cell on it, which only very few people have. You are enchanting, Miss Natalie but I will leave you now so as not to make you any more uncomfortable than I already have
He kissed her palm and left with a smile. She stood rooted to the spot, willing her heart to stop pounding. That was more than shed bargained for by a long shot. When she looked up she saw both John and Mason looking at her intently theyd obviously observed quite a lot of her encounter. She wanted to talk to them but not make it seem too obvious, so she first went to the bar and ordered a glass of red wine she needed something to steady her nerves. She made a show of watching the couples dancing on the floor and checking out some of the paintings on the walls, and finally reached the two men. They were far enough away from everyone else since they were guarding the perimeter, so they could talk in decent privacy if they kept their voices low. Natalie also saw that Javier was engaged in a lively conversation outside on the patio, with his back to them.
That looked intense John said.
You have no idea
He could tell she was rattled and he asked, What happened?
She laughed and said, He invited me to spend the day with him tomorrow and then share his bed tomorrow night
Mason and John were both stunned and she laughed at their expressions. I kid you not, he spelled it out point blank like that. Told me he didnt get where he was by beating around the bush. He told me hed more than live up to the Latin Lover reputation and that I needed a man not a boy she flushed as she said that.
Holy shit! said Mason.
Indeed.
I would love to go beat that bastard to a bloody pulp right now. John finally said.
That made Natalie feel inordinately happy and she smiled and said, Its fineplus, more importantly, I learned something interesting that I dont remember reading in his dossier
What? John asked.
Javiers mother was a Saudi and he said the Middle East region is in his blood
Both mens eyebrows rose at that and Mason said, Well have to have our folks look into that angle good job, Natalie
Thanks well Id better go mingle guess Ill go find Zo
When shed gone Mason turned to John and said, Down boy you cant lose it over that guy
I know its just such a shock that he was so bold about that I mean as far as he knows shes 19 19! And hes 40. Well, she handled it
Yes she did
At that moment Chase walked up and they filled him in on what Natalie had discovered about Javiers mother. Chase was impressed, I dont recall seeing that in any intel we have good for her. By the way, John this would be a good opportunity for you to flirt with her. Especially if Javier sees it hes sure to make a play
John snickered and said, He already did
What?
He literally invited Natalie to share his bed tomorrow night and when I say literally, I mean literally. Those words exactly.
Wow, that was bold.
Sure was.
I take it she turned him down?
Flat.
Good but even better, then, that he get a hint that there might be something between the two of you if he has any relevant connections, hell tell them
OK. Ill go flirt.
John found Natalie standing near an open door, getting some air as she watched the dancers which included Zo and the President. She smiled when she saw him approach and he came up very close to her and said, Chase doesnt think Im flirting enough with you
The way he was looking at her was stirring Natalies blood and she said huskily, I tend to agree
Really? Well then Ill have to fix that hmmm, what should I talk about? So many new memories to relive
As he said that it was clear he was thinking of their afternoon at the Renaissance and a flush moved up Natalies neck as she also thought back on it as her body remembered.
Maybe I should tell you that Ive never tasted anything as sweet as you ever and how the way you moan when I touch the deepest part of you makes me harder than Ive ever been
Natalie drew in a shuddering breath and could not tear her eyes away from his. She had to lock her knees to keep them from buckling. What was it with these men tonight saying such things to her but in this case, she welcomed it even as it challenged her control. He continued.
I cant get the image of you fucking my fingers out of my head, Natalie it was so erotic you couldnt help ityou were your desire
She felt the moisture pool where his fingers had been and she craved them there right now. Her eyes became a deeper blue.
John had started out feeling in control and trying to toy with her, impact her, and he knew he had by the look in her eye, her shallow breathing, and the flush of her skin, but it was also taking a toll on him. He whispered softly, Nothing to say? Nothing to add?
Natalie was almost mesmerized. She knew hed started out to tease her, but that he wasnt immune to the power of the images he was recalling. She shook off a little bit of the fog and decided that two could play this game. She took a half step closer and said in a deep, quiet voice, Do you know what I thought the first time? What it felt like?
He shook his head and held his breath.
Like I was butter, and you were a hot knife slicing into me through mechanging me
John couldnt help the sharp intake of breath at her words and the way she said them the way she looked at him a pulse of energy and desire was coursing between them now and when she involuntarily licked her lips he let out a small groan.
At that moment Mason had looked over and his first reaction was Oh, shit! He knew that Chase had wanted them to flirt but even across the room he could sense the heat between them they looked like they were about to spontaneously combust all over each other. Thankfully Chase was engaged elsewhere, but Mason had to intervene quickly.
He dashed over to them and they barely registered his presence until he said, Guys flirting is one thing but you look like two cats in heat who are about to need dousing with a vat of cold water to separate you. You need to step back, stand down before you forget yourselves and throw down on the nearest table and provide us all with decidedly adult entertainment.
John and Natalie both had the good graces to look chastened perhaps even a hair embarrassed but he could still feel the heat. Lord have mercy he could feel the heat. Natalie darlin you are allowed to drink so Id suggest you go get yourself one to cool off. A moment or two with me will be enough of a buzz kill for John now go on, off you go
Natalie gave them both a quick smile and bolted for the bar.
Shit, McBain what were you guys talking about so intently?
You dont want to know or even if you do, Im not telling a gentleman never does
Mason just raised and eyebrow and shook his head. He could imagine.
Natalie ordered a mojito, wanting something cool and refreshing. When she turned back around, drink in hand, she almost ran into Javier who had walked up behind her.
He inspected her closely and said softly, Why didnt you just tell me the agent was your lover instead of claiming a boyfriend back home
Natalie looked at him in surprise and then said, Why would I do that?
Are you saying it isnt true?
Im saying that none of this is any of your business.
Ah, but youre not denying it
Theres nothing to deny
Well if thats the story youre trying to sell then may I offer the friendly suggestion that you two stay away from each other in public it is obvious to anyone paying any degree of attention that you two have intimate knowledge of one another, and a heated attraction just standing near him. And whatever he said to you has drawn a reaction from you. Your skin is flushed and I bet if I were to touch it now it would be hot
Natalie realized she wasnt surprised by his temerity but she didnt appreciate it either still, she could use this to enhance their cover. She smirked at him and said, Well, Id appreciate it if you didnt touch me, that is
Oh, I wouldnt dream of it. Your agent is watching us and Im sure hes packing a big gun He said this in a way that underlined the double entendre and Natalie arched and eyebrow and said, Yes he is in the exact same vein.
Well, my dear, you are even more of a surprise than Id first thought. Im disappointed that he got there first, but it really isnt surprising, that something like this would have happened. A young girl like you, on an exciting trip with an experienced agent like him Im sure he seems quite dashing in his own way. I bet hes taught you a few things about yourself hes a very lucky man to have had that opportunity
Natalie was now decidedly uncomfortable and she said in as even a tone as she could, I know we dont know each other well enough to be having this conversation whether it be true or not I need to go find Zoenjoy the rest of your evening and she walked away knowing Javier was regarding her thoughtfully as she did.
Chapter 25
Just before midnight Natalie and Zo were back in the hotel room they were sharing. Two entire floors had been taken over by their party and it was heavily guarded. Stinson and Murphy were staying next door and John and Mason were across the hall. Chase and two of the other senior agents were stationed in the sitting room that was part of the suite shared by the President & First Lady, and several well-armed agents were in the stair wells and by the elevators.
As soon as they were in their room Zo turned to her and said, Were going on an adventure!
Natalies heart thudded as she said, What are you talking about?
You know Javier Lezama?
Now Natalies heart squeezed as she said with trepidation, Yes
Hes offered to take us out tonight to his own club.
Zo, Stinson and Murphy
Oh, we arent going to bother with them
What?! Zo
Natalie, Javy is a billionaire with security thats probably tighter than ours well be fine
Zo, we cant
Natalie, Im going I really want to get out and see this city at night Ive been so cooped up and hell keep us safe
Well, just how do you intend to get past all the agents who are stationed?
The dumb waiter.
What are you talking about?
Theres a dumb waiter. Well take it down and Javy will be waiting outside for us
Theyll hear
You know what, they might, but by the time they figure it out, well be gone. Look, if you dont want to go you dont have to but I am
Im not letting you go alone, Zo.
Well, great. Get changed into some club attire and lets get a move on, girl. Stop looking so worried, were going to have a blast
Natalie was reeling. She knew there was no way to stop Zo now. Somehow she had to get word to John and Mason. But if Zo caught her if she told them soon enough that they could stop them shed feel betrayed and never trust Natalie again. She didnt know what to doDamn she was so screwed. Would they be OK? She didnt trust Javier but he did have a phalanx of security
Natalie, get dressed!
She figured shed do some thinking while she got changed. She put on a black mock-turtleneck sleeveless t-shirt that hugged her body and a black silk skirt that flared around her mid-thighs. She grabbed her black-patent high-heeled pumps and left her hair and jewelry the same. And she still didnt know what to do. Zo had on a black mini-dress and small black ankle boots with spike heels, looking great as always.
Come on, Natalie, dont be such a worry wart. YOURE not the one wholl get into trouble anyway
Natalie knew that was completely untrue.
OK, let me just go to the bathroom real quick While in there she wrote out a note to John. Then she came out and said, Let me just steady my nerves by checking the hall and making sure no ones on guard right outside
OK, Natalie, but hurry UP!
She dashed into and across the hall and slid the note under Johns and Masons door, praying theyd find it soon.
She and Zo climbed into the dumb waiter it was a tight fit with the two of them in it and headed down to the basement. Natalies heart was hammering again but Zo was the picture of excitement.
Stinson, Murphy, John and Mason all heard a strange noise as they were settling in for the evening. Almost at the same time they realized it was coming from the direction of the girls room and they headed in that direction. As he reached the door to his room John saw Natalies note on the floor and he said FUCK! as he handed it to Mason who had a similar sentiment.
They all arrived at the girls door at the same time and John used his master key to open the door. They followed the noise and ran to the closet where they saw the dumbwaiter. Murphy and Stinson had been responsible for checking out all egress and access points to this room and John recalled seeing nothing about a dumb waiter.
How did we miss this? he asked with barely controlled fury.
Before anyone could answer he said, You know what never mind, we dont have time now.
John grabbed a walkie-talkie and told one of the agents to head to the basement, but he knew they were likely too late. Mason was already alerting Chase. John was trying to figure out how to divulge what he knew about their destination without revealing that Natalie had told him at minimum it would cause estrangement between Zo and Natalie, and it could compromise her cover. He had a bolt of inspiration.
OK, Natalie mentioned that Lezama was trying to convince them to go to his club tonight. Zo is not entirely reckless she may have figured that he could keep them safe with all his security he had quite a group with him tonight
Stinson spoke up, I bet this is Natalies doing shes probably a bad influence on Zo
Mason turned on her before John could, You dont know that, and youre much more to blame they shouldnt have had the option of escaping the way they did!
John chimed in, We can and we will hold a complete post-mortem once we get them back. In the meantime, lets head out to Lezamas club and hope its as easy as that
Chase and the President entered the room both looking highly concerned. John took them aside and quietly told them about Natalies note and they were felt a bit of relief. At least they had a decent idea where they were headed. Unless Lezama decided to take a detour.
As soon as the dumbwaiter reached the basement Zo and Natalie walked to the door that led to the alley and awaiting them was a stretch limo and several big SUVs full of armed security. Javier opened the limo door and ushered them in and soon they were on their way.
He opened a bottle of champagne and said, I am so pleased you accepted my invitation, Zo, and that you invited your friend. Please, have some champagne
The girls accepted it and Natalie took a bracing sip. She was trying to steady her nerves so she could keep her mind focused. Zo was sitting on one of the long side benches while Javier had placed himself on the back bench next to Natalie. He whispered conspiratorially as he placed his hand on her bare knee, Will your agent be very angry with you, Natalie?
He wont be pleased.
I imagine not Im sure you can bring him around. You may not have discovered this yet but angry sex can be the very best there is it can push you to places that you didnt even realize you wanted to go that border where pleasure meets pain he was caressing her thigh at this point and she put her hand over his and then removed it. He smirked good-naturedly and said, Sorry youre just a little hard for me to resist.
Well try, please.
Ten minutes later they pulled into the back alley behind his club Placer, or Pleasure in English. It was a very large, old three-story house that had been converted into a club. Javier and his security team led them inside and the crowd parted for them he was obviously very well known. They walked into what would have been the foyer, but walls had been knocked down to create an open space where a foyer and separate rooms had been. The entire back wall they faced was made up of glass doors that were wide open and led to the core of the club a massive inner courtyard that was bounded on four sides by the sprawling building. It was basically a huge dance floor with tables on the perimeter. When they went outside a VIP area had been reserved for them Natalie looked up and saw that the open courtyard had been covered by a glass ceiling. While the first floors of the four sides of the building were all open windows, the second and third floors looked like they were ringed by open air hallways that with wooden banisters for walls behind them Natalie could see a series of doors that led to other rooms, though she had no idea what they were used for. She noted there were a number of bars scattered throughout the first floor.
Javier noticed Natalie looking around and he said, Some of those rooms are for private parties some more private than others, if you get my meaning She simply nodded and managed not to roll her eyes. The entire third floor is my private office and apartment for when I dont feel like heading home its got everything I or anyone else could need. Great people watching from up there, too you can look down and see the entire dance floor and what people are getting up too
He stepped back from Natalie and said to his little entourage, Before we get settled here we can come back down, dont worry why dont we go upstairs to my private lounge for a bit. I have some special drink options that arent available down here, and we can enjoy the view a bit then well come back down and participate. Zo was clearly all over that idea, so Natalie didnt have much choice. He led them to a private elevator beautifully appointed, of course that took them to the third floor. It opened into a sumptuously decorated lounge done in whites and creams, and he went straight to the bar and poured them all shots of high-end tequila. Then he led them to the open-air hall which was more like a terrace so they could look down at the dance floor.
Natalie could feel him walk up behind her and he put his hand at her neck and whispered, Do you like to dance? Get lost in the music? Since I cant get you to sleep with me, perhaps I can convince you to dance? She turned her head and his mouth was just inches from hers yet she willed herself not to flinch. Im simply not in the mood, Javier.
He smiled genuinely, since he liked her directness. He nodded and backed away. And walked over to Zo. The good news he was incredibly respectful of her since even he knew not to fuck with the First Daughter. He encouraged her to lean over the railing and see everything going on below. Then he straightened up and said, I see someone I need to talk to immediately. You two, stay here. Please. Its best if you do until I get this person to leave. Then he took his security goons with him.
Natalie found it a bit odd, but was also glad to have Zo to herself.
Zo, we should really go or at least call and let your agents know where we are, so they can come to keep an eye
Oh, Natalie, you have to chill. Were perfectly safe! You just saw how Javy was having us stay here until he takes care of a problem. No ones going to get to us here just enjoy your drink
Zo leaned over and said, There he is now it doesnt look like some big confrontation
Zo was clearly feeling the effects of the alcohol shed had throughout the course of the evening. The champagne and tequila hadnt helped. She was leaning very far over the railing now, her whole weight albeit not that much resting against it.
Zo, youre making me nervous leaning over like that this is still an old house and that railing looks like it could be original
Geez, Natalie, you really need to lighten up its fine, see? As she said that she pushed hard against it and suddenly everything wasnt fine not at all. Before Natalie could react the railing gave way and Zo pitched over with it, screaming in terror.
Natalies heart dropped to her feet and they felt like lead as she moved as fast as she could to the edge, dreading what shed see when she looked over. She was flooded with initial relief because Zo had managed to grab onto a piece of wood molding about a foot or so down and she was clinging to it, whimpering.
Zo, can you hold on?!
For a moment, but I think this is starting to give, too! Natalie, please help me!
Natalie looked frantically around but saw nothing she could use to haul her back. No one else was near them to help. She looked below to see people looking up in shock theyd become aware of the drama when the railing had crashed to the ground. She noticed Javier looking up with a strange expression on his face but he wasnt rushing to their aid.
Natalie!!! Zo wailed. Its slipping away from the building
Natalie was trying to calm her mind as shed learned in her training but they hadnt exactly planned for this mercifully a memory from her playground days provided inspiration shed been quite the little gymnast and a devil on the monkey bars. She noticed a post that looked solidly rooted in cement, and it was near to where Zo was. Taking a deep breath and telling herself she was crazy, she carefully sat down next to it, her back to the perilous open air behind her. Trying to steady her shaking limbs she moved with infinite caution so she was essentially straddling the post, her behind and back now over the edge as her arms and legs wrapped tightly around it. Then saying a silent prayer, she tightened her legs into a death grip around the post and loosened her arms, bending backwards so she could hang upside down.
Zo, grab my arms come on then you hold onto my waist and Ill hold onto yours maybe you can climb up me and then you can pull me up or we can hold on until someone comes to help Surely someone would help wouldnt Javier finally have started up to help them? Zo was shaking but she reached up and wound her arms around Natalies middle, and Natalie grabbed onto her for dear life. They looked almost like an acrobatic act flying on the high trapeze with out a net and the crowd below gasped as they accomplished that maneuver. Natalie felt the strain in her legs as she tried to maintain a vice-like grip around the post. Unfortunately it was square and rough-hewn, so its corners were digging painfully into her soft inner thighs and she could feel it abrading her skin. She gritted her teeth against the pain.
Zo, can you pull yourself up, using my body
Im afraid, Natalie why isnt anyone coming?!
They were. John, Mason, Stinson and Murphy had arrived in the center courtyard just in time to hear the gasps from the crowd. When they followed everyones gazes they stopped dead in their tracks, their blood running cold. John instantly spotted Javier in the crowd, and when he saw John he made a show of running over to them.
I left them to take care of a security issue I cant believe the railing gave way!
We dont fucking have time for this right now whats the quickest way up there?!
The elevator!
Take us!
Javier led the way and the four agents piled into the elevator with him. They punched the third-floor button and it seemed to take forever for the elevator to begin to move.
Natalie had her eyes shut tightly as she tried to ignore the pain in her legs. Her muscles were straining under their combined weights and her skin now felt raw. Her legs loosened slightly and they dropped about an inch and Zo whimpered in fear, tightening her grip around Natalie. As shed slipped Natalie hit her head on the wall and saw stars, but again gritted her teeth and concentrated on keeping her legs wrapped around the post, her arms around Zo, though they were starting to shake from the exertion. Dear God, wouldnt anyone come?
Like an answer to her prayers she suddenly heard many shouting voices voices shouting their names, and they seemed blessedly near. Next the space around them was a hive of activity. She felt strong hands Johns hands grab her hips to help her hang on, and Mason scooted on his stomach to the edge and reached down to grab Zo off her. As per protocol, as soon as he had her in his arms he began to race with her out of the building, followed by Murphy and Stinson. Even if the threat didnt seem significant, standard protocol during any rescue was to get the subject in this case, Zo isolated in a completely secure environment controlled by the Secret Service. In moments shed be in a car or SUV on her way back to the hotel and surely to a very upset father and mother.
As soon as Zo had been plucked off Natalie, John and reached down and hauled her up. Hed practically had to pry her legs from around the post, so fused had her muscles become, intent on their need to cling to it. Then he had her in his arms as they sat on the floor and he was rocking her back and forth.
Oh my God, Natalie Oh my God
She was now shaking almost violently and she clung to him as shed just clung to that post. He worried that she might actually go into shock after such an adrenalin surge after what must have been a terrifying ordeal so while she still clung to him he quickly unwrapped his own arms so he could slide his jacket off and wrap it around her, and then he banded his arms around her again. They stayed that way for a good ten minutes, neither of them saying anything.
Chapter 26
John could sense that Natalie had calmed significantly, but still he held her close, not wanting to let go. Eventually John became aware that Javier had returned, a somber look on his face. He said softly, Why dont you bring her inside its a bit warmer
John nodded and stood, picking Natalie up and carrying her inside where he deposited her on the couch. He knelt in front of her to get a good look at her face and that is when he noticed the bruises, the raw, chewed flesh of her inner thighs, and the now-drying blood that had flowed first in one direction as shed hung upside down, and then the other after shed been rescued.
Natalieyour legs.
She looked at them and then him, and he saw tears pool in her eyesThe post was really rough and square of all the luck, it couldnt have been round
Javier walked over with two glasses of brandy and John nodded in thanks and handed one to Natalie. Drink this itll steady your nerves a bit warm you up Her hands were still shaking so he held her glass for her and helped her take two big gulps. Then he turned to Javier and asked, Do you have a first aid kit?
He gave John a long look and saw the deep concern on his face. Having seen him with Natalie he realized that what he felt for her was far more than simple physical attraction. He tucked that away for future reference at some point it could be useful to him. John, my private quarters are full of everything youd need. Why dont you two go in there stay there tonight this morning. Its after 3am just get some sleep. If its OK with you Ill go to my main home, but I can be back here or to your hotel at any time you need me to walk through what happened. I obviously feel personally responsible for all of this please be my guests here tonight and I am at your disposal tomorrow, well, actually today.
It was Johns turn to look at Javier carefully, and he figured the man was trying to curry a bit of favor hed need it. John also decided to take him up on his offer for a whole host of reasons, not all of them professional. If you can leave me the best number to contact you Ill call you later this morning to confirm a time and location we will want to talk to you for sure. In the meantime, Natalie and I will take you up on your offer shes dead on her feet and I want to get these wounds cleaned and dressed.
Then by all means make yourself at home. Heres the key to my apartment its just through those doors. There are extra pajamas, toiletries, and of course first aid materials. Ill leave you to it with my apologies.
When he was gone John said to Natalie, Just sit there a second I want to take a few pictures. Then well get you taken care of
John went outside and looked at where the railing had fallen away, checking for any sign that it had been rigged. He took out a small digital camera and snapped pictures of where it had broken away. His eyes rested on the post that Natalie had wrapped her legs around and his blood ran cold as he realized what a disaster had been averted. It had rocked him to his core when hed looked up and seen her hanging upside down, three stories up, clinging to Zo, keeping her from falling to almost certain death. And Natalie could have fallen he couldnt even think about that without feeling ill devastatingly so. When he looked down he saw that the club had cleared out and there was no sign of the broken railing that had crashed below. So much for examining that, he thought.
He went inside and saw that Natalie had leaned back on the couch and was asleep. He felt a surge of tenderness run through him and just wanted to take care of her. He walked over and picked her up off the couch and she stirred a little and then burrowed closer against him. He carried her into Javiers apartment and placed her on the bed so she could rest a bit until he was ready to tend to her wounds, then took out his phone to call Chase.
Chase, its McBain
Hows Natalie?
Shes actually asleep. I came in from taking some pictures of the railing and such and she was out for the count. Lezama offered us the use of his private apartment here hes gone to his main house, but he told me hes completely at our disposal today to go over what happened. Hes expressing remorse not sure how genuine it is
Hed better make his ass available he encouraged the First Daughter to ditch her security detail and she was subsequently almost killed in an accident, if thats what it was. If not for Natalie what she did look, you guys should stay there. No point dragging yourselves back here now and I think we should meet with Lezama there anyway. Plus, you get to reinforce your cover story.
Good point. Anyway, hows Zo?
She is extremely contrite and worried about Natalie. She is also in a lot of trouble with her parents who are incredibly grateful to Natalie. I dont think were going to have to worry about her misbehaving any time soon. Get some rest, John. Why dont we say that well meet there at 10am?
OK oh, and could you have Zo pick out some clothes for Natalie and bring them with you later? Hers got a bit bloody
Bloody?! Natalie was injured?
The post she wrapped her legs around was square and rough and did quite a number on her thighs superficial but painful.
Shit, OK. She did really well tonight
Yes, she did. And Ill admit right now and feel free to say I told you so I was wrong about everything. Adding her to the team was the right call
Well, since you were good enough to admit it, I wont gloat and rub your face in it.
They signed off and he walked over to the bed. He rubbed Natalies face and she woke up and tried to give him a smile. Hey, Im sorry to wake you, but I really want to take care of your legs I think the best thing is to get you into a quick bath
She nodded and before she could even move hed once again picked her up to carry her into what he presumed was the bathroom. It was an explosion of marble, mirrors and soft lighting with a huge stall shower and equally large tub, which appeared to be a Jacuzzi. He helped Natalie sit on the edge of the tub while he turned on the water and let the tub begin to fill. She was only half awake at this point and he asked softly, Can I help you get undressed, Natalie?
She nodded her head sleepily and he gently removed her clothing, noting that some blood had flowed from her legs onto her panties, and he marveled at her ability to hang on while shed obviously been in significant pain. The tub was full and he said, This is going to sting Im sorry but it cant be helped. Again she just shook her head. He lifted her into the tub and she winced badly, gasping when her tender flesh hit the hot water. Im sorry sorry
Its OK Its OK She reached up to stroke his face and he took her hand and kissed it, then held it while she soaked for several minutes. He pulled the plug on the tub and lifted her out, placing her again on the side of it and wrapping her in an extra large bath sheet. He held her against him and rubbed the towel to dry her, placing soft kisses on her head as he did so. Then he looked through the cabinets under the vanities and found an array of first aid items. He took a good look at her legs and he knew they must be terribly sore. They were raw and bruised. None of the cuts were of the sort to need stitches but her poor legs were gouged and abraded.
Im sorry Im hurting you Natalie I have to
She took his right hand in both of hers and said, It has to be done Im all right
He rubbed her face and then took out a tube of antiseptic ointment and ever so gently rubbed it onto all the cuts and abrasions. Then he took rolls of gauze and wrapped an entire roll around each of her thighs. Finally he wrapped first aid tape around the gauze to hold it in place. Not so bad, huh?
She shook her head and her eyes closed she was completely exhausted.
John said softly, Lets get you into bed. He picked her up and brought her into the bedroom and laid her on the bed. Then he said, Ill see what we can find you to sleep in He opened one of the closets and saw an array of womens nightwear all with the tags on it. He shook his head thinking this guy is quite the operator but right now it worked in their favor. Foregoing the endless array of skimpy negligees, he picked out a pale pink silk nightshirt that was styled like an extra-long mens shirt.
He made his way over to her and she barely stirred as he pulled the towel off and eased her into the night shirt. He left her on top of the covers while he quickly pulled out his bug/listening device sweeper, and then he did a careful inspection for hidden cameras. It all came up clean which didnt really surprise him since he didnt think Lezama would wire his own private quarters. Still, better to be sure. Exhaustion was finally hitting him, too. It had been a long, draining day and night, but such relief was coursing through him that Natalie was safe, and that they were alone, together that was an unexpected gift. He wearily stripped down to his tank and boxers, pulled back the covers and lifted Natalie further up on the bed. He joined her, pulled the covers over them and gathered her close to him. She stirred and said, Good night, John
Goodnight, sweetheart
Mmmm, I like when you call me that she said sleepily.
He kissed the top of her head and said, Well, thats good because it appears I like to call you that now go to sleep
They did sleep for a while, but at some point they slipped into a semi-wakeful state and became aware of each other and their mouths joined in a sleepy kiss that grew more passionate. Their eyes slid open and they shared a heated look and kissed more deeply as their arms wound around each other. Natalies nightshirt had drifted up over her waist and Johns hands found her naked bottom as he pulled her closer to him, grinding her against his aching erection that was beginning to protrude from the fly of his boxers.
John she whispered against his mouth.
I dont want to hurt you your legs
You wont Ill just have to open them wide for you
He felt his manhood throb at that image and he rasped, Thatll work He knew from a pure logistical standpoint he could take her from behind and not risk hurting her legs, but that was such an overtly sexual act and right now he wanted to make love to her. He wanted to feel her breasts against his chest, and her breath mingle with his just before and as they kissed. He pulled her nightshirt off and she helped him with his tank and boxers, and then they held each other for a moment, moving around a bit to savor the feel of their naked bodies in contact. Then, acting in concert as if in a well-choreographed dance theyd done a thousand times, she rolled onto her back, spreading her legs until the sides of her knees hit the mattress and he took his place between them. His mouth hovered over hers while he positioned himself and pushed inside her welcoming body, his eyes closing briefly at the sensation of the tight, wet heat that sheathed him.
When John had completely filled her Natalie let out a sigh as she expanded to accommodate him. Then he ground even further inside her, drawing a moan from her and he said against her mouth, Thats the sound , then claimed her mouth in a deep kiss, their tongues active against each other as their hips found the perfect rhythm. Their movements had a languid quality as if they had all the time in the world, and eventually they slid over the edge together in a freefall of pleasure that soothed something inside them they hadnt quite realized was there the need to be connected, not just physically, but emotionally.
John held Natalie as they cooled down and she let out a sleepy sigh. Sleep, sweetheart
I love when you call me that
He knew she fell asleep almost immediately after she said that, and he felt a feeling of warm well-being he never had before, and he didnt quite know how to name it how to describe it. But it carried him into his own dreamless sleep.
About 8am they stirred and shared another kiss, then John pulled back and sat up, leaning against the headboard. Natalie did the same, realizing he wanted to talk perhaps have the talk, and she felt her stomach clench. It made her feel a bit better when John reached out and stroked her face gently and then took her hand in his.
Natalie are you OK with what happened again between us?
Yes are you?
He smiled softly and said, Completely. But as far as it happening again
Her heart squeezed as she prepared for the worst.
Well, it has to be your decision what happens going forward is your call
That she wasnt prepared for, and she looked at him in surprise. Shed girded herself for him saying they had to stop doing this, but not for him putting the onus entirely on her regarding what would happen in the future. Why my decision? Why do I have to
Because Im your boss, Natalie. And that gives me a certain amount of power over you. And I dont want I would hope you know me better, now enough to know that I wouldnt use that to force you into doing anything you dont want to or if not to force you to exert any pressure at all, with any threat of repercussions but I am in a position of authority over you, so in this situation I want you to have all the power. And I will abide by whatever you want whatever is best for you and there will be no fall-out you have my word
So I have to make a decision without even knowing what you want? If you even want this to
Natalie, you already know what I want.
No How? You havent said
Natalie, if I didnt want this, then after that afternoon in DC I would have given you the speech about having to put personal feelings aside, that it was all just a heat-of-the-moment sort of thing and then Id have pledged to never cross that line again. The fact of the matter is, no matter what I WANT I should STILL have done that should do that, because there will be professional repercussions for both of us if this blows up. Yet I didnt, and Im not and that makes it pretty clear exactly what I want. But this is about you and what you want what will be OK for you and as you come to that conclusion, what I want cant matter
Natalie felt a bit at sea because sitting naked in bed with him, her body was definitely asserting what it wanted and it would be so easy to just go with that. But after an entire summer of this of being with him and connecting with him, what would it do to her to just move on as if it had been nothing but a fun summer tour fling. She knew that wasnt her, even if so much of her wanted it to be. She just wasnt sure how to express all that without seeming to push for things that she knew neither of them could exactly promise. But she needed to try.
Taking a deep breath Natalie said, John I know that neither of us can make promises about what will happen after this whole summer tour is over. If we decided to go forward with ... this whatever it is it would all be in a bubble of unreality, with no way of knowing what could be once were back in the real world. I get that. I do. And I could be OK with that uncertainty. Its just that she swallowed nervously and found her throat constricting with emotion.
He rubbed her hand and said gently, Just what, Natalie
Hesitantly she began, If you if you just see this as a summer affair if you know already that that is all it could ever be for you, then Im not sure if I can continue Im not sure thats all it would be for me She expelled a breath at her burst of honesty, but was mostly relieved to have it out there.
They looked at each other for a long moment and John said softly, Natalie Im not that guy. It goes back to what I said before, about what I wanted Im not the guy to risk my career on a brief affair no matter how great the sex. If thats all it was look, we havent known each other too long but Im the guy whos been all about his career. Right or wrong, it has defined me for a very long time. It isnt in me to blithely put all that at risk for something that would just be a summer diversion. Youre right that its impossible to know if this could work beyond this summer there are so many unknowns so it might end up something that was just meant to be a very special time. But I dont feel like this is something we should just pull the plug on when the summers over. Id like to see what happens after thatIf I didnt feel that way there would be no way I would put my entire career on the line
Natalie was quiet for a moment, running everything he said over in her head. It meant so much to her that he didnt just see this as some brief affair, but what hed said about his career weighed on her. She looked at him in concern and said, John, you really are putting a lot at risk much more so than me. Do you want me to say no? Do you need me to?
You mean to save me from myself?
She just nodded and he could see how worried she was for him and it touched him. But he was treading new ground, and even as it semi-unnerved him he didnt want to back away. He wanted to risk it he needed to. He said softy, I dont want to be saved, Natalie not from you Then he drew her to him and kissed her tenderly and he felt the relief loosen her body.
When he moved back from her he said, So, I guess this means well continue with whatever this is... whatever its becoming
She nodded, not trusting her voice.
We should handle this as carefully as possible limit our times together to those that are part of our official cover, which thankfully gives us quite a bit of leeway and opportunity
Oh, definitely. Since we are officially allowed to be together on a decently regular basis, it doesnt make sense to take the risk of sneaking off other times
Not that I wont be sorely tempted I guess well just have to make do with major flirting in between
She laughed and said, Yeah, but maybe we need to be a bit careful with that, too. I think we nearly gave poor Mason a heart attack last night!
John laughed, too. We sure did we need to go easy on him
We can try.
He got serious again and said, Im really glad you want to give this craziness more time but if it ever gets too much Ill understand. Its in your hands
In response she leaned up to kiss him and soon they had fallen back on the bed, their mouths heatedly connected while their hands roamed each others bodies. The sound of Johns cell phone brought them back to earth and he grabbed it.
McBain.
John, its Chase. I called Lezama and hell be there by 10. Mason and I are coming ahead well be there in about 20 minutes so we can talk about what happened and our best approach to dealing with Lezama.
OK, see you then. After he hung up he said, Shit. Theyre on their wayIve got to get showered.
They shared one more passionate kiss and John said, I cant wait until DC then headed to the bathroom.
Natalie lay back on the bed wondering what shed just gotten herself into but nothing could have stopped her once she knew John was on the same page. It might all blow up in their faces, but it was a risk she was taking.
Chapter 27
John came out of the shower and saw that Natalie had fallen asleep again, the sheet down around her waist exposing her breasts, and he felt twin bursts of tenderness and desire how did she do that to him? He covered her up and she didnt even stir, no doubt still exhausted from her ordeal and the fact they hadnt gotten all that much sleep. He headed outside to Lezamas private lounge and just moments later one of his aides showed Mason and Chase in and then retreated to leave them in private.
Hows Natalie? Mason asked immediately.
Last I checked she was still sleeping. I think shes pretty worn out and could use the rest.
I can only imagine. Im not sure Ive ever seen anything like it what she did. Im not sure how it even occurred to her to do it, but she absolutely saved Zos life, while putting her own in extreme jeopardy. When we first arrived and I looked up and saw her them
I know, Mason I know
Mason looked at his friend and saw the pinched look on his face and he realized that if it had been a shock to him it must have been excruciating for John to see that.
Chase broke in, Why dont we let her sleep for a bit. We will need to fully debrief her but we can do that later. Lets talk about Lezama while we have the chance. What does your gut say was this an accident or something more?
John answered, Its really hard to say. I looked outside last night and didnt see any obvious signs of tampering I did get some close-up pictures. Id like to have gotten a look at the railing that broke away, but when I looked down in the courtyard it had already been cleared away
Mason added, Plus, heres the thing. Even if there are no obvious signs of tampering, it doesnt mean anything. I think Lezama is too smart to do something that obvious. This building and the railings for all the renovations are old. It wouldnt have been hard to accelerate the normal weakening of the railing by putting constant pressure on it so it would give way on cue and it would look like a total accident. I dont think were going to get anything concrete based on this situation but we need to dig into his background and watch him very carefully especially now that we know of the Saudi connection that Natalie discovered
As Natalie eased into wakefulness she became aware of someone sitting on the end of the bed and smiled expecting to see John, but when her eyes opened she recoiled in shock, since it was Javier Lezama, watching her with heat in his eyes. She sat up on the bed, clutching the thin sheet to her, wishing she had something more substantial between her naked body and him. She felt completely vulnerable and exposed.
What are you doing here?
Its my apartment, no?
I know, but how did you wheres John?
I believe hes outside meeting with his colleagues. They arent expecting me for another 30 minutes and I decided to come in here to see you using a separate entrance, of course.
What do you want?
I told you to see you
Can I at least get dressed
But cara mia, that would defeat the whole purpose. He moved closer to her, sitting on the side of the bed, and she moved further away.
Dont be afraid Im not going to hurt you. Ive never forced myself on a woman have never had to and I dont intend to start. But Ill not lie to you, I have thought about what it would be like to have you naked in my bed, looking like youve just been made love to of course in my thoughts in my delicious fantasies, I was the one to bring you to a devastating climax that left your skin flushed your eyes a deeper shade the marks of my hands and mouth on your body the memory of me inside you
Natalie was trying not to shake visibly but for some reason she found his explicit words almost worse than if hed touched her. She couldnt help the tremulous note in her voice or the need to plead with him, Please
Please what?
Can you just leave me alone
Youve denied me the chance to be with youto make love to you will you now deny me the chance to savor this approximation of my fantasy? To simply look at you after another man has taken you in my bed, leaving you deliciously sated to drift back to sleep, your skin still rosy your hair a tumbled mass from his hands running through it Is he a good lover, Natalie? How many times did he bring you to orgasm? Did he use his hands? His mouth? Or did he go right for the feeling of your young tight body welcoming all of him inside? He must be a challenge to your body, as small as you areOr maybe he did all threeWas he rough? Did he take you so hard you saw stars but realized the shards of pain became intensely pleasurable just seconds later? Did you cry out? Did you scream maybe his name in a hoarse voice All the while he spoke, his eyes were intent on her face, except when theyd drift lower as if they could see her through the thin white sheet.
Natalie felt a tear trickle down her cheek as she asked, Why are you doing this?
Because I find you intoxicating captivating. And if I cant have you myself, then I must live vicariously Tonight Im going to sleep in this bed and Im not going to wash the sheets they smell of you and I will pretend that it is my fluids mixed with yours on them, not your agents that Im the one who got you so wet you poured onto my body and then my sheets
If you dont get away from her right now youre going to wish you only had the President of the United States to deal with. The voice behind them was all cold fury and they turned to see John standing there with his gun drawn neither of them had heard him come in.
Javier smiled and stood with his hands somewhat mockingly held in the air. Relax, Agent McBain I do not intend to touch your Natalie we were just having a chat about your enjoyable time together. Im so glad you accepted my invitation to stay here glad I could provide a chance for you to be together. I have a feeling your colleagues outside would not be so understanding, particularly your boss, no? But do not worry your secret is safe with me. If youll let me past, I will go out and join them, and give you a little more time with Natalie.
John stood to the side, lowering his gun, and Javier headed towards the lounge. In seconds John was sitting on the bed and had Natalie in his arms, and she couldnt help it she broke down and cried.
Shhh shhh its OK. Im here. Shhh, sweetheart shhh..
She clung to him, trying to steady herself and feeling ridiculous that she let Javier rattle her so badly especially since he didnt even touch her.
Natalie, did he?
She pulled back and looked at him, shaking her head. He didnt even touch me God I feel so stupid but he just he just kept talking, saying all these these things these really personal things and asking me such invasive questions about me about us like he was totally trying to fuck with my mindIm sorry
John pushed her hair out of her face and held it gently, You have nothing to be sorry about. Hes an oily bastard that makes my skin crawl, so I cant imagine Im sorry I left you alone like I did. I didnt think how did he even get in here? Past us?
He said theres a separate entrance. Plus, it isnt your fault. You had to meet with Chase and Mason and dont you have to go back out there?
Yes. I came here to give you fresh clothes Im so glad I did. Well likely meet with Lezama for about an hour. After that, well debrief you. Just relax and take a shower and I wont let him near you again, I promise.
She shook her head and then he kissed her softly, feeling her lips tremble a bit under his. Its OK, Natalie. I promise. Hell not get near you like that again.
Natalie was still a bit shaken as she went to take her shower, and she wasnt sure exactly why she was so upset, but shed just felt so violated by him. Thank God John had come in when he did. But she was even embarrassed that he had heard what he did. She was a mess and she needed to get it together. She unwrapped her legs and grimaced when she saw them. It was going to take a while for them to fully heal, though theyd surely feel better in a day or two. The hot water still stung but she welcomed the chance to get clean. She scrubbed every inch of her that she could and then got out, finding a new toothbrush which felt like heaven. Finally she pulled the clothes that Zo has selected out of the bag and could have kissed her if she was there shed packed Natalies favorite yoga outfit comfy pants, t-shirt and equally comfy hoodie plus bra, underwear, socks and her keds. Natalie re-dressed her leg wounds as quickly as she could and got dressed, feeling human again. She also gathered up the clothes shed discarded last night, making sure to grab her panties because her mind went there as she thought of what Javier might do with them if she left them behind. Creep. She only had lip gloss with her but that was fine, she wasnt in the mood for war paint. Finally she left her hair down loose so it could air dry.
She had just finished when John came back in and smiled at her she looked good. Adorable in fact but shockingly young. She really could pass for 19, yet she was a capable agent who just happened to have saved the First Daughters life last night. She returned his smile and he was glad to see she was over her confrontation with Javier. Her ability to bounce back was a truly notable quality the resilience of youth, plus an inner strength, he knew.
Hey, the bastards gone, and hes left his office to our disposal. We want to do the full de-brief here so it doesnt raise any flags although wed talk to you as a witness and highly involved party anyway, I suppose. Come on lets get this over with
They walked into the lounge and both Mason and Chase stood to greet her and to see how she was. It also struck them how young and tiny she looked, and they were again amazed by her derring feat last night.
She sat down and Chase immediately poured her some coffee which she accepted gratefully. Then he said, Natalie first, my congratulations to you because you have your first career save, and I mean that sincerely. Zo would likely not be here if not for you Now, I have to ask how did you even think to do what you did?
Natalie squirmed a bit since she wasnt used to, or particularly comfortable with, overt praise. Well, first, I have to say that Zo saved herself, too. Im not sure how she managed to grab onto that piece of molding as she was first falling. When I walked to that edge, I thought Id see her on the ground below she shuddered at the thought. But she was clinging to that piece of molding it was about to give out, though, so I had to do something. And, I dont know I just thought back to my playground days I was a total monkey in gym especially on the monkey bars, and then the uneven parallel bars I even did a quick class on trapeze work just for fun. It was all I could think to do, because I knew I couldnt reach her, or wouldnt be able to pull her up if I simply leaned over
The three men just shook their heads, and wanting to change the subject she asked, Did you get anything out of Javier?
Chase responded, Nothing really. He is falling all over himself apologizing for luring Zo awaybut of course he swears up and down that what happened was a total accident, and Im not sure we can prove differently what do you think?
I dont trust him and I think he was acting squirrelly leading up to the accident.
In what way?
Well, he seemed intent on getting us up here. There was a whole VIP area saved downstairs for us right near the dance floor, but he wanted us up here said it was to have some special drinks that werent available at the main bars, and also to be able to look at the whole dance floor from outside. But once we were up here well after encouraging Zo to lean over the railing and look, he suddenly had to go downstairs with all his security guys to take care of some problem someone who wasnt supposed to be in the club or something. He told us we should stay up here for our own safety. I saw him talking with someone once he got down there, but it didnt look particularly urgent or heated and then the railing gave way. And I swear, as he saw it happening, and me trying to rescue her, he made no move to rush up here to help or to send anyone else. I suppose it could have been shock, but his expression was so odd but I couldnt really take the time to focus on that then I was just trying to hang on to Zo and keep my legs around that bloody post, pun intended
How are your legs, Natalie? Mason asked.
Chewed up and bruised, but I will survive just dont expect to see me in any short skirts for a while.
Chase began to stand and said, Why dont we head back now. The President will soon be finished with his meetings with President Cuervo and will head back to the hotel to rest for tonight the party at the American Embassy. Be prepared that Lezama will likely still be there
John looked surprised, Even after everything?
John, hes a very powerful man and President Cuervo put him on his guest list. Besides luring Zo out and he can always claim that he thought shed bring her security detail we dont have anything definitive on him and at least this way we can observe him. Hes already revealed an interesting tidbit to Natalie, maybe well get lucky again. Natalie he seems to like you spend a bit of time with him
John saw the look that quickly transited across Natalies face, but it was gone when she said, OK. It was her job but that didnt mean John had to like it, and it certainly didnt mean he couldnt keep a close eye on her when he was buzzing around.
They piled into an SUV and headed back to the hotel. Zo was waiting to pounce on Natalie when she returned to her room, pulling her into a hug and bursting into tears.
Natalie Im SO sorry I should have listened to you! You saved my life! You TOTALLY did and you could have died do you HATE me? Please dont say you hate me!
I dont hate you Zo it was an accident, and Im just glad I could be there but lets just stick with your security detail from now on, huh?
I promise, I am reformed. Totally. And believe me, I am in the doghouse with my folks boy they were pissed but they are even more in love with YOU now
Natalie found out just how true that was a few minutes later when the President and First Lady came in and gave her big hugs and asked her a million questions about how she was how did she even think to do what she did, etc.
When it was just the two girls in their bedroom Zo steered the subject in an entirely new direction.
So, Natalie where did you end up spending the night?
Natalie blanched a bit and that was all the answer Zo needed. You slept with him again didnt you?! Oh my GOD that is just so hot was he, like, totally freaked about what happened aw, was he really gentle and stuff
Natalie was blushing furiously at her questions which just made Zo giggle. Is this going to be a regular thing, Natalie? Did you guys talk?
Natalie didnt feel she should reveal too much to Zo so she just said, We really didnt talk much, and I dont know what will happen but he seems to actually like me, so I dont know but lets not talk about this, since someone could overhear us
Mums the word I am so jealous though. I get stuck with a bunch of boys and even thats hard with agents in tow and itll be two more years of this and even after I might have Secret Service agents assigned to me Oh well, Ill just focus on the good things and have other experiences through you! If only you could do Mason, too, and then compare
Zo!
What oh, I know, that sounds so bad but hes no slouch either oooh could you imagine being with them in a threesome?
ZOE!!!
She giggled and said, Well, Ive needed an outlet and Ive been reading this great bunch of books by Mistress Toni really out there stuff, but the amazing thing is that in a couple of her stories the key characters names are John and Natalie can you believe it! And you have NO idea what they get up to but in one they end up with this other guy Steele and hes like as big as Mason only he has long dark hair and green eyes.. and they have the most amazing trio sex
Zo, have you lost your mind? I could never
She sighed, I know but hasnt the thought EVER occurred to you in your life?
Natalie flashed back on her fight session with John and Mason when theyd landed in a heap and she quickly purged that image from her mind. One at a time is more than complicated enough
I suppose. Im sure youre right. But I am going to bring a bunch of these books along for our endless flight to Australia and Asia, and youll be thanking me when youre bored out of your mind and need something to distract you. of course then you might end up having to fight the urge to jump Johns bones in a dark corner mile high club and all that
Lord, Zo, you have a one-track mind right now
Well, not all of us are as lucky as you to have someone to take care of those urges now, are we?
Natalie just shook her head, but she had to laugh at her she was a riot.
Lets take a quick nap, and then we can get ready for tonights party.
Chapter 28
For the party at the American Embassy again, black tie Natalie had chosen a cobalt blue, one-shouldered silk dress that was form fitting to the mid-thigh and then flared out gently to the floor, with a small train in the back. She opted to leave her hair down this time and wore her diamond stud earrings and two diamond tennis bracelets. Again she wore her silver sandals and matching clutch. Zo was a vision in white this time, wearing a dress that looked like that of a Grecian or Roman Goddess, and she left her hair flowing as well. The men all looked spit-shined in their tuxes and Stinson and Murphy were again in basic black dresses, maybe even the same ones, they were so non-descript.
Natalie was still in shock because earlier Stinson had taken her aside and given her genuine plaudits for what shed done to save Zo, and she apologized for having been so ugly to her. Natalie graciously accepted her praise and apology because she knew some day they would be official colleagues and it was just better to start burying the hatchet as soon as possible.
When they got to the Embassy there was already a huge crowd and the President, First Lady and Zo had to spend quite a while in the official reception line. Thankfully Natalie did not, and she decided to spend a little time with Mason and John since she was supposed to be flirting
Hello, gentlemen dont you look handsome.
Thanks, Natalie you look gorgeous as always. Mason said.
John gave her an appreciative once-over and said close to her ear, You look good enough to eat and she felt her heart leap into her throat.
Mason chimed in immediately, Oh no it is WAY too early for you two to start this bullshit! Do I need to send you to neutral corners already? You, young lady if you arent careful Ill send you to your room without supper
Natalie beamed at him but before she could say anything an elegant, lithe brunette approached and she could see a change come over Mason and apparently so did John.
Hello, Mason good to see you again.
Hi Angela great to see you too, and you look lovely, might I add.
John and Natalie exchanged a glance so this was Angela interesting.
Mason and Angela made small talk for a moment and then Mason introduced her to John and Natalie. Natalie braced herself for some sort of attitude flowing from her since she was a mature professional and Natalie was ostensibly a college girl who wasnt even 20 yet but Angela was genuinely nice and friendly. A few minutes later she said, Well, I should leave you to your work but its great seeing you again.
You too, Angela.
John and Natalie both turned to Mason and he said, Save it no teasing because we ALL know I have SO much more on you so much more that I could say.
He has a point, Natalie.
That he does. Well just have to wait until we get more dirt on him
Indeed.
Mason leaned in and said quietly, Well, until youve had to clean up a booze-and- sex-soaked room to save me from my boss, I think Im pretty safe
Ooh, you play dirty Mason Natalie said.
He simply smiled and winked.
Well, Id better leave you two alone to work keep us all safe. We dont people talking oh, wait, yes we do Then SHE winked and sashayed away.
Natalie headed to the bar and ordered a glass of sparkling water with lime and turned around to see Javier Lezama making his way towards her but he wasnt alone, and when she saw who he was with she was taken aback. He noticed her reaction and smiled first, then winked at her. Natalie was looking at a version of herself a young woman with red hair, pale skin and blue eyes and she was wearing an outfit that was almost an exact replica of what Natalie had worn the night before
Javier walked directly to Natalie and grabbed her hand, bringing it to his lips to kiss before she could avoid that maneuver. Natalie, cara mia may I introduce you to my new friend. This is Pilar Llosa. Pilar, this is Natalie Maxwell Pilar gave Natalie a once-over and virtually glared at her, then pouted and said to Javier, Javy Im thirsty.
Well, the bar is right there feel free. Id like to catch up with Natalie for a moment. Pilar gave her another dirty look and flounced off to get her own drink.
Really, Javier you should probably pay attention to your date.
Well why would I do that when at this moment I can have the real thing even if its just to talk to. Im sure you understand my inspiration in selecting her. She works in one of my banks and I just happened to go there today after our very special time together and the first thing I saw was her red hair. Oh, dont get me wrong, shes a pale imitation, but if I squint my eyes and if she doesnt talk
Natalie tried not to show any reaction she simply smiled. Then she asked, How am I supposed to react to this? What do you want me to say?
Well, I suppose it is a form of flattery I know I cant have you, but I can pretend
Natalie was getting sick and tired of him especially of feeling like he had the upper hand and she was always reeling in his presence. She decided to see if she could turn the tables or at least meet him head on.
Are you going to take her to your bed tonight, Javier? What are you going to do with her?
He looked at her with a bit of surprise and smiled. Well, it was my plan what do you think I should do with her, Natalie? Since shes your stand-in
She held back a shudder at that thought. Well, it will be your first time, right?
With her, yes.
Then that first time just take her. Claim her as yours in a single decisive move. Theres time later to back-track and be slower deliberate but that first time let there be no doubt whats happening that youre making her yours Then the next time, you can drive her crazy with your fingers then your mouth and tongue and then you your very essence as a man
Natalie could tell he was surprised, but also aroused intrigued. She had to fight against the way her stomach turned over as she thought about that, but it was important that she regain some ground if she was ever going to learn anything important from him.
He stood a little closer to her and asked softly, Is that what your agent did to you, Natalie. Is that how he got you under his thrall made you belong to him?
Natalie just gave him a classic feminine wiles type of smile and said, I dont kiss and tell, Javier
He smiled at her You do like sex though, dont you cara mia? I thought that about you from the moment we met, but seeing you as I did today left no doubt.
When its good when its done right
And your agent
Javier I will never confirm or deny anything.
Do you forget I have all the confirmation I need on my bed sheets?
Please tell me that if youre going to take Pilar there that youre going to use clean sheets
Oh, Im not going to defile what I now consider your bed, Natalie I have another apartment that I use for my more casual dating.
I see it must be nice to have so many, well, playgrounds
My dear girl, are you suggesting Im a player?
Well, are you?
He laughed at that I suppose I have some of those tendencies but I do try to be respectful and believe it or not I am very selective in terms of who I go after who strikes my fancy and invades my dreams
Are you trying to say you dont have women in every port? Everywhere you travel?
I have friends around the world he said with a grin.
Natalie returned his smile and then said, That actually brings up an entirely different topic do you mind if I switch gears?
Not at all
When we do our Middle East tour what do I absolutely need to see to know?
Hmmm, thats difficult. There is so much but I guess the best advice I can give you is to see it with as open a mind as you can. That can be very tough almost impossible for most Americans who see everything through the prism of their own reality and self-interest dont be so blinded, cara mia. You are obviously in an exploratory phase in your life trying out new people, discovering things about your body let your mind be as open. Dont become that ugly American, even if you are traveling with the Commander in Chief himself
Natalie kept her expression neutral That sounds like good advice. And I think Im most excited about that part of the tour I know it will be different than anything Ive ever seen or anything Ive been able to imagine
He looked at her intently and said, Ah, I so wish I could help you see it the way it can be, Natalie so primal and fiercely beautiful I could help you understand it feel it with all of you, not try to filter it through your mind
It sounds like it really is in your blood, as you said last night
It is and my familys blood is buried deep in the sand there so much of it has spilledI think you will understand, Natalie. I feel it in you an exploratory soul a questing spirit I wish I could show you everything there is for you to know about yourself and then show you that world its spirit has survived, even as so many have tried to destroy it and pervert it for their own purposes some of its very own people have betrayed it, selling themselves and the very soul of their countries to the highest bidders who claimed to be their friends but its a new day some of the younger people He finally realized he was rambling, perhaps revealing too much, and he stopped himself. Then he said softly, I have faith that there are people like you who havent become rigid at a criminally young age and you may help save the world.
He looked at her and smiled, then said, Enjoy your agent Im quite sure hes enjoying you. And on that note, Id better go spend some time with Pilar a gentleman does not leave his date unattended for too long, no matter the wonderful distractions elsewhere.
Natalie looked up and saw that John and Mason were watching her very closely she was sure John had been ready to pounce at the first sign of trouble. She felt a bit soiled from her interlude with Javier, but more energized than anything because he had shown a bit of his true feelings about Americans and Middle Eastern geopolitics they needed to find out more about his familial connections in the region and where their sympathies rested. Shed grab a fresh drink and wander the room a bit, but would eventually make her way over to them to flirt and share her newest tidbit.
John and Mason had watched Natalie like hawks, wondering what she and Javier could possibly be talking about especially when he became so animated. While they were waiting for Natalie to make her circuitous journey in their direction, Javier came waltzing by with Pilar on his arm and both Mason and John had to fight what would have been comical double-takes when they saw her. It was so obvious that Pilar was a Natalie stand-in that a storm of emotions swept through John when he made that connection anger, disgust, and concern, because he feared Javier was becoming obsessed with Natalie and that unnerved him. He could see similar emotions flit across Masons features as well hed grown both fond and protective of Natalie himself. Javier gave them a little salute and kept walking, and John knew hed do whatever it took to make sure he never had a chance to cross any lines with Natalie.
Mason said when Javier was out of earshot, I am totally creeped out by that guy now and thats saying something. He even has that girl dressed like Natalie was last night we cant let him near her, John not unless we are right there with her
Oh, Im already all over that when I brought Natalie her clothes, he had snuck into his place and was saying the most outrageous and out of line things to her I couldnt believe it.
Like what?
What hed want to do to her if he was her lover
God I need a shower thats just wrong. Id love to beat the shit out of him if it wouldnt cause an international incident.
I know. Ill be glad when we are out of Mexico and can leave him behind
Finally Natalie made her way to them and smiled, making sure to stand especially close to John which caused a slight acceleration in her pulse.
How are your legs? He asked softly.
Not too bad, all things considered.
So, what did that bastard have to say this time?
You mean after he made sure I knew Pilar was a direct stand-in for me?
Mason was appalled, You mean he told you outright?
Of course he told me I should be flatteredalthough he went on to say that she was just a pale imitation She couldnt help the shudder that ran through her as she said that, and thought about the whole scenario.
John reached out a hand to grip her shoulder for a second, Natalie, I told you he wont be able to bother you again I wont let him
Neither will I, added Mason.
Thanks, guys...the good news is I managed to get him talking dont want to go into it here, but he appears to have some definite views on Middle Eastern geopolitics, and lets just say he doesnt seem to have much alignment with the American view
Interesting I guess we can cover that in our de-brief session back in DC
I cant wait
OK, you guys are doing it again turn down the heat, will ya. We all dont want to get burned
Natalie smiled at Mason and stood on her tiptoe to kiss his cheek as John laughed. Then she said, By the way I really like your Angela
Whats this your Angela stuff you still trying to push me into the involved column?
I think you really like her is all but I wont push you as you were such a gentleman to remind me of before, you have a lot more dirt on me that I do on you
Ah, but darlin you wear your dirt well it seems to suit you
She glanced at John and smiled and said, No argument from me but I gotta go find Zo and find out what adventure shes planning for us tonight!
Natalie They both said together in warning voices.
Dont wait up She waggled her fingers and left them smiling.
Chapter 29
It was with sighs of relief across the board that the President and his entourage returned to Washington. Mercifully the very next day John and Natalie were to meet for one of their secret meetings. This time John selected the Omni Shoreham Hotel, a recently renovated DC institution that was a little off the beaten path, located in Rock Creek Park near the National Zoo.
They met in the lobby at 6pm, and this time there was no holding back no artifice in the way they greeted each other with a tight hug and a soft kiss that promised more. John took Natalies hand and led her into the Marquee Bar, which served an extensive array of martinis and beers. They walked to a quiet table in a back corner and sat beside each other on the banquette. When the waitress came Natalie ordered a cosmopolitan and John his standard Harp.
Natalie suddenly felt an attack of nerves which surprised her, but then she realized that this was the launch of their official affair, or whatever it was they were doing. The other times theyd made love, had sex, whatever the best description of their activities at any given time well, it had been something that had just happened. Events and opportunity had conspired to lead them there, and they had dived in but today, with clear-eyed, proactive intent they planned on going upstairs to a room in this hotel to be together. Of course theyd also do their job, but she knew for both of them that was almost of secondary importance welcome to their new world were up was down, down was up.
As if reading her mind, John asked her softly, Are you nervous, Natalie?
She looked at him with a bit of surprise, but she saw no point in lying to him. A little.
He looked at her carefully, Are you sure
She reached out to put her hand over his mouth as she said, I am its just the first time
Were planning on it he finished for her.
She smiled softly at him and nodded.
So, should I ply you with more alcohol?
I dont need alcohol to want you to feel good about this
John moved his hand to the back of her head, snaking it under her hair and he pulled her mouth to his in a passionate kiss held somewhat in check due to their location. When they broke apart Natalie said softly, Thats so much better than alcohol
Do you want to go upstairs with me, Natalie?
She felt her heart and stomach flutter as she whispered, Yes.
He kissed her again, and then tossed some money on the table. Come with me.
They walked with their hands intertwined to the elevator where they kissed with much more heat. By the time they got to their room there were no more nerves, just aching desire. John led Natalie into the room and sat down on the bed, positioning her to stand between his legs. They were essentially eye-to-eye as he sat there, their heights finally matching. He wrapped his hands behind her back and looked up at her, tenderness and want in his eyes such a potent concoction. She wrapped her arms around his neck and she fell into his kiss, which became deep, bone-melting as they began to ease each other where they needed to go. He moved his hands to her white cotton sleeveless blouse and began unbuttoning it as they continued to kiss without missing a beat. When the garment was open he moved his hands to her rib cage, spanning it caressing it torturing them both as he temporarily avoided her white-lace-clad breasts. He moved his open mouth to the hollow at the base of her throat and she moaned at the contact, her head falling back.
John pushed her shirt off her shoulders and it fell onto the floor as a tremor ran through her. Natalie reached for Johns tie, loosening it, pulling it over his head, after which she moved to the buttons of his shirt, making quick work of them before she dragged it off him and tossed it on the bed behind him. John moved his hands to her back where he unhooked her bra and then pulled it off her, dropping it to the floor with her blouse. His fingertips brushed over her breasts and nipples, then his mouth claimed first her right nipple, next her left while she gripped his shoulders and gasped his name.
John raised his head and they looked at each other with the desire flowing between them, and she was suddenly desperate for more. She reached down and quickly undid his belt, button and zipper and began to pull his pants down, opting to grab the waist band of his boxers along with them. He raised his hips so she could get them all the way down, then she briefly knelt to pull his shoes and socks off, finally removing his pants and boxers completely. She stood back up and Johns hands moved under her black silk skirt so he could push her panties down her body. She stepped out of them and when she looked down she saw his manhood springing impressively from his lap and she dropped to her knees again and first wrapped her hands around his shaft, then took all of him in her mouth, dragging a guttural groan from his throat.
John had not been expecting her to do that and it was the first time hed felt her hot, wet mouth on him he had to breathe deeply to stop himself from losing it immediately from the sensation. She began to move up and down on him, her head bobbing in his lap, her tongue and teeth teasing him before shed suck him hard, then deep throat him so hed hit the back of her throat. He was beginning to come undone, but he didnt want to lose it this way not this time. John pulled her off him and she understood what he wanted. She straddled him, her knees on the bed on either side of his hips, and as his hands gripped her ass she sank down until every bit of him had been swallowed by her body. When their eyes met they saw a blend of satisfaction and yet-unquenched desire playing across their faces, and they were incredibly aroused, unable to remain still as Natalie began to rock her hips, John bucking his from the bed.
Natalie wound her arms around Johns neck and their mouths collided and moved against each other, their tongues in constant motion and vibrating with their colliding moans and gasps. As heart-stopping as it was to have Natalie riding him, he felt too passive he wanted to take her, make her his. In a move that surprised and further aroused her he stood and she wrapped her legs around his waist, then her back hit the bed, her ass at its edge. He looked down at her and then hooked his arms under her knees and began to drive into her, the muscles in his ass and legs pulsing from exertion. She arched her back with each thrust so she could maximize his penetration while her head moved from side to side and the sounds of her increasing arousal poured from her. Natalie felt her orgasm stalking her, beginning to suffuse her body with its heated touch as her walls began to clench around John. She was losing her connection with reality, slipping into blissful sensation, so she clutched almost desperately at the comforter as if needing to believe she could find her way back, even as she wanted to be lost entirely in what John was doing to her body the ecstasy he was bringing her.
John was incredibly aroused watching her move. She was unable to help it, and the feel, the mere idea of her arching up to meet his every stroke the listless way her head was rolling on her almost-spineless neck as she grabbed onto the bedding to steady herself it heated his blood. Then there was the way her already tight passage was beginning to tug at him, drawing him deeper inside. He couldnt hold back the grunts that came with each of his thrusts, each squeeze from her body around him. His legs were on the verge of giving out, his tightening groin signaling his imminent end, so he plunged himself inside her to the hilt and remained buried there while he ground his hips. He felt Natalie snap, a broken cry torn from her as her back and neck arched so that only the back of her head and her arms remained on the bed. Her hot, wet muscle gripped him in spasmodic waves that matched the motion of her own grinding hips, and her relentless hold proved too much for him he felt a searing heat race through him as he erupted within her, the ensuing flood of pleasure threatening to take him down. As long as he could John continued to drive into her with powerful strokes to draw out their orgasms, but finally had withdrew so he could move them up onto the bed, since his legs were trembling badly.
Natalie was as boneless as a rag doll, bursts of pleasure still causing her body to tremble. She was barely cognizant of John removing her skirt the last piece of clothing she had on. He yanked his tank top over his head and then his warm naked weight was pressing her onto the mattress as they wrapped their arms around each other. He was still impressively hard and a spike of desire surged through her as she felt him against her thigh. Without conscious thought she flattened her spine along the mattress and opened her legs to him and with unerring aim, pulled by the inexorable seduction of her rekindled need, he reclaimed her body, springing back to full life as he felt her once again stretch to welcome him within.
Even as John was doing this he barely believed it possible, but he had an endless craving for her. Natalie, he rasped against her mouth, what you do to me
This time their movements were slower, more deliberate, tongues and hips mirroring each other. Natalies hands had settled onto Johns backside, but not to grab harshly at him but more to massage and encourage his deep and ache-assuaging motion. It didnt take long for their pleasure to peak again, and this time they held each other as their bodies calmed. Finally John turned Natalie so he could spoon her, then he pulled the covers up over them. She relaxed and melted back against him with a sigh of deep contentment while he wrapped his arms around her and kissed the back of her neck.
Sleep, sweetheart we have time
I love when you call me that
Chapter 30
Natalie awoke about an hour later, noting that she was safely tucked in the circle of Johns arms and loving how that felt it gave her a warm and cared-for feeling. She also became aware of his impressive hardness pressing into her bottom and her desire unfurled within her as she marveled at how quickly her body could flip from comforting warmth to lustful heat. He was turning her into something shed never fathomed a deeply sexual creature who couldnt stop herself from responding to him from showing him how much she wanted him. In keeping with that she was helpless against her need to press back against the hard length aligned against her backside and she was met with equal pressure in return.
Johns breath caught at Natalies wake up call of course part of him had already instinctively woken up as their bodies had been in contact in their sleep. He tightened his arms around her and felt hers close around his in response while they continued to gently grind against each other. He placed a hot open-mouthed kiss on her shoulder and then had to groan when the shudder that ran through her pressed her more tightly against him. He had to have her again.
They were lying on their right sides and John moved his left hand to her corresponding inner thigh so he could gently lift it. Natalie gasped when she felt him do that, knowing craving what was coming. He didnt make her wait long, but entered her in one fluid stroke, his own gasp coming when he felt her tight heat envelope him. He came to rest deep within her and stilled himself to give her time to adjust, but also to fully experience what it felt like to be so completely embraced by her body. His right hand moved to gently massage her breasts while his left moved to her taut belly to hold her close to him.
Natalie barely registered the combination sigh and moan that eased out of her as he so totally filled her. When she felt his hand splay across her tummy it did something indescribable to her insides such an amazing combination, with its gentle warmth on her skin there while his scorching hard heat was buried inside, mere inches away. He was still finding new ways to hold her to make her feel so totally his.
John could no longer be still and began to move in and out of her with deliberate slowness so they could take note of every sensation as their bodies worked together to heighten their arousal, stoke their desire, and create the tight, heavy ache that would profoundly intensify until it exploded and swept its blessed release through every part of them. Every stroke took them closer, their impact heightened by Natalies need to push back hard onto John to ensure he was as deep as he could possibly be.
Natalies climax began as a feeling that everything inside her was letting go giving way nothing held back it was as if every time John moved within her he was seducing her to total surrender, to the point where she was no longer sure where she ended and he began. Her capitulation wasnt ripped from her but gently coaxed, like strained muscles unclenching as the tension was kneaded away.
If thats what Johns body was doing to Natalies hers was returning the favor. Her walls had begun to contract around him, but rather than the sometimes desperate grip that demanded his body yield to hers, it was with a gently insistent rhythm that acted as an undeniable invitation to join her where motion converted into bone-melting release.
He could feel his own unstoppable slide over the edge approaching, and he moved his left hand to her jaw so he could tilt her head up and align his mouth over hers. Their mating tongues proved the final trigger as their joint climax went through them in a heated wave, melding them as if every barrier between them had given way.
John had never before felt as if every bone in his body had liquefied even his scalp tingled as if no longer solid. It was as if his very self wanted to pour into her she was taking everything he had everything he was and he wouldnt have held anything back, even if he could.
As Natalie regained some semblance of balance she could never remember feeling such bone-deep contentment and she was surprised to find her cheeks wet with tears indeed everything had given way; shed held nothing back either. At that moment she felt John slide from her body and his arms gently turn her so they could face each other. When he noticed her tears his face grew alarmed.
Hey.. he said as he wiped them away with his thumbs. Are you OK?
She tried to smile at him but was embarrassed when she felt her emotions spike and more tears blur her vision. Her voice was a little shaky when she said, YeahIm sorry. Its just it was so
Overwhelming? he asked gently.
She shook her head and he cupped her face in both his hands as he said, It can be that way sometimes, Natalie
For you, too? she asked softly.
He smiled and said equally softly, For me too. John gathered her into an all-encompassing hug, and in turn she wrapped her arms around his middle, resting her head on his chest. Against it she whispered, I just never knew it could be like this feel this way
John kissed her head and said, Its as good as it gets and it doesnt happen very often this well this is different feels different for me too
She pulled her head off his chest to look at him and asked shyly, Really?
He gave her the sweetest smile and said, Really, Natalie.
She put her head back down and felt Johns arms tighten around her. As he held her he reflected on the truth of that statement this did feel entirely different. With Natalie everything felt more heightened, intensified and that was a bit of a revelation because hed believed hed had plenty of intense and passionate sexual experiences. But now he realized that in the past his responses, his reactions had been limited to the physical realm. He felt a different sort of connection with Natalie a bond that transformed the entire experience and brought an emotional depth to it. Interestingly, rather than that unnerve him it brought a feeling of deep contentment and a bit of wonderment. His reaction to her was teaching him things, and bringing out thoughts, actions and feelings hed either felt incapable of, or had studiously shied away from. The fact that he was pulling her more closely to him, embracing her as if he didnt want to let her go, seemed to suggest he was now embracing those very things as well. He had no idea what that would all mean, but for once decided not worry about the future hed let himself have this time, however long it would last, and not shy away from it.
A few minutes later Johns body began to assert itself in another way his stomach grumbled and he could feel and hear Natalie giggle against his chest. He laughed, too, and said, I guess its time for room service.
They consulted the menu and decided to branch out and try a pasta dish, some wine and chocolate cake. They had 30 minutes until it would be delivered, so John gave Natalies arm a tug and said, Lets take a shower
They were proud of themselves that they managed to just take a shower though their efforts at washing each other had involved wonderfully lingering touches punctuated by frequent kisses. Still, they were in robes and refreshed by the time room service arrived.
They put the tray in the middle of the bed and once they began to eat John said, So, should we talk about Mexico?
Sure. Have we found out any more about Javiers mother her family?
John shook his head. Unfortunately, not yet. We are trying to be a bit careful how we dig so as not to raise any red flags. We dont want it getting back to him. We know his father spent some time in the Middle East back in the early 60s, so he would have had the chance to meet a Saudi woman. We just dont yet know who. We are looking into what happened to her when she supposedly died, to see if we can backtrack from there. But you found out an important piece of information, Natalie. Im just sorry you had to deal with him at all Im sorry he upset you so much that day
I really am over it now. It was just I guess it didnt help that I had just woken up and was stark naked in bed. Worse, it was HIS bed. It was such a shock and then his whole line of comments and questions but I really think his main goal was to rattle me frankly to fuck with me for sport. I think that was more of a driver for him as opposed to really wanting me
John shook his head, Im not so sure about that, Natalie. Why would he want to screw with you? His overt approach to you started before he had the first clue we were involved
True but he knew I was part of the Presidents entourage I think that factored into it
Perhaps. But I cant stand that he has any interest in you at all
Doesnt thrill me either, but Im not sure what can be done about it plus, I do think its unlikely that Ill see him again
I wouldnt be so sure
Well, youre right if he has anything to do with all this Zo-related chatterbut then again, Id think hed be even more likely to stay away if hes involved
It just depends on what really gets him off, Natalie. He might like the danger of getting as close to the action as possible and feeling like hes fooling everyone. He may have such strong convictions that he HAS to be at the scene of the proverbial crime but even if hes not involved even if it turns out theres nothing to be involved in I think hed show up because of you
She looked at him in surprise, You really think so? I guess I just dont see him traveling to the other end of the world so our paths can cross at some party
I think he was honestly taken with you, Natalie. Just my gut instinct. And the chance to see you in that part of the world which, as he told you, is in his blood what else did he say to you the other night?
He just went on about the need to be open-minded and open-hearted to that region essentially to see its real truth and not a warped version of it based on our narrow American perspective. Then he talked about how its own people had sold it out for purported friends as in, in my opinion, the US, perhaps the UK and it was clear it upset him greatly. He also made an interesting comment about younger people who were less rigid and who could see the truth that they could save the world.I took that to mean that the newer generation might settle the score
I tend to agree with that interpretation. What hes told you has given us a very interesting angle to pursue a possible thread to pull to unravel whats being planned. We can look for any way he ties into other things were uncovering. Oh, by the way and I hope youll think this is good news since I sure do the work-up for the European trip wasnt complete, so we have to meet one more time this week to go over that and cover any new information on Javier
Darn she said in a husky voice.
You know, Natalie, its only 10 oclock they think youre working at The Brazen Head tonightand you usually get home after midnight when you do sometimes even after 1am
Your point? she asked with a raised eyebrow, knowing exactly what he meant.
We have time
Time for what?
Dessert and Im not talking about chocolate cake
She felt her blood heat up and she smiled devilishly at him. We could combine the two and she scooped a glob of icing onto her finger and moved it to his mouth. She closed her eyes and her own lips parted when she felt him suck it off her finger. Then she smiled seductively at him and as he watched her in fascination she opened her robe and smeared chocolate icing over both nipples, earning a sharp intake of breath from him.
Shit, Natalie he gasped. Then he leapt from the bed to remove the tray, ripped his robe and hers off and in record time had her pinned to the mattress so he could lick every bit of icing from her breasts. By the time she was clean she was actually a writhing mess, and when he took her in a spearing thrust taking her breath away in the process she gasped, Youre going to kill me
He rasped, Im trying
Two hours later they were back in the shower, searching each other for any final nooks and crannies where their tongues had inadvertently left icing or cake. Not to mention strategically poured dribbles of cabernet. Housekeeping would certainly have a story to tell when they saw the stained comforter. They had, of course, tried to be careful but had been plagued with a fundamental lack of control in any area that would have required sanity or thought. Oh well, they could charge him for it it was so worth it.
They kissed their way down the hall, in the elevator, through the lobby and outside until John finally deposited Natalie into a cab claiming a final kiss good-bye for good measure as he did so. As he headed to his own car he mused that hed never before been much of a dessert eater not one for sweets. Yet another change. He was a sweet eating cuddler. Hed accept that.
Chapter 31
The next afternoon Natalie was walking from the private residence at the White House to head to her car she was covering a shift at The Brazen Head when she bumped into John and Mason. John and Natalie shared a meaningful look and a small smile, while Mason good-naturedly rolled his eyes. Before anyone could say a word a White House Aide approached them.
Miss Maxwell, this was just delivered for you, the Aide said as he handed her a letter with just her name and White House written on it and then retreated. She looked at it and saw it appeared to be written on hotel stationery from the Mandarin Oriental Hotel in town.
Whos it from, Natalie? John asked.
I have no idea its written on Mandarin Oriental stationery she began to tear open the envelope.
As she read it she felt a blend of emotions run through her, none of them particularly positive it was from Javier, and it read:
Cara mia. I find myself in town on unexpected business, and thinking of you. I am over-committed the next few days and evenings, but was hoping I might persuade you to have dinner with me on Friday evening. I feel I might owe you an apology for my boorish behavior in Mexico, plus I have some ideas of things you should make sure to see and do on your trip to the Middle East. Perhaps your agent can spare you for the evening even better if hes working, no? I promise not to cross any lines, unless you invite me over them a man can dream.
Please phone my private cell (my card is enclosed) and please say yes.
With affection,
Javy
Bastard John said under his breath. Of course you cant go
Both Mason and Natalie looked at him in surprise, with Mason speaking first, John, this could be a great chance
Yeah a great chance for him to paw all over her and say even more vile things than he already has!
Natalie broke in, No, John, a great chance for us to dig a bit deeper into things we NEED to know
John, of course, knew she was right he just saw red when he thought of that man anywhere near her. He kept thinking back on the words hed heard him saying to her while she was naked and vulnerable in his bed and the look on her face, how deeply shaken and upset she was.
He sighed and said, Mason and I will talk to Chase discuss the best way to handle this. Well come to The Brazen Head tonight and talk about it.
Natalie nodded and said, Speaking of, Ive got to go.
When she was gone Mason said quietly, Lets go talk to Chase.
John knew before they even reached his office that Natalie was going to meet Javier for dinner. Of course she would. The reasons she should far outweighed the reasons she shouldnt. But if he had anything to say about it and he did they were going to have to figure out some way to keep an eye on her and make sure she was safe.
Chase looked at the letter and then to Mason and John. This could be good. I will be honest I have a slight concern that he might be suspicious and wants to have this dinner with Natalie for much the same reasons we want her to: to find out what is really going on. Then again if he suspects shes some sort of undercover asset, hed also know that she would be under surveillance, so he couldnt do anything anyway. My gut especially given that Natalie-doppelganger he brought to the Embassy party is that this is about an attraction to Natalie, but well take precautions.
Like what? John asked.
Chase reached into his desk and brought out a velvet jewelry box. John, its time you give Natalie a token of affection youve been sleeping with her long enough, dont you think? He said this with ironic humor, thinking he was making a truly funny joke.
John had to use every bit of steel in him not to squirm at Chases words, and he and Mason were smart enough not to even glance in each others direction.
Chase opened the box and in it was a beautiful diamond tennis bracelet and in the clasp was a tiny, state-of-the-art microphone. Natalie would be wired and John, Mason and Chase would personally listen in on her date with Lezama, making sure they were close by in the event an intervention was necessary.
John felt marginally better but not great about the whole thing. He told himself over and over that this was Natalies job that she was a trained agent even if she lacked many years of experience. Shed already proven herself able to handle stressful and truly dangerous situations. She seemed to be doing better at that than HIM handling her having to do it.
Mason kept glancing at John as they drove over to The Brazen Head. He knew that his friend had feelings for Natalie, but it had still taken him by surprise to see that professional considerations were completely absent when John had first reacted to Javiers note. Attributes that had been so deeply ingrained within him to the point where they defined him had been nowhere to be seen. Even when John was off duty there had always been a part of his brain and instincts constantly tuned to the job, yet there he had been, standing in the White House itself, talking with two other agents, and he had been nothing so much as a deeply concerned and infuriated boyfriend. Mason now knew beyond a doubt that John was Natalies lover in every sense of that word. He wondered to what extent John had realized or admitted that to himself.
John, well keep her safe. And shes good at her job
John glanced at Mason and said, I know we have to. And she is good. I just am having a hard time forgetting how much he upset her when we were in Mexico, and to think of her dining with him Im not so worried about any physical harm, but do you really think this guy isnt going to try to fuck with her mentally emotionally he is a player across the board. And Natalie has some areas of vulnerability
Meaning you? Whats happening with you two?
John nodded. He is like a dog with a bone about that if he senses anything an opening a wedge of some sort
But in some ways its to her benefit that you guys really are well, involved. She wont be lying.
No, but he can try to warp things make them seem something theyre not plus Chase is going to be listening will any red flags go up with him?
I think hell just think shes doing a great job of selling her cover
I just hate that she has to spend time with him her last night before we head out to Europe
Ah
What does that mean?
If memory serves you two were supposed to have a hotel hook-up that night for a final prep for the upcoming trip now, you wont be able to
John didnt say anything he didnt need to. Yes, one of the things John was most wrestling with was that his planned evening with Natalie was suddenly scrubbed and worst of all, so that she could be wined and dined by Javier Lezama. Lord he hated that bastard.
They got to The Brazen Head and the normal dance of Natalie waiting on them took place. About an hour into their stay, Natalie made sure John noticed as she told her boss that she was going to head in the back to unpack some supplies that had been delivered. He gave her the go-ahead and said hed cover her tables while she was gone. Of course within two minutes John was heading back there.
While Natalie waited for John she tried to steady her nerves. She hated the notion of spending time with Javier, but didnt want John to see how much that was weighing on her. It was her job. She could do this she had to.
John walked into the storage room and closed the door behind him, and he and Natalie closed the distance between them. They came together in a passionate kiss, arms banding around each other, then remained in an embrace for several minutes, soaking in the comfort of it.
Finally John said, Youll never guess where I found some icing this morning when I was taking a shower
Natalie laughed at that, but felt herself grow a bit warm at the memory. Maybe chocolate sauce would be better next time
John kissed her again at that, but then had to back away since they couldnt go where their bodies were trying to.
I have something for you its from Chase, actually. Theres a microphone in the clasp of this bracelet. We three will be monitoring your date with Lezama. You wont be out there by yourself.
Natalie nodded and held out her arm so he could put the bracelet on her. She was relieved that shed have some connection to them, but at the same time cringed inwardly at the conversation they could hear, if Javier was anything like hed been in the past. And shed have to play her role She could only hope that that sort of conversation would fit into that boorish category he was trying to apologize for maybe hed be on his best behavior
Natalie Im not going to lie to you. I hate that you have to spend any time with him. I hate how he behaves with you. And I totally despise him for ruining our final night together before we head to Europe.
Natalie hadnt even made that connection yet and he saw her face fall at that realization and it touched him that she seemed as disappointed about that situation.
Oh, John I didnt even think of that. Damn.
Exactly.
He gathered her into his arms again and kissed her thoroughly, to the point that her knees felt weak. The way they touched each other had moved so far beyond kissing, but still there was something about it that did her in every time. When John pulled back he looked at her and smiled when he saw her eyes were still fused shut he knew hed had an impact on her and it made him happy. When she opened her eyes there was a dreamy quality to them that he never tired of seeing.
You are such a good kisser, John she couldnt help admitting.
He kissed her again for good measure and said, You bring my best work out of me, and youre no slouch yourself, sweetheart
I love when you call me that she sighed.
He grinned broadly and said softly, Thats why I do it plus I cant seem to help it
John gave her a tight hug and then left the room, leaving Natalie to unload boxes in double time.
Chapter 32
When Natalie had called Javier to accept his invitation he had been thrilled hed practically purred through the phone line, making her skin crawl. It was something, because he was a very good looking man, as well as a billionaire several times over. As magazine after magazine shouted, he was one of the worlds hottest bachelors a true catch. In theory Natalie should be excited and flattered. In reality she was completely put off by him. Even if she wasnt involved with John she would have felt the same way.
He suggested they dine at his hotel since it had one of DCs hottest restaurants CityZen. In fact, Food & Wine Magazine had declared it one of the hottest restaurants in the world. Natalie thought long and hard about what to wear since she wanted as much amour on as possible, yet it couldnt appear that was her intent. If only it was winter She selected black silk pajama pants and a matching sleeveless mock turtleneck. She fastened her Swarovski Crystal broach on its neck and wore diamond teardrop earrings and her new tennis bracelet. On her feet were black Prada sandals. It was a simple, elegant look, yet youthful enhanced by her hair worn down.
As Natalie stepped into a taxi at 8pm, she wondered where exactly John, Mason and Chase were going to set up shop because they had to be careful not to be seen, even if they wanted to be nearby. As it turns out, theyd had no trouble sneaking into the hotel through the back entrance and were now ensconced in a room just down the hall from Javiers suite, and right next door to the stairwell which theyd use to leave unobtrusively when the time came.
Javier was waiting for Natalie in the lobby when she arrived, and he walked to her, placing a hand on her arm and a kiss on her cheek as he said, Cara mia, thank you for having dinner with me so lovely to see you again
She smiled at him, noting that they were attracting interested looks since it was clear people realized who he was. He tucked her hand in his elbow and led her to the restaurant and he didnt have to say a word when they walked in the maitre d jumped to attention and escorted them immediately to an intimate table down back. The wine steward was already at their table and as they took their seats was opening a bottle of Cristal champagne.
Javier raised his flute and clinked it against Natalies, saying To your health and happiness. Natalie, I have to be honest I was a bit surprised you accepted my invitation
She smiled and said, So was I
And he laughed, then said, So why did you?
Well, I really do want to learn what I can in preparation for my trip and for a brief moment in Mexico, when you were telling me how I should approach my first experiences in the Middle East well, I thought I saw more of who you were more so than when you
When I was delving into your sexual relationship with your agent
Natalie sat back and said, Yes.
So, you want to know the real me?
Or at least talk to the real you it seems like you have some very interesting perspectives, but they were getting lost in your game playing
You think I was playing games?
Werent you?
Not to the extent you apparently believe, cara mia in my experience every interaction has some element of gamesmanship even if the actual players arent totally aware of it. I acted as I did because I wanted to know the real you as well.
How does grilling me about intensely private matters do that?
Did you not listen to your own words just now what is more revealing than someones intensely private moments and their reactions to them
But those types of experiences are just a part of who someone is theres so much more
On some level you are right, but it depends on where a person is in the arc of their life what is beginning to shape them at a pivotal moment
They were interrupted by the waiter and Javier asked Natalies permission to order for them and the waiter quickly took his instructions and left with all due alacrity.
He continued his previous train of thought. Natalie I could certainly take a more traditional approach and ask you all sorts of questions about your life and history and I would learn some things about you. But when I look at you right now consider who you are at this moment at this stage of your life you are moving from girl to woman what is happening now is shaping the woman you will become who youll be from now on. These experiences will be carried with you for the rest of your life because they have awakened you to a new reality. That is why I am so focused on what has happened what his happening with you and your agent. The very fact that you are having such an illicit affair is both revealing and exciting and life altering. And then what he is doing to you what he is teaching you about yourself as he opens up this entirely new world for you Are you telling me that something that happened to you in high school would be more revelatory than what it is that led you to jump into this affair and what you are learning every time your agent claims your body to take you to places youve never been?
Natalie was unsettled by the direction this was all taking largely because there was so much truth in it, and it was excruciatingly personal, yet here it was being scrutinized not just by Javier, but for the listening ears of Chase and Mason not to mention John. She tried to derail him a little bit.
Javier, you act as if I was a virgin or something
Werent you? In all the ways that mattered even if not technically
You know, I thought that you were planning on behaving differently, but this is uncomfortably close to the way you were in Mexico
Natalie, I am prepared to reveal more of myself to you but and this may be the business man in me this needs to be an even exchange. I want to know you, too and Ive explained how and why I want to do that if you cant deal with it, Ill understand. Ill not force you, but then whats my inducement to reveal myself to you? Its not like were actually starting a relationship unless youre tiring of your agent or trying to plan for when your summer fling comes to an end
Well since youre right we are not starting a relationship why do you even care to know me and if you just tell me about places to see in the Middle East, how is that all that revealing about you?
Natalie you can read a travel book for a list of sights to see Im talking about providing the historical and emotional subtext of that turbulent yet wonderful region. And in doing so I cant help but open up some windows into who I am to places that I rarely let anyone in. I find where you are in your evolution as a woman to be fascinating I have had the privilege a few times myself of ushering a lovely young woman to an entirely new level of exploration and understanding. What is more fundamentally human than our core animal and therefore sexual beings? I cannot know you that way myself I am not your tutor but I can experience it one step removed
John, Mason and Chase had listened to this with a mix of discomfort and fascination. They believed he meant exactly what he was saying. It also made bizarre sense. Chase was concerned because he not knowing the truth of Natalies situation wondered if she could pull it off. Could she seem to reveal the sorts of things that would please Javier and ring true? Of course, John and Mason were uncomfortable and concerned for her because they knew the truth, and what it might cost her to give up so much of herself in this exchange. Javiers use of the word tutor was like a stab in the gut, since John remembered all too well that that was exactly what he had done with Natalie that day that first day
Natalie absorbed what he was saying. On some level she understood, but that is also what made it so difficult because it was so profoundly about who she was and was becoming. She would be dealing away her most private truths for the benefit of her job in earshot of her three supervisors. Yet the ludicrous irony was that it was her job that had led her to this incredibly intimate journey of discovery, at the hands of one of those very supervisors. Every now and again something happened to make the reality of her life and situation hit home hard and this was one of those moments.
She took a deep breath and said, I can only try I want to know what you can tell me Im just not sure how much Ill feel comfortable sharing about well, about such personal things
I understand. You are ultimately in control, no? But tell, me, Natalie why are you so very interested in that part of the world that youd even contemplate sharing what will obviously come at a cost to you?
And there it was a question that made perfect sense for him to ask, and which could throw everything in jeopardy. For what could she possibly say that would seem to explain why it was so important to her to learn about the Middle East that shed engage in such a difficult exchange?
The three ear-wigging men held their collective breaths.
Natalie saw that a trap had been set likely more than Javier could possibly realize. She took a deep breath and tried to tap into a separate reality what would drive someone to do this, if it wasnt for the reasons Natalie had to? As it turned out, she didnt have to work too hard, because in truth she was fascinated by the region, and the fact that she didnt understand it. And she WAS in an amorphous phase in her life, where reality and pretend swirled around each other, each teaching her something and pushing the limits of her self-definition and self-discovery.
Im not sure Ill do a very good job explaining but, well, I guess it goes along with what you were saying about me your observations I am I am in a transitional moment in my life that is all about exploration. It wasnt planned but I guess when you open to one thing you really open up to, well, everything its like all of your senses are sharpened, and so is your mind and you begin to question everything things you never even thought of before, let alone wondered about I have to be honest. I some ways I fall into or FELL into that stereotypical bucket of Americans who dont understand much beyond their own environment. I know that my views of much of the world are very simplistic and I am assuming one-sided And that is very much the case when it comes to the Middle East. And then I met you. And for a brief moment, when you talked about the Middle East, I felt as if I really HAD meaning Id met the real you, for a brief instant. And that well THAT you intrigued me because you have everything. Yet that is the place you say is in your blood. And the part of me that is wide open to exploring everything now well it suddenly seemed that it would be such a waste to go to the Middle East and not even try to understand it at an entirely different level especially if there was chance that someone like you, with such a bond to it, could help me see it really see it
John, Mason and Chase expelled their collective breaths and the latter said, Damn, shed good she nailed that
Javier looked at her closely while Natalie tried to keep her breathing on an even keel. This moment was everything this was for all the marbles. If he didnt believe her shed get nothing more from him. He smiled at her a genuine smile and she felt the tension along her spine ease.
Ah, cara mia I knew you were special.
At that moment their food arrived and they ate quietly for a little while, sharing their dishes. Then Javier said softly, Are you ready to begin our special exchange?
Natalie felt butterflies in her stomach as she said, Yes.
I will ask a series of questions you can answer. Or not If you do answer, then after I feel Ive learned a good amount, I will reveal some things to you and then it will be my turn to ask more questions OK?
OK.
Good. Tell, me how old were you when you lost your virginity?
Natalie should have expected the question but she didnt, and she blanched for a second before answering, realizing with a sinking feeling that this might be one of the easiest questions she faced. Sixteen she answered truthfully.
Ah, such a tender age. Was it with someone older, or a boy your own age?
He was eighteen, so a bit older.
Was it a one-time only thing a one-night stand, or were you a couple for a while?
He was my boyfriend we were together a little over a year.
How many others have you had sex with since not counting your agent, of course?
Two.
Were they both your own age, more or less?
Yes.
How long did you date them?
Natalie wasnt sure why she felt compelled to answer truthfully as much as she was repulsed by Javier there was still something magnetic about his personality and it was hard to deny him the answers he sought. Moreover, there was so much she had to lie about she knew it was best that she kept any other lies to a minimum. One of them, about six months the other, well, it was just one time
Oooh, a one-night stand that doesnt seem quite characteristic of you? Was it a stranger, Natalie?
No.
Yet you were only with him one time....
It was someone Id considered a friend, until
Until?
Until that night
It was just too awkward after?
Natalie swallowed hard, Yes
Shed tried to keep her tone neutral but Javier was canny and picked up on a subtle tone in her voice. You arent telling me the entire truth that is obvious, Natalie. Truth is our deal, my dear, now what arent you telling me?
She shook her head slightly for a second and then said softly, He I had had too much to drink at a party. He told me he was worried about me about leaving me in that condition among a bunch of fraternity boys, and that hed take me home because he was ready to go as it turned out, it was him I couldnt trust.
Javier sat back a bit in his chair hed not been expecting that answer. He raped you, Natalie?
Natalie was quiet for a long moment, then she said in a tone devoid of all emotion, I suppose that would be the best way to describe it though some might say it falls into one of those gray areas what is consent if you arent in any shape to give it or fight off the inevitable?
Javier nodded and it was his turn to be quiet. So, too, were the three men listening in they were suddenly very uncomfortable hearing such personal revelations, and since they cared about Natalie, to varying degrees of course, they cared very much that this had happened to her. John felt a bolt of fury surge through him certainly at whomever had done that to Natalie, but also towards Javier and this entire situation. This is not how he should be learning about this it should be when he and Natalie were alone, sharing confidences, and where he could take her in his arms and hold her, comfort her through any lasting hurt John felt Masons eyes on him and he looked in his direction, noting the sympathy in his eyes. Then they turned their attention back to the conversation.
Javier said, Well, I am terribly sorry that happened to you why dont we talk about much happier topics like your agent, for example. He makes you happy, doesnt he, Natalie?
Yes. she said simply.
How did you first meet him, Natalie?
It was in two places almost simultaneously I became Zos roommate, and also started working at a local restaurant that John and Mason frequent.
Ah, and how long did you know him before it all changed?
The whole semester and then most of the trip to Canada
What drew you to him?
Natalie thought about that, remembering what shed first thought and felt about him. He seemed mysteriousolder experienced he was always very nice to me, but held back some good looking, of course
When did things start to change or when did you develop a real interest?
Again, she gave that consideration. She thought of the night hed held the ice against her lip after Rocco had accosted her and how he talked to her when she was so rattled about her upcoming torture sessions not to mention after when hed shared his own reactions to his tapes being viewed. None of that was appropriate to share. Finally she said, There was an end-of-semester party. Someone slipped something in my drink. John noticed and got me out of there. He made sure I was OK, and stayed with me until he was sure
Very heroic
Actually, very John
And the first time you two were together intimately that was in Canada?
Natalie knew she had to fudge the truth a bit in this instance. Yes.
Tell me how all that came about.
Well, I Id started flirting with John some and it seemed he was flirting back. I bumped into him and Mason at a pub in Calgary one thing led to another we danced a bit and then we kissed. Actually, a lot. And then we made arrangements to meet at a hotel and that is how it all began
And what have you two done together since?
She wasnt sure what exactly he was getting at, and the question showed on her face.
Youve had sex each time youve met in private?
Yes.
How many times have you met since Canada?
Twicehere in DC
And in Mexico, at my place of course
Yes.
Has he taken you with his fingers and his mouth, Natalie?
She was surprised by his graphic question, but said quietly, Yes.
From behind?
She was mad and embarrassed and said tersely I dont see why we have to get this
Graphic?
Yes!
OK, Ill pull back for now anyway. So, not sexually well come back to that but emotionally, how does he make you feel?
That was a loaded question and one shed deliberately skirted a number of times when her inner voice had asked it. She knew shed have to come up with something, and it needed to be truth-based. Safe. As much as he knocks me off balance in some ways, in the end I feel safe. Its strange, really, because I also feel so small when Im with him hes so much bigger than me yet Im not afraid She realized she was revealing quite a bit and silenced herself because she was on the verge of just going on about him and what she felt, and wondered if shed temporarily lost her mind.
Javier took all this in and then asked, Natalie before your agent, who was the last person to have had you your second boyfriend or your rapist?
She started when she heard that word said so baldly shed long-avoided characterizing that experience and that person in those terms. Call it self-protective denial, but it had helped her move past it. She couldnt bring herself to answer out loud, but she didnt need to.
Javier said softly, I seeso you let no one touch you from that moment until you met your agent in a hotel is that correct?
Yes.
John felt a stab of remorse as he remembered their first time in the shower how intense and forceful it had been. How hed hurt her and that had been her first time since shed been raped? He felt physically ill and it was all he could do not to bury his head in his hands but he couldnt forget Chase sitting next to him.
Javier continued his relentless questioning, Did you tell him about your history?
No.
Why him, Natalie?
She thought a simple, direct answer would be best. I wanted him.
Hmmm, interesting. You felt a strong desire for him?
Yes.
After everything, that must have been a surprise to you, no? To feel that way? To have your body reawaken? How long had it been since well since your friend proved to be anything but?
She knew she had to lie about timeframes. In truth it had been almost three years, but that wouldnt conform to her supposed age and the other details shed shared. Almost two years
And did your desire surprise you?
Yes.
And why him?
I I trusted him
Interesting word trust it can mean so many thingsdid his age his being much older than you have something to do with that?
I guess I dont know, maybe
Oh, I think you do I think you knew you were ready to move past that other experience, but you needed someone whod know how to make it all entirely different for you no more fumbling boys but a real man who didnt need to take advantage of you whod know how to do things to you and your bodyto open up that new world for you it would be such a uniquely different experience that your past would be just that, left entirely behindyoud be set free of itfinally learn what it could be like, how beautiful, overwhelming all-encompassing the deep connection of it all
Natalie couldnt help remembering her last meeting with John, when she had been exactly that overwhelmed. She felt like she was being dissected like some rat in a lab, and though shed not given conscious thought to much of this, she knew by the way she was reacting to his words that Javier was seeing the truth in her his words were hitting home, resonating deeply and it took everything in her not to flee to run and hide and she couldnt bear to think that all this was being heard by Chase, Mason and John
Javier scrutinized her face, her eyes, the flush of her cheeks and he asked, Does he know youre in love with him?
Natalie sucked in her breath and all parties to this conversation heard it. She said nothing. She didnt even want to think about what hed just said in earshot of John, no less let alone talk about it.
Its OK, cara mia your secret is safe with me. its probably best you keep it from John, too this is supposed to be just a summer fling, no?
Natalie felt a jarring sensation at his words so abrupt almost harsh. Softly she said, Yes. Thats what it was is supposed to be...
That sort of thing requires a certain level of sophistication to pull off, my dear. Well, it would probably more correct to say a certain level of detachment an ability not to compromise your heart. I get the feeling you arent pulling that part off, but youd be best served not to let your agent realize that unless you want him to run for the hills.
Even as Javier was saying this he knew he was lying hed seen the way John had tended to Natalie and looked at her in Mexico when shed rescued Zo and been injured it was obvious then that the agent had real feelings for Natalie as well, but it served his purpose much better for her to question that entirely. He saw a painful reaction work across Natalies face before she could school her features.
Natalie, it is no reflection on you, cara mia. I am sure he is taken with you in his own way. I doubt hed be risking his job if this didnt have some meaning, but I am speaking as a man of a certain age and type perhaps not too dissimilar to your agent. He has a very important job its probably required a lot of sacrifice for him to get to such a pinnacle in his career. I am sure youve given him pause how could you not? He may even have told you that he hasnt felt this way before or that it is different for him, and he is perhaps open to more he may even believe that. But it isnt in him. I know that because until recently I have been the same no time for love building my empire, garnering power and influence yet now I find myself needing more and meeting someone like you Your agent isnt ready yet not really. I am. Protect your heart. Enjoy your summer but protect your heart and know that I will be waiting for you
Natalie didnt know what to say she was reeling, but fighting so hard against it. Again, his words his insights seemed to hit so close to home her brain knew she should discount him she knew he was a master manipulator. But other parts of her were feeling the impact of his words all her insecurities and vulnerabilities were being laid bare and hit hard.
John sat listening to this feeling completely helpless. He knew what that bastard was trying to do. And he also knew that the very nature of his and Natalies situation left her vulnerable to Javiers methods. He had basically parroted much of what John had said to her and John knew nothing was definitive between them right now they had talked about why that had to be the case it required trust and an openness to taking risks to stick with it. Had Javier eroded that? Had he planted seeds of doubt that would be too devastating to recover from? He wanted to go to her and help her regain her balance her belief in them whatever they were But he was stuck he had to sit here with Mason and Chase and pretend this had almost no meaning that most of it was trumped up lies
Javier could see the impact hed had on her. He didnt know if it would ultimately get him where he hoped with her this game still had a lot left to play but he knew his blows had landed in tender spots. He was also surprised by what she had revealed to him, and since he had wide streak of fairness running through him, he felt he should consider responding in kind. What sealed the deal for him was his belief that in her current state of vulnerability, him showing his own was likely to register with her, and perhaps help her see him differently feel differently about him, if only for a little bit. And from that little bit
He said softly, You have told me so much, cara mia been so open, and I know that was not without cost. So I am going to do the same. I am going to tell you some things about me that almost no one knows I had no intention of telling you all this, but now, well Id almost be ashamed not to, given what you have revealed but please, just let me say it all out no questions or interruptions it is a difficult story for me. I try not to think about it too much but I will, for you. To repay my debtOK?
Natalie and the three men listening in sat back, wondering what theyd hear. She said quietly, OK.
My mother was a Saudi Princess
That made them all sit up and take notice.
My father had business interests in that region during the sixties, and he met my mother. They fell for each other and began an affair, which was an incredibly dangerous thing to do because not only would she risk death for being with a man outside of marriage, but she was promised to a Saudi. It was a summer affair, and that fall she was heading to the US for school Princeton. By the time she got there, she realized she was pregnant. She contacted my father and he came to see her, offering her marriage, but she explained that she could not risk death nor could she disgrace her family by reneging on the agreement to marry the Saudi. She was being chaperoned in the US by her older sister and her husband. The sister helped her hide her pregnancy, and when the baby when I was born, I was handed over to my father to raise. My mother went back home that summer, and she met and fell in love with a US Diplomat and told her family. She was going to turn her back on everything for him. She would not do that for her own child, but she would for her dashing American. Her family tried to talk her out of it her father technically should have killed her right away, but she was his favorite and he was sure he could bring her around She was adamant said her American loved her, and she loved him. But he was not the man she thought. He told her he was being re-posted, and he could not take her along he could not marry a Saudi princess, since it could ruin his career. She was devastated. Worse, the Saudi she was intended to marry found out about her affair and he and his family killed her in a classic honor killing. Her Diplomat married the daughter of a wealthy US industrialist and had a family, living happily ever after in their American Dream. I initially had a lot of hate for my mother for that culture that would keep her from my father and me but her blood is my blood, and I realized that she was a victim, too. She, like so many in the region like so many COUNTRIES, let alone starry-eyed young girls fell for American lies her virtue was compromised the best part of her taken, then she was discarded when she was no longer of value, or something more important came along. But some day and hopefully that day is sooner rather than later things will be different
Natalie was blown away. She knew hed told her the truth and that he had ample reason to want to hurt US interests Americans. Perhaps even strike at the First Family itself. Javier, I dont know what to say
Nothing to be said, cara mia Javier wasnt prepared for the darkness that seeped around his heart and soul as he thought of his painful personal history. He always had the same reaction, yet it managed to surprise him every time. He wanted to lash out and he had Natalie sitting right there. He needed more from her now needed to watch her squirm again. After all, she was just a woman, and an American one at that. My turn I need more from you now
More?
More. Tell me about the first time your agent fucked you. What was it like?
Natalie sat back in surprise at the change in him. She sensed the deep anger that bordered on hatred.
Upstairs the three men had also been blown away by what Javier had revealed, but now they too sensed the change in him and they were concerned that Natalie would bear the brunt. Maybe shed just decide to leave. Shed already learned so much it was unlikely hed reveal any more.
Tell me, Natalie come on what did it feel like? Did it surprise you? Overwhelm?
Yes.
Yes what?! I need details
Im not sure
Is he big - did he challenge your body DID HE?!
Yes!
Tell me what you were thinking what it felt likeTELL ME!
She wasnt sure what to do at that moment. Again she had the desire to flee, but also was worried about creating a scene, so she felt she had no choice but to answer. I I I felt like... I thought it was like I was butter and he was a hot knife slicing through me
Javier smiled at that, Excellent, my dear so there was pain?
Natalie didnt answer right away and he jumped on her I asked you a question was there pain?!
A little at first
But you liked it, didnt you?
She said nothing and in a menacing tone he said, Natalieeee
Yes she barely whispered.
Of course you did an important self-discovery, no? That pain can bring pleasure beyond what you can have without it in some ways Have you let him fuck you in the ass?
Natalie gasped and her whole body jerked as if shed been struck.
Javier noted her reaction and said, Oh, you really should an exquisite experience, especially if he finger fucked you at the same time or used a toy or something the blend of agony and ecstasy would be like nothing youve ever experienced youd be begging for it all the time what about when he fucked you with his tongue - did he bite your clit
Natalie could take no more. She shot up from her seat and said in a shaky, angry whisper, This is over! I should have known this is who you really are! Before she could move away Javier grasped her wrist and said urgently, Im sorry please, I am. Just sit SIT! I wont say anymore
Natalie saw that some people were beginning to look at them so she acquiesced, saying, All right, just for a moment, but if you say one more word Upstairs the three men had leapt to their feet, but then sank back down. She seemed OK, and they really couldnt afford to blow her cover unless it was life and death. John was the last to sit, and it took everything in him not to race down there and beat that monstrous prick until he was dead.
I am sorry, Natalie. I am embarrassed by my behavior. Truly. And now youve learned something else about me. When I am hurting I lash out. When I am vulnerable, I feel I must strike. The story I shared with you it is a difficult one for me. It is painful that that is my story my mother gave me up. She would not do for me, to keep me, what she was willing to do for an American who didnt really even want her. Again, please believe me I am sorry. This is why I so rarely even think about this, let alone discuss it. Sit here and relax a moment. I will leave you in peace while I go arrange for a car to take you back to the White House.
Javier was gone for five minutes, during which time she tried to steady her nerves. Then he came and took her hand to walk her outside to a waiting Town Car.
Natalie I know you may not be able to forgive me. I hope you will understand my human frailties and give me another chance. I will write you a letter with my suggestions for what you should see and do when you go to the Middle East. I hope our paths will cross again, and that by then you will have moved past the bad end to our dinner. If you ever need anything you have my card.
When Natalie sat back in the car, she released a deeply-held breath, and began to shake in delayed reaction to everything. It had been such a rollercoaster she felt like shed been carved open and put on display for all to see And she felt a heaviness in her heart as she tried to battle against what Javier had said about her feelings for John, and his for her and the likelihood of anything lasting beyond the summer. Had he told her anything she didnt know? Not really. Except for his assertion that she was in love with John which John had heard. She couldnt examine that right now and she knew it was something shed been refusing to contemplate for a while. But what would John have thought? She was exhausted physically and emotionally spent. She craved the chance to crawl into her own bed, pull the covers up over her head and cry her eyes out. But instead she was on her way back to The White House, where Zo would be waiting. Tomorrow evening theyd head to Europe. She suddenly felt a painful yearning to be with John, in his arms. Yet that thought also scared her to death now she felt defenseless when it came to him and was Javier right about her true feelings?
Natalie tried to fight the tears, but they coursed down her cheeks anyway. She did her best to be silent, but a few telltale gasps made there way out of her.
Chase, Mason and John were silent. They knew they should discuss what theyd heard, but they didnt have the stomach for it because they understood that something devastating had happened to Natalie, on so many levels. Of course Johns level of understanding went profoundly deeper, and so too did his pain over it. They knew she was crying. They knew she was trying not to.
Mason could see that his friend was barely hanging on. He felt a deep sorrow for Natalie, so he could only imagine what John was experiencing. He thought back on what Stinson had said to Natalie and how it had hurt her Javier had hit her even harder. He turned to Chase and said quietly, Lets turn the receiver off, weve heard enough
Chase nodded and their invasion of Natalies privacy ended though it had all been caught on tape. He turned to them both and said, Why dont we meet tomorrow morning, once weve had a chance to digest all this He was looking closely at John as he said this. It was impossible to know what Natalie had made up to support her cover story. Of course, Chase could simply tell himself that virtually everything to do with John had been complete fabrication. But there had been a disconcerting ring of truth to some things. Questions were colliding around in his head, but he was pretty sure he didnt want to know the answers. He should want to know well, his professional self should want to. But every other part of him rebelled against that because his gut told him that hed be probing sheer pain if he dug for answers. And then hed have to do something about those answers. So, he did something he could never remember having done before he willfully buried his head in the sand, which revealed something important about him and how much of a friend he considered John and the growing regard he felt for Natalie.
Once they were sure Javier was in his suite for the night, they left the room and exited via the stairs. They went separately to their cars and headed home. John drank three glasses of whiskey and tossed and turned for hours, his arms aching to hold Natalie. And he was afraid afraid that Javier had dealt them a blow they might not recover from, and the frustrating thing was he couldnt even try to rectify it until they got to Europe and had their first hotel encounter.
Chapter 33
The next morning Chase, John and Mason met for the debrief theyd put off the night before, and the intervening hours had done little to lift the heaviness that had surrounded them when theyd parted company. However, there was a job to do and their operation last night had yielded some very important information which is what they would focus on right now, not the consequences of how it was secured.
Chase got the ball rolling. OK, gentleman, we have a lot to do today. We are wheels up tonight at 8pm, first stop Ireland. We need to make some headway with the information we found out last night. To that end, before signing off last night I reached out to our research team. Tracking the exact identity of Lezamas mother is not going to be an immediate proposition. There are and have been many Saudi princesses and they dont exactly catalogue every honor killing. That said, we have a good bit to go on we know the timeframe based on Lezamas age, plus we can cross-reference with the fact that she attended Princeton. Finally, there should be record of her death, even if its exact cause isnt listed. We really have some great stuff to work with now for the first time we have something tangible to suggest that Lezama could have enough of a grudge to be involved in something. If he is involved, then I think we have to take the threat even more seriously he has the resources to fund a major operation. It will be very interesting to see if he contacts Natalie again and in what vein
John couldnt help but react to that thought, but he kept it to a stiffening of his spine perceptible but not over the top. Chase was glad to see that control because it suggested John hadnt lost sight of the fact that they did have an important mission, and Natalie appeared to be an increasingly important part of it given the interest Javier had in her. She was more of a source and conduit of information than they could ever have imagined.
The three settled down to go over all plans and schematics for the European trip three weeks through most major countries and a few smaller ones for good measure and John managed to bury most of himself in his work. Lives were at stake and that tended to concentrate the mind beautifully, still, he couldnt help but wonder what Natalie was doing and how she was. His mind kept playing over and over the many things hed heard the fact that shed been raped by someone shed trusted hurt him profoundly on her behalf. But what kept reverberating through his head was Javiers question about Natalie being in love with him. What had Javier seen to prompt that or maybe hed seen nothing at all. Maybe it was just more game-playing, trying to see if he could get Natalie off-balance. Still, she hadnt denied it but was that a gambit on her part? He refused to give a single thought to what he wanted the truth to be or how hed feel about either answer. He was even less-inclined to contemplate his own feelings he was keeping a tight lid on them. Of course a pesky inner voice called him out on the fact that if he had to keep a tight lid, there must be something of significance bubbling underneath. He ignored it.
Natalie got up feeling anything but rested, and as she pushed herself through the days tasks, a heaviness remained with her a sluggishness as if shed never fully awoken. She felt slightly nauseated and there was a tightness in the middle of her forehead not to mention in her chest. If there was any good news, there was so much to be done that she had little time to think. She, Zo and the First Lady were finishing their packing and wardrobe planning and there was a buzzing of excitement that Natalie desperately wished could take root in her since she felt so drained and listless. Another possible blessing: since she was so busy in the private residence it was highly unlikely shed see Chase, Mason or John she wasnt ready to face them, and the fact that she included John on that list worsened the tightness in her chest. She just didnt know how shed react if she could act with the required nonchalance, or if somehow that would even be worse. She knew she had to seem nothing but professional around Chase, but underneath the sluggish shroud of weariness all she felt was raw and exposed, not to mention completely vulnerable. She realized it was better to remain in that murky zone since it isolated her from the sharply drawn pain that she was likely to feel if she fully experienced the impact of last night she had been carved open, the trenches possibly reaching to her very soul. She would have preferred to go another 48 hours with Hawkins than to relive that dinner with Javier.
At 7:30 the First Family and Natalie boarded Air Force One and the three men shed managed to avoid all day were standing at attention, watching them board. Natalies heart squeezed when she saw John and she wanted nothing more at that moment than to fall into his arms, but along with that all the pain wanted to clamor forth so she clamped down on everything plus it wasnt as if she could act on that need anyway. She gave them all a small smile that was more like a grimace and followed Zo to their cabin to stow their personal items. She was uncomfortably aware of how closely she was being watched and hated all that they now knew about her. She felt a stab of pain in the side of her head while lights danced in front of her eyes, and it finally dawned on her that all day her body had been fighting off a migraine and it appeared to now be losing that battle. Terrific. Just terrific.
Just before take-off a ream of intel was delivered to Chase chatter from European-based muslim groups, some preliminary thoughts on the identity of Lezamas mother even a list of US Diplomats based in the region during the relevant period. Another one of Chases teams was technically on duty in terms of protecting the First Family, but he, John and Mason were taking the lead on carving through the intel. As leader of his team, John had a particular responsibility and hed also proven to be one of the most adept in terms of synthesizing and evaluating the various strands of data. He had instincts that went beyond what most others had a natural gift.
Within an hour after take-off Natalie was in complete agony. Shed already vomited violently in the small bathroom attached to the small room she and Zo were sharing. Her head felt like a hot spear had been shoved through it, but it also throbbed. Even with her eyes closed shut the light from the still-bright sky was killing her, notwithstanding the fact that shades were drawn damn summer with its delayed sunsets. Because Natalie so seldom got a migraine she had no medication with her, and Advil was trying its best to help along with ice packs applied directly to the most painful parts of her head. When she could lie totally still she could almost feel human, but her churning stomach kept requiring mad dashes to the rest room, which knocked her back down the path of pain each time.
God bless Zo, she was trying her best, but Natalie was so weak from pain and getting sick that she needed more substantial help getting out of and back into bed and unfortunately the slightly-built female medic wasnt much help in that regard. More unfortunately, while there were tons of medicines and pain killers aboard, none were specifically for migraine, and Natalie was reluctant to take something as heavy duty as Demerol or Percodan since they knocked her for a loop. She would try to gut it out a bit longer, but stronger assistance than Zo could provide was necessary. The First Lady herself had become very worried about Natalie she had a genuine affection for the young woman, all the more so since shed saved Zos life and it was obvious she was in great pain. So it was that Chase, John and Mason were interrupted with a request for assistance from the First Lady herself.
John was out of his seat first, but Chase broke in and said, Mason will you please help take care of Natalie I really need Johns eyes and mind on this intel Mason kept his groan directly inwardly he knew how much John wanted to go to Natalie. Hed been itching to see her and be with her all day, and now that she was ill but he also knew that Chase was right and he took no offense at it. Masons own abilities were well above-average, but Johns were unique. Even John understood, though he hated it. Still he sank back down, saying quietly, Keep us updated, and let us know if you need our help
Mason went into the room and could see that pain-fueled tension and exhaustion were buffeting Natalie. She was as weak as a kitten and his heart went out to her his gut told him this was a physical manifestation of the deep pain her conversation with Javier had visited elsewhere within her. Her body was making it all too clear the price that had been exacted. He said her name softly and her eyes drifted open for a moment before closing shut against the light, and he gently stroked her face when he said, John wanted to come Chase sent me He felt it important to tell her that, even if it wouldnt totally register right now.
Over the next two hours Mason had to help Natalie to the bathroom three times, literally having to hold her up as she vomited, though there was little she could produce at this point. Tears kept slipping down her cheeks and she was writhing in pain and Mason made a decision, Natalie, you have to take the pain meds you cant keep this up She nodded through the fog of pain and Zo dashed off to get the medic. She gave her a significant dose of Demerol and within 15 minutes Natalie was completely out, but her features had relaxed, and unbidden moans were no longer pouring from her. Mason remained holding her hand for a little bit, and then went back to report to John and Mason.
The three men went to get some sleep they had about 3 hours until theyd touch down in Dublin. They stretched awake when they began the initial descent and they made final preparations for their journey from the airport to the US Ambassadors Residence in Phoenix Park where they would be staying. Chase finally turned to John and said, John, Natalie will still be out of it likely for the next three or four hours. Why dont you go get her as soon as we land you can handle transferring her from plane to car, and then to her room. John just nodded, feeling a burst of gratitude and relief.
When he went into the small cabin Zo was sitting beside Natalie, and she smiled at John.
I think the pain medication really worked but she is out cold
It seems she needed that he said softly.
Yeah well, Ill leave you to take care of her and as she said that John thought her words more significant than what they seemed on their surface. Perhaps Zo was more astute than hed given her credit for.
John was finally alone with Natalie and he looked at her just looked at her, soaking in her features, noticing how small and fragile she looked, especially given the hours of pain her body had fought through. And he knew it wasnt just physical pain. He rested his hand against her face and she pressed into it, seeming to register his touch, and that made the tight fist around his heart expand just a little bit. When the time came he wrapped a blanket around her and gently lifted her, carrying her with no effort down the stairs and into a waiting SUV. He held her on his lap so he could help keep her immobilized and safe and he knew it helped him at least as much to be able to just hold her, even if she wasnt aware of it. Just as he completed that thought she stirred for a moment and sighed, John and slipped back into the soothing grip of Demerol, but it was his arms around her that were helping her heal.
When they reached their destination John carried Natalie to her assigned room and deposited her in her bed, under the covers. Then, knowing they were alone, he pressed a kiss into each of her hands, her right temple and then softly on her lips. Giving her one final look he went to find Chase.
Chapter 34
Natalie slept all through the day and into the night, but didnt miss much since the main festivities were beginning the following night, when the Taoiseach (Prime Minister) and the President of Ireland would co-host a dinner and gala at the latters official residence ras an Uachtarin, also located in Phoenix Park. During the day President Caldwell would be holding official meetings and the rest of the party would tour some of the prettiest sights around Dublin, including Howth Head to the North. What Natalie did not yet know was that she was going to beg off that part of the agenda to rest up for the gala and ensure shed be fully recovered when in reality shed be meeting with John for the afternoon at The Merrion Hotel.
She woke the next morning relieved to find that she no longer felt any pain, though she did feel weak, likely from the fact that shed eaten nothing in more than 24 hours though she did recollect someone making her drink water at regular intervals. She also had the vaguest memory of feeling Johns arms around her, his lips softly touching hers mostly she remembered the sense of comfort and safety. As she was stretching there was a soft knock at the door and a member of the household staff walked in with a breakfast tray and a note. When Natalie opened and read it her stomach flipped over:
N - meet me at noon at The Merrion Hotel, Upper Merrion Street. J
She wasnt ready for this she was probably the least ready she could possibly be, but as with most of this whole ordeal she had precious little choice. And paradoxically, there was nothing she wanted more than to see him and be with him but only if it would go the way she needed it to and therein laid the rub since she didnt know what that meant, or more accurately, wouldnt let herself know it for fear it wouldnt happen and she might never recover. She ate some toast, tried to force down a piece of Irish bacon very different than what she was used to at home and drank her tea. At that moment, Zo stuck her head in the door.
Hey youre alive!
Natalie chuckled and says, Yeah back from the dead sorry about all that
Natalie, thats crazy my God I felt so badly for you and poor John
John?
Well, Chase sent Mason to take care of you for a while, but it was John who carried you off the plane, held you during the whole drive, and then brought you in here. He looked so worried
Natalie smiled a little at that, knowing that her memories were true.
Dad said that you were to lie low for the day so that you can be back in form for tonight Ill miss having you along, but you still dont look quite yourself I hope you feel better, Natalie
Im sure I will
A few minutes later she heard another knock at the door and called to whoever it was to enter and she was more than a little surprised to see it was Chase. He had a kindly expression on his face as he stepped into the room and closed the door.
Hi, Natalie I just wanted to check and see if you were feeling better.
She sat up a bit straighter in bed and said with as much strength as she could muster, Yes, much better.
He studied her, noting her wan appearance and while it could be put down to her migraine, he sensed it went deeper than that, and he realized that she would not have the haunted look she did if shed been dealing lies to Javier. He was old enough to be her father and he felt a pull in that direction which surprised him, but maybe it was because hed learned how brave she was when it came to tossing herself into what had to be done. She had been through so much in a short period of time. Yet what gave him pause was that the very thing that made her an increasingly valuable asset was what could destroy her she held nothing back. She didnt seem to protect herself, but gave away as much as was required and he knew with a complete certainty that that is the only reason they learned what they had about Javier this early in the game when that knowledge might make all the difference. He also realized she only had those truths to trade because she and McBain had likely crossed every line so how was he supposed to feel about that? Mostly he just felt worried for them and a twinge of guilt when he admitted to himself that he wasnt going to try to stop them, but instead would continue to shove them in each others paths. The lives they were officially sworn to protect were at stake what would be left of their own and themselves was of secondary importance. He had to have that attitude or he needed to hand in his resignation theirs was the branch of service pledged to jump in front of a bullet. Natalie might have preferred that might have survived that better than what Javier had done to her. What he might still do to her. Not to mention the possible impact of whatever was happening between her and John.
Natalie you did some amazing work the other night What we learned about Javier was very valuable. Theres a lot more intel pouring in John will go over some of that with you this afternoon. But I just wanted to tell you how proud I am of you how important you are in all this and I know it hasnt been without personal cost
Natalie wasnt exactly sure what to say. She didnt want to think about what Chase did or did not know or suspect. She also felt like a fraud because what work had she really done? Shed simply opened up about some of the most private moments in her life many of which had occurred while on this very assignment. Yes, her laudable job performance had been essentially to screw her brains out with her boss and then talk about it with a possible terrorist with mommy issues. How would that get worded in a commendation?
All she said, quietly, was Thank you I hope it makes a difference
It will. Well, I just wanted to check in take care of yourself, Natalie.
I willthanks.
It was already 10am, and she knew it was time to get ready. She showered and then contemplated her wardrobe, trying to figure out what she should wear. She settled on a pair of black linen walking shorts and a white cotton v-neck cardigan that she wore closed on its own. She selected black patent leather mules with one-inch heels and accented her look with pearls at her ears and throat. She sat on the edge of her bed for a long time, trying to steady her nerves, then went to get in the taxi that shed called for.
Natalie walked into the lobby of the hotel a beautiful Georgian structure that had been completely refurbished and saw that John was already there, as always. He gave her a small smile and wave as she walked towards him and her legs felt like they were turning to jelly. She was being stormed by emotions that she wasnt prepared to deal with that she wouldnt let herself name.
John thought she looked so delicate and wan yet tragically beautiful and he could tell she was not herself. He didnt know if it was the lingering effects of her migraine, sheer nerves or both, but it made his stomach clench to think she might have an issue being with him yet he understood it. He took her hand in his and noted it was cold, and when he bent to kiss her she offered him her cheek. He wasnt the only one who was surprised Natalie had not consciously intended to do that. She saw the fleeting reaction on Johns face and to soften the blow she hugged him tightly for a moment, closing her eyes against the feeling of being in his arms again. She had no strength.
John held her for a minute and then stepped back, asking Do you want some lunch, or do you want to just go upstairs? He could see her deliberating.
On one level, there was nothing Natalie wanted more than to delay the inevitable by heading first to the restaurant, but she knew shed likely jump out of her skin if she had to sit there trying to seem normal while going through the motions of dining. So she said softly, Why dont we just go upstairs?
He nodded and took her hand she let him. They were alone in the elevator and as soon as the door closed he pulled her closer and tilted her chin up so they could look at each other. Her eyes had lost some of their brightness and again he wondered why. He gently moved his hand under her hair to the back of her head and lowered his mouth to hers, and she kissed him back immediately, opening her mouth to him and letting her tongue mate with his with a gentle passion.
As soon as Johns mouth moved over Natalies she felt lost. She had zero control over her thoughts and feelings and in that instant her personal truth flooded through every part of her she loved this man. She was totally, utterly in love with him and she was petrified what that meant. She felt her self-preservation instincts kick in and she pulled out of the kiss, burying her head in Johns chest because she couldnt trust her legs to carry her any further away.
John sensed the change come over her before shed fully disengaged from the kiss and he wasnt sure what to make of it all. They had so much to talk about to possibly work through, and he wasnt sure how to even begin especially since Natalie seemed to be struggling mightily with what had become their comfortable routine. But he was also painfully aware of what shed gone through during that dinner with Javier what shed been forced to reveal and hear from him regarding their summer fling, not to mention some horrible memories from her past and he would find his patience.
When the elevator doors opened Natalie stepped out first, but she let John take her hand as they walked down the hall. She wanted to run, but her legs were trembling so badly it wasnt even remotely a practical consideration. How was she going to hide her feelings especially if he touched her. but how could she not let him touch her, given everything? Unless she was willing to blow everything up but why? To what end?
Natalie walked into the room first it was lovely but all that jumped out at her was the massive bed. Why should that have such an impact? It was a hotel room, for goodness sakes, but its presence was so pronounced She walked over towards the window there were two armchairs there yet she couldnt sit down either given the nervous energy coursing through her. She needed to try to steer this situation, at least until she could get herself under control. She turned around to face John and she could tell he was looking at her with a blend of curiosity and confusion.
John, Chase said that youd gotten a lot more intel that you needed to go over with me
Natalie wanting to dive right into work was just about the last thing hed expected from her, and his puzzled expression gave him away.
What am I wrong?
Uh, no, Natalie, but I guess Im just surprised that thats what you want to talk about right now it seems theres a lot more that we could talk about maybe even NEED to talk about
Of course she knew what he meant, but she wasnt just going to cave. She wasnt ready. She might never be ready. Like what?
Oh, I dont know like your dinner with Javier and everything you talked about
Well, it was my understanding that you, Chase and Mason already debriefed about what we learned and that he already had a ton of people researching it hence some of the additional intel were supposed to discuss
Now John was feeling the first stirrings of anger, but he tried to keep them in check. Natalie, I think you know thats not what Im talking about When she said nothing he continued, To be clear, Im talking about all the things he made you tell him about you, your past, us
Look, I did what was necessary and its over it worked its done
Oh, but it isnt, is it? And I think we need to talk about it
And I dont. Whats the point
He shook his head and said, Given what has been happening between us how it all started you dont think it makes any sense for us to talk about what happened to you? Who the last person to touch you was before we collided in the shower that day?
She closed her eyes for second and then said, I dont want to talk about that with you.
With me he whispered in shock. So let me see if I have this straight. Im the man youre in an intimate relationship with and you refuse to discuss it with me, but you willingly did so with Javier Lezama?
Now anger coursed through Natalie. Willingly?! I may have been complicit but I have a hard time saying I was a fully willing participant. Exactly what choice did I have? Ive put all that behind me why do you need me to go into it any more than I had to the other night? For your benefit? Even if it hurts me? Its not enough that I already had to
He could see she was getting increasingly upset and he wanted to defuse the situation, so he put his hands up almost as if in surrender and walked slowly towards her. OK. OK fair enough your past is just that. But what about what he said about us?
Hes an idiot.
Yes, he is, but I think he impacted you nonetheless
In hindsight, she would have preferred to be talking about her date-rape experience she had let things get steered to the edge of the cliff.
Im just tired still not over my migraine
Youre upset about what he said about what he made you say
Youre wrong?
Am I? Then why are you letting it come between us?
Us?
Yes, Natalie Us. The us we talked about becoming when we decided to go with this
She wanted to scream What the hell does that mean? What does us mean?! But she didnt. Im not doing that
No?
No.
OK, then kiss me. Right here, right now not pulling away the first chance you get
She stood rooted to the spot while he looked at her intently. She walked towards him and let him take her in his arms as she tried to stop the tremors that threatened to erupt. She could do this she could pretend it was four days ago two weeks ago even that first night in Calgary. She was wrong. She started to kiss him but when she felt the surge of desire that was no longer just physical, but deeply emotional, wash over her she had to pull back.
When she looked at John she could have sworn she saw a deep sadness cross his features, but then it was gone. He said softly, Now tell me you arent letting him get between us
Im not. Even as she said this she knew she was being utterly ridiculous as evidenced by Johns incredulous expression. He couldnt believe she was going to continue to lie.
Now the sadness reached his voice as he said, You know, I knew that what he said did a number on you how could it not. We talked about this all being difficult and uncertain but also that we needed to trust each other and be honest I can understand you being knocked off balance, but for the life of me I cant deal with the fact that you are taking his word over mine substituting his judgment, his interpretation over what I have to say what Ive told you you said yourself that hes an idiot.. a manipulator yet you have given him all the power here youve put him before me
No
Damn it Natalie, yes you have, or you wouldnt be behaving this way! Its like night and day from where wed gotten to! As if youre throwing it all awaydiscounting it like it was all a lie
Im not! How can you say
He was truly angry at her stubborn refusal to admit an ounce of truth in what he was saying. Theyd never get through this if she continued this way. His attempt at careful prodding wasnt working, so all he had left was bold-faced truth. How can I say that? Well, lets compare and contrast, shall we? The last time we were together prior to your dinner with Javy I was eating chocolate icing from between your legs while you licked it off my dick! Now you cant even kiss me with as much passion as a teenager at a sock hop!
Natalie took a step back in shock but then felt her own anger bubble up beyond what she could contain. Oh, now the truth really comes out, doesnt it?! She took a step towards him.
What are you talking about?
Sex, John. S-E-X. Thats what this is really about. Im not playing my part! No, I wanted to focus on some other things first like maybe our work but my mistake, because Im messing with the little routine weve set up get naked as soon as we get to the room, screw our brains out until we pass out, and then finally work over room service. Well, fine. Lets go then!
While John was still in shock from her outburst she kicked her shoes off, yanked her sweater over her head and next had her shorts off so she was standing in front of him in skimpy bra and panties, her hands one her hips and her face flushed with anger. Her eyes were glittering sapphires as her breathing became more labored. He could tell shed actually lost weight since theyd last been together, the likely ravages of her migraine. He also couldnt help his bodys instinctive reaction to her, and the way her eyes swept down over his pelvic region not to mention the smirk on her face told him shed noticed.
She was angry and aroused but the good new was the anger was blocking those other pesky emotions shed just finally admitted to maybe she could pull this off, then go lick her wounds and figure out how to regain enough balance to hide her true feelings. She walked towards him saying in a soft purr, Is this better, John? Is this what you want from me how you need me to be...I can be this for you
She stood less than a foot from him and the heat was building between them. He knew he should stop this he would. Natalie
Before he could continue she reached her right hand out and cupped his rock-hard manhood through his pants and half a moan slipped out before he grabbed her hand and said, Natalie, stop it!
No! You know you dont want me to She reached both hands up and aggressively grabbed his face, then stood on her toes to press her lips against his, her whole body along the length of him. She said against his mouth, Kiss me John I need you to kiss me
He had no choice he had to give in and he took possession of her mouth in a searing kiss. She was walking forward, bearing him backwards towards the bed, and when the backs of his legs hit it he broke the kiss. They looked at each other, their breathing highly erratic, passion but something else, too, clouding their features. Natalie swallowed and moved around him, getting up on the bed and kneeling straight up at the foot of it to face him. He turned around and again they studied each other, then Natalie grabbed his tie and pulled him into another kiss. His arms wound around her back, hers around his neck, and she moaned at the feeling of his fully-clothed body pressing up against her almost-naked one. But she was becoming more desperate because she was starting to feel again and she didnt want it this way she didnt want to just be physical, or even mostly physical. Still, it was too late to turn back now so she tried to dive into her desire again. But it was so hard she felt so much now and she was shaking with it with the effort to hold back to hide it.
John had been losing himself as well, but he was attuned enough to Natalie to detect the change in her. She was still kissing him ardently but she was shaking and he knew it was from emotion, not passion. Hed felt the latter enough to know the difference. He pulled back and looked at her, kneeling on the bed, passion but also sadness on her face and in her eyes, her body trembling and his heart squeezed as he had his own epiphany he couldnt do this anymore. He didnt want this any more not like this.
He stepped back and gave voice to this turmoil, I cant do this I dont want to do this any more The problem with epiphanies is they can lead you to blurt things out before youve figured out the best way to fully explain them. This became horribly clear when he saw the look on Natalies face. She looked like shed been slugged in the gut, and must have felt that way, too, because she doubled over for a second, wrapping her arms around her middle as she said, Oh God Oh my God he was right Im such such an idiot Ive got to go She was so clearly trying not to cry but not quite succeeding. Johns brain was frozen for a second and he tried to form the words to stop what was happening correct things but before he could say a word she had slid off the bed and was almost desperately grabbing for her clothes.
Natalie had thought shed felt devastation before but she knew she was so very wrong. She felt like every part of her had broken yet she needed to somehow get her body to cooperate and move. John didnt even want to do what they had been doing any more! He must have realized Javier was right and that she was in love with him somehow she must have let that show... somehow hed felt it and he was running away. And right now thats what she needed to do, but she was losing it she felt tears and sobs backing up in her throat but fought against them with everything she had. Dear God, please dont let her face that ultimate degradation of falling on the floor into a weeping heap in front of him
Natalie was so focused on trying to keep it together, to find her clothes, to will her decimated heart to keep beating long enough for her to escape, that she didnt hear John come up behind her she just felt his arms close around her from behind and she began to struggle against his hold because she couldnt bear his pity, or him trying to comfort and console her as if this could ever be all right.
Johns heart was now breaking as he saw what his words and actions had done to her, but it was also pounding with the urgent need to try to fix it get her to see and understand As she struggled against him he tightened his arms and practically lifted her off the ground, saying against her neck, Natalie, stop STOP listen to me you dont understand
Yes! I do you you were cl.. clearyou dont want want.. this any.. mo.. more she was crying in earnest now, it couldnt be helped, but she was also still fighting him.
Natalie, please.. sweetheart
The last intact pieces of her heart tore when she heard him call her that and she redoubled her efforts to free herself saying brokenly, Dont DONT call call me that
John could feel his own tears running down his cheeks he had to make her understand...God DAMN it Natalie I want MORE MORE! Thats what I was trying to say Damn it I love you! I LOVE you and I cant just do what we weve been doing do you understand? Did you hear me? I love you God I love you He was now rasping those words against her ear and she finally heard them she could barely believe it but he was still hanging on to her from behind, she could feel the wetness of his cheek against hers as he rubbed his face against hers and continued to whisper in her ear, I love you
The damn broke. Natalie began to cry so hard, her body was wracked with raw, gasping sobs and her knees were giving out so John followed her down to the ground, kneeling behind her and pulling her onto his lap as he sat back on his heels rocking her, kissing the back of her neck But it was no longer the crying of the broken hearted, instead her heart was pouring out all the pain, hurt, fear the poison that had almost destroyed it.
She was finally calming and she felt John turn her around and pull her across his lap and still he held her and rocked her while she clung to him and buried her face in his neck. He took it as a good sign that she was holding on to him, not pushing him away but he wondered if hed overwhelmed her with his confession. Would that be any better than what shed thought he meant. As if reading his mind Natalie finally pulled back and looked up at him. Her eyes were so puffy they were practically swollen shut but there was a sparkle in them that gave him hope. He gently pushed her hair from her hot, wet face and she said so softly, I love you, too, John so much thats why why I was acting so crazyI was so afraid when I realized let myself see
He cupped her face in his hands and said, You dont need to be afraid any more and Im so sorry I did such a bad job explaining that you thought for a second I love you, Natalie She gently wiped a few errant tears from his face, and then their mouths found each other in a soulful kiss that held everything they needed in it.
John stood with Natalie in his arms and walked her over to the bed where he gently placed her. He quickly stripped down to his boxers and tank and climbed next to her saying, Let me just hold you for a while, sweetheart weve got plenty of time let me just hold you
She sighed and said, You know I love when you call me that
Thats because you know I mean it youve always known
He pulled the covers up over them and felt her fully relax against him. He let out a breath that he felt leave the deepest parts of him. Theyd made it. No matter what else happened theyd figure it out.
Chapter 35
John held Natalie while she slept, keeping her in his arms, her head on his chest. He felt like hed run a marathon but was now blissfully at rest. He was completely calm there wasnt an ounce of dissonance about what hed admitted, what he felt. His only regret was that hed bungled things to badly that Natalie thought he was saying the exact opposite of what hed meant. His heart seized again as he pictured the look on her face, the way shed tried to flee and had fought against him. As his mind went there his arms tightened around her and it woke her up. She pulled her head off his chest to look at him and her own heart stopped for a moment as she saw the love in his eyes it was real. He actually loved her.
Natalie smiled at him and his heart expanded again as he smiled back.
Hey he said softly as he pushed her hair back from her forehead, How are you? Your headache hasnt come back, has it?
No Im finegood
Im really sorry, Natalie
John you didnt do anything wrong. It was me
No, no it wasnt. It was everything and I blew it when I tried to explain when I pulled away from you. Its just at that moment I finally let myself admit my real feelings and I knew I needed more it knocked me for a loop and I didnt handle it right
John, believe me I know what thats like. Thats why I was acting like a complete loon.
He laughed at that. This has been an impossible situation, but hopefully now at least well be solid well know how we feel. So well just have the garden variety lunacy.
That would be nice she said with a smile.
I do love you, Natalie. I couldnt fight it any more
As she looked at him he saw the intensity of her emotions mark her face. Me neither. When I walked in today and saw you standing there, it hit me like a ton of bricks, but I didnt want to freak you out upend everything but I didnt know how to just be what we had been
John pulled her to him so he could kiss her tenderly. When he drew back he said, As crazy as this sounds, in a way Javier may have done us a favor he pretty much forced everything to a head, and I cant say Im sorry about that, though I hate everything you had to go through with him.
Natalie stroked his face and said, Its OK now it all feels so much more than OK.
John looked at the clock and said, Its only 2 oclock, and tonights gala doesnt start until 8pm I dont have to be back on duty until 7, so we have time. The first thing I want to do is feed you. We can talk over our lunch quickly about the intel, but then about everything else. And then he caressed her face.
Then?
Then, if youll let me, I want to make love to you
Natalie felt her heart flutter and she whispered, What if we flipped the order of things
He smiled at her and said, Thats a tempting offer but we need to get your strength back up Still, he pulled her into another kiss, deepening it this time until she sighed. Keeping her in his arms he reached for the room service menu then the phone, ordering sandwiches and soft drinks.
Natalie asked, No dessert? with a smile
I dont want anything coming between me and you when the time comes
She felt her face flush a bit at that and he laughed, saying You know, it really is so cute that you still get all shy and embarrassed at this point.
I cant help it its what you do to me.... you make me forget myself.
I know the feeling They began to kiss again and it started to get heated as John rolled Natalie under him and came to rest between her legs. Now I wish I hadnt called for room service yet.
Told you so then she gasped when he ground himself against her. They kissed and rocked against each other for several minutes until John had to pull away.
OK, I hate to do this but I have to get out of this bed you can stay here, but Im going to keep my distance for a bit at least until after the food arrives.
Hed just gotten off the bed and grabbed a robe when the knock came, and a discreet waiter quickly wheeled in their lunch. Suddenly Natalie realized she was famished and she scooted down the bed to sit beside John, shivering a bit against the cool air in the room. Seeing that he quickly brought her the other robe and she was soon lost in its folds, sealed in with a hug she let herself sink into for a moment.
As they ate she could sense John studying her closely and she turned to him and said, softly, If theres anything you want to talk about anything you want to know Ill answer your questions discuss anything
I dont want to bring up painful subjects
Its OK really. Talking to you about them wont hurt me
I just feel so badly that you had to expose so much of yourself to Javier that he picked over it for his own twisted needs and what happened to you I hate that anyone hurt you
John Im not going to lie about it. It was difficult to talk about all that with Javier especially knowing you were all listening to it. What he expected from me what he said to me that all felt like more of a violation than what happened to me that night three years ago Heres the thing. The worst part about that was the sense of betrayal I had trusted that guy. He was a classmate and I had truly thought he was my friend. But the actual act it really is such a blur, still. I made a mistake and had too much to drink, which made me vulnerable but it also shielded me from the worst of it when it was actually happening, if that makes sense. I have pieces of memory, images. Theres no doubt what happened, yet as I was experiencing it, well it wasnt as horrifying as it could have been. And Im not trying to diminish what happened but honestly it was the breach of trust that was hardest for me to deal with in the end
It had to have been awfulI makes me crazy to think someone could do that to you and I cant help it, Natalie. I regret that your first time after that,,, I was so rough with you. I had no
You had no idea exactly.
But
Natalie turned to John and wrapped her arms around his neck so he had to look at her. John I didnt lie to Javier. I wanted you that day. In three years I hadnt felt that hadnt thought I could any more and Id never experienced it that intensely and then I did I wanted to be with you so badly. Think back on it you left it up to me. And it was amazing. Yes, it was overwhelming, but in an amazing way and I am using that word on purpose. Id never experienced anything like it and I mean that in a good way. A great way. And then latermy God, later what you did to me made me feel step-by-step... That day shut the door on my past, John. And since well I told you the last time we were together I never knew it could be this way I had no idea Natalie needed to say all this to John, even if it was a bit embarrassing because she had to help him see to let go of his own guilt about that first time between them.
John felt better the more she talked. He wasnt completely over it he wasnt sure he ever would be because that would mean being over the fact that someone had hurt Natalie but he could tell she meant what she was saying, that she wasnt just trying to make him feel better, and he was glad he could be the one was the one who helped her move past it. He kissed her softly for a second and said, Its only going to get better, Natalie no holding back
No holding back.
Natalie you said to Javier that you trusted me
I do. I really do. I felt I could from the beginning
I wont ever do anything to abuse that trust. Ever.
I believe that John I know it in my heart. She pressed a kiss against his lips and then said quietly, So, John.
Yes, Natalie?
How about we talk quickly about this new intel, and then we can move onto other things
What did you have in mind?
Ill show you later
What? I show you mine, you show me yours?
Something like thatI was really thinking more along the lines of you touch mine Ill touch yours
Natalie earned another heart-stopping kiss for that and this time she moved away from John and pushed the room service table from the foot of the bed. OK, talk fast whats the new stuff?
He laughed and then said, Theyve narrowed it down to 10 possibilities for Javiers mother. Also, weve seen the term Trojan Horse pop up in the chatter on several occasions
Trojan Horse? As in they think they can sneak in get close to us or maybe even position an insider? Do you think they have help on the inside?
All good questions. Natalie and that might be their aim. Inside doesnt necessarily mean someone on the Presidents direct team or a mole or anything. Unfortunately it could be one of the many cleared people the First Family comes into contact with including wait staff, drivers, anyone. Of course it is even more of an issue when we are outside the US.
Natalie rolled that over in her mind and tried to think of any ways Javier might fit with this Trojan Horse concept suddenly she thought of something.
John, what if thats Javiers aim in pushing closer to me? What if his real interest in me is getting closer to The President, Zo? He already has a lot of freedom and access because of who he ishe can hide in plain sight due to his image as a wealthy, connected business man. But if he and I were to become friends or something and Im Zos good friend, I mean Im living with her in the White House for goodness sake! Doesnt that just get him closer?
John considered what she was saying and it was entirely plausible. That is possible, Natalie and a really interesting thought. You might be right and that may be part of what Javier is up to. But I still totally believe that he is interested in you truly interested and thats not just me being jealous
Well, I have zero interest in him but I am happy to play him to serve our purposesand I think I like you being jealous
Well, I think Ill always be jealous when it comes to you Im just going to have to deal with itbut its more than that I cant stand the thought of you anywhere near him because he upsets you every time.
I know yet every time I also walk away with an important piece of information. And it is my job
I know
But youre not my job anymore
No?
No.
Then what am I, Natalie?
Why dont you tell me? Show me? I think I need a remedial tutoring session
John felt his arousal grow more profound and he needed no further inducement from her. He whispered against her mouth, Take your robe off and move up on the bed, Natalie.
She felt a rush of moisture between her legs at his words, his breath on her lips, his voice Keeping her eyes locked on his, she took her robe off and then scooted backward on the bed in her bra and panties. He followed her up the bed, moving like a cat, their bodies almost touching, electricity seeming to jump between them. He placed a brief but heated kiss on her neck, sending a shiver down her spine, then he took his own robe off, followed by his tank and boxers. Her eyes hungrily roamed his body he was beautiful, she thought again. His muscles were impressive and well-defined, though not out-sized. His tattoos perfectly outlined his pronounced biceps and jutting out from between his legs was his fully-engorged penis, the sight of which caused her passage to contract as if he was already inside her.
Joohhnnn she couldnt help say, a note of begging in the single syllable which somehow how stretched to three as she half moaned it. He smiled at her and pushed her flat onto the bed, running a fingertip down between her breasts and whispering, Yes, Natalie?
I want you
John closed his eyes and took a deep breath at her direct statement. He had every intention of complying, but just not yet. He reached under her to unhook her bra and pulled it off, immediately running his finger tips over her hardened nipples, noting with satisfaction how she sharply arched her back at the contact.
Natalie loved the feeling of his rough, callused fingertips running over her sensitive skin, and craved that touch elsewhere but she was trying to be patient and savor every moment. When his mouth closed over the engorged bud tipping her right breast it felt like an electric charge in her core and her legs fell open as her back arched again. He moved to her left breast and now her hips were writhing as her head fell further back on her pillow.
John loved watching her responses to his touch because she gave them free reign, which encouraged him to try even harder to bring her pleasure. He hooked his fingers around the sides of her panties and pulled them off her body and saw the evidence of her own arousal glistening between her legs. He thought for a second of that night in Calgary when shed left a damp spot on his jeans after refusing to admit if hed made her wet well he had no need to ask now, but he did have an urgent desire to feel what hed done to her and he reached his right hand out to massage the moist flesh between her folds, taking care to brush against the sensitive bundle of nerves. She gasped as her legs spread even wider for him and he felt his groin throb with his desire to bury himself between them, but he still wasnt quite ready. Instead he lay in the V formed by her bent, splayed legs and pushed two fingers deep inside her, grinding them even further when her hips shot off the bed in response.
Natalie could feel her inner recesses quaking as he took her with his active fingers, and she couldnt help the rhythmic movement of her hips against his hand, shoving him deeper within.
Thats it sweetheart oh, youre so wet so tight
She was wholly unprepared for the added sensation of his tongue pressing against her clit and she screamed from deep in her throat as her entire back arched off the bed, her head tossing from side to side. John could feel her begin to seize around his fingers and he quickly removed them so he could kneel between her legs.
Natalies orgasm had just sent its first wave over her when she felt him push her knees into the mattress and move up against her body. In one sharp move he thrust into her pulsating core, groaning at the tight heat of her and the feeling of her pouring onto him to ease his way even as her clenching walls both challenged and embraced his presence. Her back bowed as he was buried to the hilt, then he was driving into her with passionate abandon, spurred on by her intensifying release.
As soon as he plunged into her heated flesh a massive charge of energy propelled her climax to an entirely new level and she could not hold back the whimpers and moans that seemed to have a life of their own as they moved her head from side to side, nor could she quell the writhing of her body. Her instinctive response to steady herself was to wrap her legs around Johns waist which pulled a guttural moan from him. He was nearing his end and he reached down to grab her hands and pushed them over her head as he stretched his upper body along hers, while his thrusting hips never faltered. As he moved, her calves began to press against his ass and soon she was using them to drive him deeper within her still-convulsing body. Finally his mouth took fierce possession of hers and when she sucked hard on his tongue he felt the pull in his groin and he shouted down her throat as he exploded deep within, torturing himself by delivering three more decisive thrusts before collapsing entirely against her.
John released Natalies hands and her arms wound around his shoulders, gripping him as intensely as her legs which were still wrapped around him and their bodies shuddered against one another. She could feel John placing hot kisses along her flushed neck, which added to the fantastic feel of his weight bearing her down onto the mattress while his thickness was still inside, inciting the continued contraction of her slick muscles against him. She could not get enough of his strength, size and power and how they made her feel small, pushed to her physical limits, yet totally safe.
John knew he should move off her he was probably crushing her but she didnt seem to mind, in fact the way she was wrapped around him suggested anything but. Still, he didnt move because it stirred his blood to feel this domination over her, knowing she welcomed it openly invited him to take what he needed. In the end, that told him all he really needed to know about the extent to which she trusted him and reassured him that their first time together had not harmed her.
He finally rolled onto his side, leading her to do the same, and then he smoothed her damp hair from her forehead and temples before leaning down for a kiss. She smiled at him then and whispered, I love you, John.
I love you, too. A lot. I wish we could stay here all night so I could continue to show you just how much
But
But its time we hit the shower and get ready to go
When they were dressed John reached into his jacket pocket with a strange expression on his face Natalie thought he almost seemed shy. When he took his hand out a flat velvet-covered jewelry box was in it and she looked at him in surprise. He walked over to her and said, I got you this before we left DC there just wasnt a good time but now seems perfect.
He handed her the box and held his breath while she opened it. She looked at him in surprise and he saw a few tears glisten in her eyes inside was a diamond infinity necklace, a beautiful circle of diamonds set in platinum. She whispered, John, its gorgeous I cant believe
Natalie, even before I admitted what I was really feeling the extent of my feelings well, I knew there WERE feelings of some sort that it wasnt just a fling. I know wed talked about that, but I I just wanted to get you something to reinforce that
She was deeply moved to know hed done this for her while theyd still been in that murky period. I love it and it means so much to me that you got this even before you knew
Before I admitted what I knew, Natalie With that he took it from her and stepped behind her to put it on, kissing the back of her neck as he rested the closed clasp on it. She put her hand over the circle and leaned back against him. Thank you She turned around and they kissed with a blend of passion and emotion before finally breaking a part.
As John handed her into a taxi he touched the diamond circle and winked at her and said, See you later
Natalie had a hard time fighting back the smiles that kept taking over her face. She didnt think shed ever been this happy before. Her heart had been so heavy when shed been on her way over here, and now it was light as air.
